今天早上听YES９３３的时候才知道，台湾艺人许玮伦车祸过世了。
虽然算不上喜欢她，但是她漂亮可爱演技不错倒是让我很欣赏的。怎么会这样呢？她的前途本应是相当完美的吧，却会因为一场意外把什么都断送了。
老天真的是谁都不给面子的，不是吗？总有人更该死，但是却活得健健康康。
希望会有天堂吧。我直觉她是个孝顺的孩子，直觉她个性应该很不错。让她上天堂吧。
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Design education
I mentioned in my last entry, on the life as a design student is never easy, particularly the life as a Temasek Polytechnic design student.
We have no exams though, haha, go eat your heart out. We just need to do projects and our grades will be graded on how we did on our projects.
Actually in a scheme like this, it benefit the rich people most, where they can pay and hire people to do the work for them. But like all dignified designers, we DESPISE these people. If you want to get the design diploma, jolly well spend good effort on it like we do. Hmmphh.
A typical project begins with a project brief given by the lecturers, then the student will have to come up with the design brief, which came by from a lot of research and reading.
When the design brief is approved, it will follow with MORE research and reading.
In the actual working world, the client outlines what he wants to us, and we compile it into a 'brief'. This 'brief' is in short a requirement list that we need to fulfil. But in school, we are given what my lecturers call 'project brief', and we design students have to come up with the 'design brief'.
Confused? Dont be. =)
In school, usually we will need to learn all different aspects of interior design. Interior design is loosely classified under 'Retail', 'Residential', 'Commercial' and 'Hospitality'. Say the lecturer wants us to do a retail shop design, he is probably going to give us a project brief to say:
"A retail space exhibits, and recalls your inner crave. Create a space of 500 sq ft taking into consideration form, function and experience."
Everytime we receive project briefs, many "WHA KAOs" float in our minds and we slap our forehead in desperation, hoping it register some recognition of the riddle we just received.
Hahaha.
And from this project brief, we will have to come out with a design brief. Because there are no actual clients, we have to play the role of the client as well. Trust me, it is not as easy as you think. You might think that you can put in criteria that you are sure you can fulfil, then there wont be any level of difficulty, but you think the lecturers are stupid meh?
To play the client, we have have to study the client's business. We have to understand the product and we have to understand the history. In short, we will to be playing two roles - one of the difficult client, and one of the brilliant designer.
Hahaha.
We will then write the brief on the following points (inclusive but not exhaustive):
1. profile of client
2. the product
3. the history of company
4. location and site analysis
5. our initial projected direction for project
6. possible theme
7. initial concept (to be developed further upon extensive research)
When this brief is approved by lecturers, we will dive into the library for more research on the product, as well as the theme - say sustainability. These readings and research is labourious and tiring, because we have to wade through piles and piles of books, and swim through million of words, before something struck us as relevant and we can use it in our favour.
Then it will be the site visit. On site, we will take site measurements, site photos, and then we will be on site doing sketching and recording, and afterwards we shall need to compile these into a site presentation board, the first board we will ever finish in a project.
Then we will be doing lots of sketching, in school, on site, at home or during long journey rides. We will also be collecting some mood images to compile into a mood board, and then it will be more and more sketching.
Usually by the third week, we are supposed to have a concept for the space, as well as thought of the architectural changes we are going to do to the space.
We should be having a first draft of a layout done and be ready for the first presentation cum insult session. After many presentations, most of us are quite immuned to our lecturer's sharp tone and fierce words, but the first few presentations in year one was horrendous.
We were basically run down by the lecturers for producing sloppy work, and we've got a lecturer who would slash our presentation boards if the photos pasted are not aligned. To our lecturers, if we cant even paste our site photos in a straight line, what else can he expect of us?
Or he will say things like "This is what you want to show me? I dont want to comment on such sub-standard work."
Ouch. Those work are done through many sleepless nights and built on plenty of readings and research.
Anyway, after the insult session, we will be fine tuning our work, and then we will have to do mock up models. These models are made out of corrugated card boards or acrylics (if we can afford it) or wood pieces (if we managed to pick them up from the industrial waste dump).
These working and reworking will carry on for the next 5 or 6 weeks, then hopefully the whole design in completed by then. We will have around 3 weeks to produce for the final presentation, where we will have to do layouts, elevations, sections, details (which we always didnt do, hee) and detail plans (like the ceiling plans, floor pattern plans.)
We will also have to do 3D visual modeling using computer softwares which will take us 2 weeks on its own. Final models have to be 1:100 scale, instead of 1:200 scale, and that means the model is humongous, and we will have to do it in school.
Oh, how can I forget about the material sample board? We have to collect the materials the we want to use in our designs and usually this result in a lot of begging at the interior decorators' shops, or at the supplier's company.
