Ok. I shall give myself 30 more minutes to mull over the space planning, then give myself a break for the day.
I should be coming back to blog, so see you later.Happy vesak day meanwhile! =)
Thursday, May 31, 2007
No ideas
I've brought work home to do again today although I dont really have the mood for it. I've been struggling with it for the past 1 hr but I am still wound up with nothing concrete yet.
Ok. I shall give myself 30 more minutes to mull over the space planning, then give myself a break for the day.I should be coming back to blog, so see you later.
Happy vesak day meanwhile! =)
Ok. I shall give myself 30 more minutes to mull over the space planning, then give myself a break for the day.
I should be coming back to blog, so see you later.Happy vesak day meanwhile! =)
Just reached home
I'd just reached home after the 3 hour show and a drinking session.
I got to know a person through my colleagues when he joined us for the show.
He... reminds me of someone.
I got to know a person through my colleagues when he joined us for the show.
He... reminds me of someone.
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Missing him
I'm with my colleagues now in the theatre waiting for Pirates of the Caribbean to start.
I can't help but to remember watching this 2nd part of this sequel with him in the same theatre.
We were in a big group then, and I was to sit with him when another friend took the seat between us.
Throughout the entire show, while enjoying depp, I wondered if we sat together, would we be inseparable from then on.
Silly, but I really wondered.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Acting sucks
It is the first time I am watching yuan dian, and I must say, lin yu zhong's acting sucks. I am glad that I hadnt been missing out anything for all the time that I was doing OT.
Home, not alone
I've decide to take sick leave today even though that's work to be done.
I mean, who cares? The world is not going to stop revolving in my absence, and I dont see the point of forcing myself to work when I am not well.
My eyes are so dry now it feels like my eyelids are going to stick to my eyeballs permanently. And to think I was trying to rest my eyes earlier, only resulting in my eyes swollen in an attempt to open it.
I'm experiencing giddiness and nausea, an aftermath of all the long hours I've contributed to work, but nothing's worse than my eyes.
Contact lens makes me feel more presentable, and it is more convenient cos I really can do without my specs sliding down my nose when I walk under the sun to meetings. But at the same time, my eyes are drying up badly, and eyedrops are not helping.
Sigh.
Yah, I didnt say why I titled this as 'home, not alone'. My mother is still recuperating at home, and she is talking to me constantly. Not that I am irked, but I sure can do with some rest and peace.
I mean, who cares? The world is not going to stop revolving in my absence, and I dont see the point of forcing myself to work when I am not well.
My eyes are so dry now it feels like my eyelids are going to stick to my eyeballs permanently. And to think I was trying to rest my eyes earlier, only resulting in my eyes swollen in an attempt to open it.
I'm experiencing giddiness and nausea, an aftermath of all the long hours I've contributed to work, but nothing's worse than my eyes.
Contact lens makes me feel more presentable, and it is more convenient cos I really can do without my specs sliding down my nose when I walk under the sun to meetings. But at the same time, my eyes are drying up badly, and eyedrops are not helping.
Sigh.
Yah, I didnt say why I titled this as 'home, not alone'. My mother is still recuperating at home, and she is talking to me constantly. Not that I am irked, but I sure can do with some rest and peace.
Monday, May 28, 2007
Employee character test
We had an employee character assessment done today mainly for fun, and I'm secretly glad that my boss marked me full points under "knowledgeable".
And under "friendly", everyone felt I should get like 60 or 70 % but my boss insist I am less than 20% in this character.
I am awed. I never knew he understand this employee of his so well! Actually it is very accurate for him to make that point. I am friendly to people whom I want to be, and for the rest, it is go-talk-to-the-lamppost nonchalance that they usually receive from me.
Woah! My boss is scary!
Then after the whole test was taken, and the results were in two segments. The first segment is a series of questionaire, and the second is to simply choose a favourite shape out of the given four.
Apparently, what you choose is what you want to be, but the results show who you really are. My selection showed that I want to be an 'organiser', someone whom is second to bosses and managers, but my actual results show that I am a 'leader'.
'Leader' leh! Mai siao siao!
But I hardly think it is accurate. I dont see any leadership in me at all.
And under "friendly", everyone felt I should get like 60 or 70 % but my boss insist I am less than 20% in this character.
I am awed. I never knew he understand this employee of his so well! Actually it is very accurate for him to make that point. I am friendly to people whom I want to be, and for the rest, it is go-talk-to-the-lamppost nonchalance that they usually receive from me.
Woah! My boss is scary!
Then after the whole test was taken, and the results were in two segments. The first segment is a series of questionaire, and the second is to simply choose a favourite shape out of the given four.