And last but not least we will need to do a powerpoint presentation to aid our presentations, or if we are extremely busy, we will have to rehearse our presentation over and over again. Because without the aid of a ppt, we might not be able to talk coherently and the flow of the presentation might be affected. (We cannot carry notes in hand, in case you want to ask.)
When the presentation is finally over, we will indulge ourselves in a day's sleep, and maybe a day's shopping or catching up with friends or coursemates (you will be surprised at the low level of interaction during our individual projects - all of us are merely zombies pacing the studios.)
After these 2 days of well-deserved break is taken, what do we do next?
Guess?
Guess?
No need lah, we will just continue to do other projects and continue to go without sleep. Hahaha. =)
We have no exams though, haha, go eat your heart out. We just need to do projects and our grades will be graded on how we did on our projects.
Actually in a scheme like this, it benefit the rich people most, where they can pay and hire people to do the work for them. But like all dignified designers, we DESPISE these people. If you want to get the design diploma, jolly well spend good effort on it like we do. Hmmphh.
A typical project begins with a project brief given by the lecturers, then the student will have to come up with the design brief, which came by from a lot of research and reading.
When the design brief is approved, it will follow with MORE research and reading.
In the actual working world, the client outlines what he wants to us, and we compile it into a 'brief'. This 'brief' is in short a requirement list that we need to fulfil. But in school, we are given what my lecturers call 'project brief', and we design students have to come up with the 'design brief'.
Confused? Dont be. =)
In school, usually we will need to learn all different aspects of interior design. Interior design is loosely classified under 'Retail', 'Residential', 'Commercial' and 'Hospitality'. Say the lecturer wants us to do a retail shop design, he is probably going to give us a project brief to say:
"A retail space exhibits, and recalls your inner crave. Create a space of 500 sq ft taking into consideration form, function and experience."
Everytime we receive project briefs, many "WHA KAOs" float in our minds and we slap our forehead in desperation, hoping it register some recognition of the riddle we just received.
Hahaha.
And from this project brief, we will have to come out with a design brief. Because there are no actual clients, we have to play the role of the client as well. Trust me, it is not as easy as you think. You might think that you can put in criteria that you are sure you can fulfil, then there wont be any level of difficulty, but you think the lecturers are stupid meh?
To play the client, we have have to study the client's business. We have to understand the product and we have to understand the history. In short, we will to be playing two roles - one of the difficult client, and one of the brilliant designer.
Hahaha.
We will then write the brief on the following points (inclusive but not exhaustive):
1. profile of client
2. the product
3. the history of company
4. location and site analysis
5. our initial projected direction for project
6. possible theme
7. initial concept (to be developed further upon extensive research)
When this brief is approved by lecturers, we will dive into the library for more research on the product, as well as the theme - say sustainability. These readings and research is labourious and tiring, because we have to wade through piles and piles of books, and swim through million of words, before something struck us as relevant and we can use it in our favour.
Then it will be the site visit. On site, we will take site measurements, site photos, and then we will be on site doing sketching and recording, and afterwards we shall need to compile these into a site presentation board, the first board we will ever finish in a project.
Then we will be doing lots of sketching, in school, on site, at home or during long journey rides. We will also be collecting some mood images to compile into a mood board, and then it will be more and more sketching.
Usually by the third week, we are supposed to have a concept for the space, as well as thought of the architectural changes we are going to do to the space.
We should be having a first draft of a layout done and be ready for the first presentation cum insult session. After many presentations, most of us are quite immuned to our lecturer's sharp tone and fierce words, but the first few presentations in year one was horrendous.
We were basically run down by the lecturers for producing sloppy work, and we've got a lecturer who would slash our presentation boards if the photos pasted are not aligned. To our lecturers, if we cant even paste our site photos in a straight line, what else can he expect of us?
Or he will say things like "This is what you want to show me? I dont want to comment on such sub-standard work."
Ouch. Those work are done through many sleepless nights and built on plenty of readings and research.
Anyway, after the insult session, we will be fine tuning our work, and then we will have to do mock up models. These models are made out of corrugated card boards or acrylics (if we can afford it) or wood pieces (if we managed to pick them up from the industrial waste dump).
These working and reworking will carry on for the next 5 or 6 weeks, then hopefully the whole design in completed by then. We will have around 3 weeks to produce for the final presentation, where we will have to do layouts, elevations, sections, details (which we always didnt do, hee) and detail plans (like the ceiling plans, floor pattern plans.)
We will also have to do 3D visual modeling using computer softwares which will take us 2 weeks on its own. Final models have to be 1:100 scale, instead of 1:200 scale, and that means the model is humongous, and we will have to do it in school.
Oh, how can I forget about the material sample board? We have to collect the materials the we want to use in our designs and usually this result in a lot of begging at the interior decorators' shops, or at the supplier's company.
And last but not least we will need to do a powerpoint presentation to aid our presentations, or if we are extremely busy, we will have to rehearse our presentation over and over again. Because without the aid of a ppt, we might not be able to talk coherently and the flow of the presentation might be affected. (We cannot carry notes in hand, in case you want to ask.)
When the presentation is finally over, we will indulge ourselves in a day's sleep, and maybe a day's shopping or catching up with friends or coursemates (you will be surprised at the low level of interaction during our individual projects - all of us are merely zombies pacing the studios.)
After these 2 days of well-deserved break is taken, what do we do next?
Guess?
Guess?
No need lah, we will just continue to do other projects and continue to go without sleep. Hahaha. =)
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
A designer cert
My colleague, C, needed me to help him do his school project because, as he put it, he couldnt finish. He is currently studying part time in a so call design school, that I am sorry to admit, that I dont have respect for.
I graduated from temasek poly design school, and I can safely tell you that even if I am not the most promising designer around, my school did give me a near perfect education.
Let's not exaggerate and say "perfect". "Near perfect" is humble enough.
I hold a certain amount of regard for design institutions like Nafa and Lasalle, but probably because of the pride I feel of and for TP, it had always been well accustomed among my friends that I constantly boast that TP is the best design school in singapore.
Really. IT IS THE BEST.
So when this C asked me to help him out with his school project, I agreed upfront because I understand the frustration of being stuck in one of the mental blocks and you cant churn out design no matter what you do.
Then I regretted it when I realised it is not one or two drawings that he need me to do. He actually hadnt even have a design brief in mind, not to say concept nor theme.
*Note: Once I start to talk about design I cant stop and this entry will be too lengthy. I'll write up about design in my next entry ok. Meanwhile you just try to understand that as a design student, you have to write design brief.
He actually needed me to finish one whole stack of drawings, but the thing is, as of the moment, there is no distinguished outline of his project yet!
This cant do.
And to make things worse, I understood later, from another colleague who is taking the same course, that this project had been assigned since aug/sept, and hence it had been a good 25 weeks. And this project is stipulated to be submitted by 31st.
Great, just great.
Honestly, I know it is going to be a lot of work, but I dont mind doing it if I am thinking of it as a chance to do a school project again. I tell you, nothing beats doing school project, where you neednt worry about the cost implications and you amend structures of building when you like it (but remove columns at your peril, because we will need to roughly study the load distribution and then erect new structures to compensate the loss.)
And already, when he told me about the project brief, I began to form a design brief in my head. I have some ideas in mind but I will need to find a comfortable time to sit down and sketch.
(Please remember: After OT = not a good time to sketch.)
But while I am interested in the project, I cant help but to feel pissed at C's attitude. This project was given such a long time ago but nothing had been done about it. We all lament we dont have time, but honestly as a designer, we have it slightly better than others because 80% of our worries come from mental blocks.
And such mental blocks is easiest cured by exposing ourselves to new stuff, like visiting new places, reading new books, learning something new. And we can do this at any time of the day as long as we make a conscious effort.
We can have fun and work at the same time, imagine how good that is. Haha. But you wont want to be a designer if you know better.
Designers usually cant enjoy ourselves because we are too engrossed in the little details of things around us. We look at lighting effects, we stare at the design of the coaster, we examine the material of the lounge sofa that we are sitting on.
So as a designer, there is a need to constantly recognise brilliant concepts, recall our design, map ideas into the design, fine tune the concept to flow seamlessly with our earlier designed, and then 'save it'. Keep looking and keep trying to map ideas and concepts into the design, and keep looking out of ways to solve design problems.
Hence while it is true that this course only on part time basis, it might actually be more beneficial to a designer because he will have more opportunities, in this prolonged period of time, to come up with more ideas.
While C should have done his own project, he didnt and he is expecting me to do help him. I will hate to see someone receive a undeserved grade on a design course, especially because it hadnt been easy to get my design cert.
My design diploma is soaked in tears and sweat and blood and lots of medicine. How can I be doing a design for someone who is going to get a cert not based on his effort?
My design diploma is one of the proudest things I've achieved in this life of mine, and even if I dont go around bragging about it, everyone already know that a design cert is one of the quite-unattainable qualifications. Do I want the streets to flood with a lot of these part time design diplomas?
I can either not do it.
Or do it so supremely great that the lecturer immediately know that it is not done by C.
So what should I do?
I graduated from temasek poly design school, and I can safely tell you that even if I am not the most promising designer around, my school did give me a near perfect education.
Let's not exaggerate and say "perfect". "Near perfect" is humble enough.
I hold a certain amount of regard for design institutions like Nafa and Lasalle, but probably because of the pride I feel of and for TP, it had always been well accustomed among my friends that I constantly boast that TP is the best design school in singapore.
Really. IT IS THE BEST.
So when this C asked me to help him out with his school project, I agreed upfront because I understand the frustration of being stuck in one of the mental blocks and you cant churn out design no matter what you do.
Then I regretted it when I realised it is not one or two drawings that he need me to do. He actually hadnt even have a design brief in mind, not to say concept nor theme.
*Note: Once I start to talk about design I cant stop and this entry will be too lengthy. I'll write up about design in my next entry ok. Meanwhile you just try to understand that as a design student, you have to write design brief.
He actually needed me to finish one whole stack of drawings, but the thing is, as of the moment, there is no distinguished outline of his project yet!
This cant do.
And to make things worse, I understood later, from another colleague who is taking the same course, that this project had been assigned since aug/sept, and hence it had been a good 25 weeks. And this project is stipulated to be submitted by 31st.
Great, just great.
Honestly, I know it is going to be a lot of work, but I dont mind doing it if I am thinking of it as a chance to do a school project again. I tell you, nothing beats doing school project, where you neednt worry about the cost implications and you amend structures of building when you like it (but remove columns at your peril, because we will need to roughly study the load distribution and then erect new structures to compensate the loss.)
And already, when he told me about the project brief, I began to form a design brief in my head. I have some ideas in mind but I will need to find a comfortable time to sit down and sketch.
(Please remember: After OT = not a good time to sketch.)
But while I am interested in the project, I cant help but to feel pissed at C's attitude. This project was given such a long time ago but nothing had been done about it. We all lament we dont have time, but honestly as a designer, we have it slightly better than others because 80% of our worries come from mental blocks.
And such mental blocks is easiest cured by exposing ourselves to new stuff, like visiting new places, reading new books, learning something new. And we can do this at any time of the day as long as we make a conscious effort.
We can have fun and work at the same time, imagine how good that is. Haha. But you wont want to be a designer if you know better.
Designers usually cant enjoy ourselves because we are too engrossed in the little details of things around us. We look at lighting effects, we stare at the design of the coaster, we examine the material of the lounge sofa that we are sitting on.
So as a designer, there is a need to constantly recognise brilliant concepts, recall our design, map ideas into the design, fine tune the concept to flow seamlessly with our earlier designed, and then 'save it'. Keep looking and keep trying to map ideas and concepts into the design, and keep looking out of ways to solve design problems.
Hence while it is true that this course only on part time basis, it might actually be more beneficial to a designer because he will have more opportunities, in this prolonged period of time, to come up with more ideas.
While C should have done his own project, he didnt and he is expecting me to do help him. I will hate to see someone receive a undeserved grade on a design course, especially because it hadnt been easy to get my design cert.
My design diploma is soaked in tears and sweat and blood and lots of medicine. How can I be doing a design for someone who is going to get a cert not based on his effort?
My design diploma is one of the proudest things I've achieved in this life of mine, and even if I dont go around bragging about it, everyone already know that a design cert is one of the quite-unattainable qualifications. Do I want the streets to flood with a lot of these part time design diplomas?
I can either not do it.
Or do it so supremely great that the lecturer immediately know that it is not done by C.
So what should I do?
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Carrie Yeo. My idea of a superstar.
I hadnt catch every single round of PSS this season, but of all the female contestants, I must say I like carrie best. I'm sorry she lost but her redition of chu mo is really fantastic.
I am not saying this because the judges said so. I dont know much about the jargons and things like that, but I recognise the feeling when all the hair at the back of my neck stands.
She lost but at least daren won the males' competition. I am rooting for daren. I am not so much of a diya person.
I am not saying this because the judges said so. I dont know much about the jargons and things like that, but I recognise the feeling when all the hair at the back of my neck stands.
She lost but at least daren won the males' competition. I am rooting for daren. I am not so much of a diya person.
Friday, January 19, 2007
Monday, January 15, 2007
I dont know how to breathe
Like I was telling my colleague today, I seemed to be taking mc very frequently since I started in this job.
I am taking mc every other month, and sometimes I will fall sick 2 weeks after taking the last mc, and I feel too embarrassed to take mc again.
True that there are a couple of times where I could go to work if I insisted, but I decided to stay away just because I dowan to pass the flu, but there are days like today, where the doctor is stopping me from going to work but I am insisting to.
And it seems that all the mc I took since I started work here, are for nose and throat problems. There must be something really wrong with the air condition in the office. Is it because there is a lot of dust particles?
Personally, I do know that my nose is very sensitive. If I inhale some dust, my nose will get all itchy and weird and I will begin to sneeze non stop. When my nose is blocked hence, I will begin to breathe through my mouth (something I dont do on default) and then I will get my throat dried up.
For me, the only way to protect my throat, other than the obvious water treatment, is to not open my mouth.
Anyway, I began to get sick last fri while I was at work. On top of the dusty air, my colleagues have the habit of turning the aircon to a relatively cold temperature. Usually I wouldnt mind, but the aircon vent is blowing in my direction, and like I mused before, it is really cold (with a brr) in my office.
I began sneezing nonstop and shivering in my seat. Then I developed a fever and after I took some panadol flu tablets, I was better.
Not for long. The same night I began to break out in alternate warm and cold sweats, and my temperature (based on my trusty back of hand) went up. It was sat morning when I woke up ( I dont even remember when I fell asleep) and I decided that I probably just needed some good old rest.
I thought given 2 days of rest, I would have recuperated and need not pay a visit to the doctor.
But over the last two days, my temperature just went up more, and my nose is entirely not functional anymore, and my throat feels like it had been sandpapered.
Come today, I dragged myself to work because there's projects that requires immediate attention, and by the end of the day, I was varying between "OK" and "OK-Let-Me-Die". I reached the stage where I will cough so badly that I can not catch my breathe anymore, and it feels weirdly like how people describe asthma attacks to be.
I couldnt breath. I was feeling faint, and I think I am going to collapse anytime. The coughs came randomly, like everyone's does, and when mine occur, I will have to grab something to steady myself with.
When the coughing fit is over, the immediate next situation would be that I exhale too much air and I couldnt inhale because my nose is blocked. I have to apply pressure at my sternum to remind my body to breathe. Weird hor? I think so too.
Ok, I ought to go to sleep. Will update on my breathing problems tomorrow if I havent reel over and died by then. Hee.
I am taking mc every other month, and sometimes I will fall sick 2 weeks after taking the last mc, and I feel too embarrassed to take mc again.
True that there are a couple of times where I could go to work if I insisted, but I decided to stay away just because I dowan to pass the flu, but there are days like today, where the doctor is stopping me from going to work but I am insisting to.
And it seems that all the mc I took since I started work here, are for nose and throat problems. There must be something really wrong with the air condition in the office. Is it because there is a lot of dust particles?
Personally, I do know that my nose is very sensitive. If I inhale some dust, my nose will get all itchy and weird and I will begin to sneeze non stop. When my nose is blocked hence, I will begin to breathe through my mouth (something I dont do on default) and then I will get my throat dried up.
For me, the only way to protect my throat, other than the obvious water treatment, is to not open my mouth.
Anyway, I began to get sick last fri while I was at work. On top of the dusty air, my colleagues have the habit of turning the aircon to a relatively cold temperature. Usually I wouldnt mind, but the aircon vent is blowing in my direction, and like I mused before, it is really cold (with a brr) in my office.
I began sneezing nonstop and shivering in my seat. Then I developed a fever and after I took some panadol flu tablets, I was better.
Not for long. The same night I began to break out in alternate warm and cold sweats, and my temperature (based on my trusty back of hand) went up. It was sat morning when I woke up ( I dont even remember when I fell asleep) and I decided that I probably just needed some good old rest.
I thought given 2 days of rest, I would have recuperated and need not pay a visit to the doctor.
But over the last two days, my temperature just went up more, and my nose is entirely not functional anymore, and my throat feels like it had been sandpapered.
Come today, I dragged myself to work because there's projects that requires immediate attention, and by the end of the day, I was varying between "OK" and "OK-Let-Me-Die". I reached the stage where I will cough so badly that I can not catch my breathe anymore, and it feels weirdly like how people describe asthma attacks to be.
I couldnt breath. I was feeling faint, and I think I am going to collapse anytime. The coughs came randomly, like everyone's does, and when mine occur, I will have to grab something to steady myself with.
When the coughing fit is over, the immediate next situation would be that I exhale too much air and I couldnt inhale because my nose is blocked. I have to apply pressure at my sternum to remind my body to breathe. Weird hor? I think so too.
Ok, I ought to go to sleep. Will update on my breathing problems tomorrow if I havent reel over and died by then. Hee.
Saturday, January 13, 2007
No one in my life
Recently I realised there's a few guy friends of mine who are treating me exceptionally well. If not for the fact that I know their respective girlfriends, I would have guessed that they are having a crush on me. Whahahaha.
One keeps asking me for meals, and re-arrange repeatedly even though I've turned him down repeatedly due to my work schedule and various urgent submissions. When I finally had the chance to join him for a meal, the meal was enjoyable, though kind of awkward cos we usually have meals in larger groups.
Then after that he sent me an sms to say that it had been nice to see me again, and that he would like to arrange meals with me again.
One keeps calling me, asking me if I am fine, asking if there's anything I need him to help me with. Apparently he saw me dashing through the rain sometime last week and he was too far away to offer his umbrella. He called me after he knew I've reached shelter and asked me if I was ok, and reminded me to dry myself so that I dont catch a flu.
Then there were the many times where he would call me, and specifically told me he wants to chat with me. Those calls are usually short ones, while he's travelling to business appointments, or when he's waiting when clients are late.
And etc.
Given this acts are shown to me by single guys, I would immediately associate that they are obviously carrying a torch for me. Otherwise why would they be asking me for meals individually when we used to go out in groups. Otherwise why would they be calling me at every other hour to chat.
But like I say, I know each of them for sometime already, and I know they girlfriends too. So I know they are just beingoverly friendly. But that brings me to another question. How come there's taken guys who are treating me so well, but not as many single guys who is showering attention on me.
Kns.
Isnt it high time someone express? =(
One keeps asking me for meals, and re-arrange repeatedly even though I've turned him down repeatedly due to my work schedule and various urgent submissions. When I finally had the chance to join him for a meal, the meal was enjoyable, though kind of awkward cos we usually have meals in larger groups.
Then after that he sent me an sms to say that it had been nice to see me again, and that he would like to arrange meals with me again.
One keeps calling me, asking me if I am fine, asking if there's anything I need him to help me with. Apparently he saw me dashing through the rain sometime last week and he was too far away to offer his umbrella. He called me after he knew I've reached shelter and asked me if I was ok, and reminded me to dry myself so that I dont catch a flu.
Then there were the many times where he would call me, and specifically told me he wants to chat with me. Those calls are usually short ones, while he's travelling to business appointments, or when he's waiting when clients are late.
And etc.
Given this acts are shown to me by single guys, I would immediately associate that they are obviously carrying a torch for me. Otherwise why would they be asking me for meals individually when we used to go out in groups. Otherwise why would they be calling me at every other hour to chat.
But like I say, I know each of them for sometime already, and I know they girlfriends too. So I know they are just being
Kns.
Isnt it high time someone express? =(
Sunday, January 07, 2007
A gift in a wrong size
After an hour of selection for LD's present, with the sales person looking every bit like he's going to club me with the invisible golf club he hid behind his back, I finally zoomed in to a design that I hope LD will like.
I didnt want something too exaggerated, because he might not find it useful to wear yellow with cyan stripes to hold meetings with clients, and hence I choose a white shirt with purple stripes with alternate thickness.
I guess he would like it, but I really cannot be entirely sure, because as much as we are good friends, I dont know much about him.
(Really, you cant expect us to talk about things so sensible like clothes and future with him (or ND for the matter) because we spend every available minute cracking stupid jokes.)
So when I contemplated whether to get 15.5 or 16, I honestly cannot make up my mind. And I cant really tell the difference too, and hence I thought a 16 should work out fine.
I mean, 1/2 inch is just 1.27 cm, which is the width of an index finger what.
What I didnt know is that this half inch refers to the neck size, and with this 1/2 inch increase, the chest size, shirt length and sleeve length is increased proportionately.
Well done, me.
He asked me if it can be brought to be exchanged? It cant be, because the tag had been cut, and it had been 3 weeks since I bought it. Hence he asked me can he give the present to ND.
ND is a good friend too, hence I am quite willing for the present to change hand. Of course I would prefer LD found it useful, but since not, it should make way for a better owner.
I just want to bash myself up for spending $79 buying a present that I cannot be sure that the receiver would find it useful. But then again, I got the reassurance from him that he really like the shirt, colours and design and everything else.
Everything but the size. Haha.
I met up with LD and his gang yday for LD's birthday karaoke session. TMD, why does it seems so familiar, is it because I help my birthday celebration in the same venue? Anyway, it had been great hearing LD sing. He is still as good as ever, if not better.
Me? Voice cracked like hell, and I couldnt see the screen with someone blocking my view 80% of the time. That girl must have something against me.
LD was thoroughly drunk by the end of the session, but still he was sober enough to remember that he promised that he will drive me home. He got his friend to drive me home, with himself in the backseat with ND and the above said girl. He was singing non stop and luckily for him he had good vocals, or I'll stick some sock into his whisky gap.
Happy birthday, LD! Love ya! and you know it. =)
I didnt want something too exaggerated, because he might not find it useful to wear yellow with cyan stripes to hold meetings with clients, and hence I choose a white shirt with purple stripes with alternate thickness.
I guess he would like it, but I really cannot be entirely sure, because as much as we are good friends, I dont know much about him.
(Really, you cant expect us to talk about things so sensible like clothes and future with him (or ND for the matter) because we spend every available minute cracking stupid jokes.)
So when I contemplated whether to get 15.5 or 16, I honestly cannot make up my mind. And I cant really tell the difference too, and hence I thought a 16 should work out fine.
I mean, 1/2 inch is just 1.27 cm, which is the width of an index finger what.
What I didnt know is that this half inch refers to the neck size, and with this 1/2 inch increase, the chest size, shirt length and sleeve length is increased proportionately.
Well done, me.
He asked me if it can be brought to be exchanged? It cant be, because the tag had been cut, and it had been 3 weeks since I bought it. Hence he asked me can he give the present to ND.
ND is a good friend too, hence I am quite willing for the present to change hand. Of course I would prefer LD found it useful, but since not, it should make way for a better owner.
I just want to bash myself up for spending $79 buying a present that I cannot be sure that the receiver would find it useful. But then again, I got the reassurance from him that he really like the shirt, colours and design and everything else.
Everything but the size. Haha.
I met up with LD and his gang yday for LD's birthday karaoke session. TMD, why does it seems so familiar, is it because I help my birthday celebration in the same venue? Anyway, it had been great hearing LD sing. He is still as good as ever, if not better.
Me? Voice cracked like hell, and I couldnt see the screen with someone blocking my view 80% of the time. That girl must have something against me.
LD was thoroughly drunk by the end of the session, but still he was sober enough to remember that he promised that he will drive me home. He got his friend to drive me home, with himself in the backseat with ND and the above said girl. He was singing non stop and luckily for him he had good vocals, or I'll stick some sock into his whisky gap.
Happy birthday, LD! Love ya! and you know it. =)
Thursday, January 04, 2007
BW: 4 Jan 07
I thought I shall be smart to reach the bus stop by around 19:45 to avoid waiting too long for the bus, but the bus timing is apparently too smart for me, for it came at 19:44, while I was still across the road.
There was no way to cross the road any faster, unless I choose to be run over by a car before I reach the bus.
Also, I realised it is not fair to expect the buses to come on time because there is traffic and weather factor to take into consideration. Well, I cant see the traffic where the bus came from, so I shall dutifully record the weather.
(Weather: After a huge downpour)
19:46 > 186
19:52 > 167, 970
19:53 > 75
19:54 > 131, 130, 107
19:55 > 10
19:56 > 196, 57
19:58 > 100
19:59 > 167, 186
20:03 > 97
Average waiting time
= 23 + 17 min/2 day = 40 min/2 day
= 20 min.
There was no way to cross the road any faster, unless I choose to be run over by a car before I reach the bus.
Also, I realised it is not fair to expect the buses to come on time because there is traffic and weather factor to take into consideration. Well, I cant see the traffic where the bus came from, so I shall dutifully record the weather.
(Weather: After a huge downpour)
19:46 > 186
19:52 > 167, 970
19:53 > 75
19:54 > 131, 130, 107
19:55 > 10
19:56 > 196, 57
19:58 > 100
19:59 > 167, 186
20:03 > 97
Average waiting time
= 23 + 17 min/2 day = 40 min/2 day
= 20 min.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
BW: 3 Jan 07
I've decided to start a project on documenting the time I spent waiting for buses. Or rather, documenting the arrival time of the buses.
Quite insane, and quite inane, but what do you expect from someone whom had gone quite mad from waiting at the bus.
I wait for 97 at the shenton way bus stop opposite dbs every working day that I dont have to ot or dont have a date (which is very often, hmpphh!) My average wait is around 20 minutes, or approximately 5 songs on the radio, and usually towards the 4th song, I am already cursing in my heart.
With the record, I can properly defend myself when I say I am NOT supportive of any fare hike.
The first time in the list would be the time I reach the bus stop and started recording.
(Weather: Raindrops on the buses' windows, but no rain where I was standing.)
19:25 > 57, 196
19:27 > 131, 186
19:30 > 700
19:32 > 196
19:35 > 10, 100, 107
19:38 > 75
19:39 > 107
19:40 > 608
19:41 > 970
19:43 > 167
19:44 > 131, 186
19:45 > 57
19:48 > 97
Average waiting time
= 23 min/1 day
= 23min.
Quite insane, and quite inane, but what do you expect from someone whom had gone quite mad from waiting at the bus.
I wait for 97 at the shenton way bus stop opposite dbs every working day that I dont have to ot or dont have a date (which is very often, hmpphh!) My average wait is around 20 minutes, or approximately 5 songs on the radio, and usually towards the 4th song, I am already cursing in my heart.
With the record, I can properly defend myself when I say I am NOT supportive of any fare hike.
The first time in the list would be the time I reach the bus stop and started recording.
(Weather: Raindrops on the buses' windows, but no rain where I was standing.)
19:25 > 57, 196
19:27 > 131, 186
19:30 > 700
19:32 > 196
19:35 > 10, 100, 107
19:38 > 75
19:39 > 107
19:40 > 608
19:41 > 970
19:43 > 167
19:44 > 131, 186
19:45 > 57
19:48 > 97
Average waiting time
= 23 min/1 day
= 23min.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
NYR - Part I - Independence
I always sighted myself as an independent lady.
Recently, I had a conversation with an attached friend whom was half lamenting that his girl was one whom is too independent.
I laughed and told him that comparatively, his girl is considered quite mild. At least, she is not till the level of being able to identify her independence, or to the level of being able to advise another girl on the perils of being too independent.
I score an easy 9 when you judge me on my independence, and while I pride myself to be fully capable to take care of myself, I also have to admit it works against me at the worse of all situations.
There's almost nothing that I think I cant do, well except IPPT and being in the same room as a cockroach, and for everything that I can do myself, I would not ask someone else to do it for me.
Even if someone offers to do the dirty work for me.
If I may, I can zoom in to the fact that I dowan to be at the mercy of another person, hence I prefer to do things myself, without needing to be helpless because I cant do it myself.
Also I hate to owe others favours that I know I am not capable of returning. At any time that I need to ask someone to do something for me, I feel obliged to pay back my gratitude in a manner that matched the assistance I received, if not more. I would never ask someone to work on a draft for me overnight, compensating her with a mere yong tau foo lunch.
My independence is always pointed out by people whom are hurt when I refused help. Friends always felt I was deliberately isolating myself because I dont trust them. Do I not? I laugh coarsely.
Nobody else that I know of snaps on the defence mechanisms like I do. It is a habit that I had for as far as I can remember. There is only 1 mode -- autopilot mode -- and while half the time I know that my defence mechanism is switched on, I dont do anything to switch it off and learn to trust someone else.
No matter what I am doing, even if I appear to be letting someone else do something for me, inevitably, I am still holding to an invisible rein to the animal. And even if things goes well without me working on it tangibly, it never make me more trusting towards this person.
People tell me all the time that my independence, though outwardly a good thing, is my largest tripping stone in my relationship management. Most people are firstly disappointed with me, then angry, just because I would never let them nearer to me. While others relish being showered with attention, I shun away when someone offers a shoulder to cry on or a hand to grasp.
This new year, I resolve to soften myself a little and try to accept goodwills that people extends to me. I shall not be as insistent against other's concern and affection and I shall just gratefully receive help and not wonder if anyone is plotting against me.
New Year Resolution for 2007 : Be grateful to others who offer help, and graciously accept it.
Recently, I had a conversation with an attached friend whom was half lamenting that his girl was one whom is too independent.
I laughed and told him that comparatively, his girl is considered quite mild. At least, she is not till the level of being able to identify her independence, or to the level of being able to advise another girl on the perils of being too independent.
I score an easy 9 when you judge me on my independence, and while I pride myself to be fully capable to take care of myself, I also have to admit it works against me at the worse of all situations.
There's almost nothing that I think I cant do, well except IPPT and being in the same room as a cockroach, and for everything that I can do myself, I would not ask someone else to do it for me.
Even if someone offers to do the dirty work for me.
If I may, I can zoom in to the fact that I dowan to be at the mercy of another person, hence I prefer to do things myself, without needing to be helpless because I cant do it myself.
Also I hate to owe others favours that I know I am not capable of returning. At any time that I need to ask someone to do something for me, I feel obliged to pay back my gratitude in a manner that matched the assistance I received, if not more. I would never ask someone to work on a draft for me overnight, compensating her with a mere yong tau foo lunch.
My independence is always pointed out by people whom are hurt when I refused help. Friends always felt I was deliberately isolating myself because I dont trust them. Do I not? I laugh coarsely.
Nobody else that I know of snaps on the defence mechanisms like I do. It is a habit that I had for as far as I can remember. There is only 1 mode -- autopilot mode -- and while half the time I know that my defence mechanism is switched on, I dont do anything to switch it off and learn to trust someone else.
No matter what I am doing, even if I appear to be letting someone else do something for me, inevitably, I am still holding to an invisible rein to the animal. And even if things goes well without me working on it tangibly, it never make me more trusting towards this person.
People tell me all the time that my independence, though outwardly a good thing, is my largest tripping stone in my relationship management. Most people are firstly disappointed with me, then angry, just because I would never let them nearer to me. While others relish being showered with attention, I shun away when someone offers a shoulder to cry on or a hand to grasp.
This new year, I resolve to soften myself a little and try to accept goodwills that people extends to me. I shall not be as insistent against other's concern and affection and I shall just gratefully receive help and not wonder if anyone is plotting against me.
New Year Resolution for 2007 : Be grateful to others who offer help, and graciously accept it.
Monday, January 01, 2007
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