Apparently, what you choose is what you want to be, but the results show who you really are. My selection showed that I want to be an 'organiser', someone whom is second to bosses and managers, but my actual results show that I am a 'leader'.
'Leader' leh! Mai siao siao!
But I hardly think it is accurate. I dont see any leadership in me at all.
Tough fight
I must have mentioned before that I am pitching for a job against one of the big boys in the industry.
My company is a very small scaled one, and being able to compete with the big boys gives us an adrenaline rush.
Apparently the client is undecided whether to award us the job or award the big boy, they were supposed to make a decision last wed but couldnt arrive at one, so they promised on fri they would have an answer.
Today, the latest news is that they will be bringing both proposals to europe's headquarters for appraisal and results will be out tomorrow.
Honestly, I know I am losing for sure, for as much as I am confident of my design, I also know very well my competitor have an edge. They had been doing such forms of design for years and they have the experience for it.
Comparatively, I can only offer my fresh ideas, but that is of no fight when it comes to such corporate accounts.
But nevermind, I am glad to know it had been a tough fight, and the clients are torn between my design and the big boy's. Actually that is good enough to know that there is even competition and not an immediate oust.
I would post my prided design, but I really cant risk my bosses finding this blog out.
My company is a very small scaled one, and being able to compete with the big boys gives us an adrenaline rush.
Apparently the client is undecided whether to award us the job or award the big boy, they were supposed to make a decision last wed but couldnt arrive at one, so they promised on fri they would have an answer.
Today, the latest news is that they will be bringing both proposals to europe's headquarters for appraisal and results will be out tomorrow.
Honestly, I know I am losing for sure, for as much as I am confident of my design, I also know very well my competitor have an edge. They had been doing such forms of design for years and they have the experience for it.
Comparatively, I can only offer my fresh ideas, but that is of no fight when it comes to such corporate accounts.
But nevermind, I am glad to know it had been a tough fight, and the clients are torn between my design and the big boy's. Actually that is good enough to know that there is even competition and not an immediate oust.
I would post my prided design, but I really cant risk my bosses finding this blog out.
不平衡) 是一种丑陋的心情
发现同事的薪金越来越高，而我的却原地踏步，让我感到很不满。
我喜欢他们每一个人，但是并不能抹去心中那分不悦。我付出的时间和辛劳即使不在他们之上，也绝不比他们少。
我尝试不去计较，反而要自己相信他们每个人都比我优越。但要这么想，必定要抹灭自己的功劳。要不然凭什么我和他们的程度相当，薪酬却有差距？
不平衡的心情，容易转为嫉妒的情绪，同时促成我的自信心再一次的下降。
我喜欢他们每一个人，但是并不能抹去心中那分不悦。我付出的时间和辛劳即使不在他们之上，也绝不比他们少。
我尝试不去计较，反而要自己相信他们每个人都比我优越。但要这么想，必定要抹灭自己的功劳。要不然凭什么我和他们的程度相当，薪酬却有差距？
不平衡的心情，容易转为嫉妒的情绪，同时促成我的自信心再一次的下降。
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Late night OT
I dont mean tonight guys, dont worry.
What I meant was an insane late night I've put in for work on thurday (or fri morning, more aptly).
I broke my own personal record then, on the nnumber of hours I stayed back to do work on a work night.
The last record was 2.30am, but on thurs I left at a frightening 4.30am.
4.30 am!!!!!!
Honestly, I couldnt believe myself doing that. On regular days I do OT every night, yes, but I try to avoid any time later than 10pm (which is the official time that I may take a cab home).
I digress a little. Having taking cabs more than 30 times a month just to attend meeting (ooi... I attend more meetings than that, but most of them are within walking distance in CBD area), I am so used to flag down cabs whimsically. The bulk of my expenses are contributed to taxi drivers kopi-o funds, but I still have to put up with their nonsense. Ok, that's another entry for later.
Anyway, I was saying I try not to leave later than 10pm, but sometimes it is impossible not to, due to the massive work load. Also, I've worked till 6.45am before, but that was a friday night and I had the whole of saturday to sleep off my weariness.
For thurs, it was hardly similar. I left at around 4.45am and reached home at 5am. With record speed I washed up and took off my contact lens.
I was unconscious before I could say 'wah kao'.
I slept 3 hours and still managed to reach work on time. I'm amazed.
Actually it is more accurate to say I am amazed by my amount of will. Each time I push myself to do more work, I managed to accomplish it and come out in one piece. There's so many times when thought I will fall over and die, but I am still here.
The late hours spent in office is agontasing, to say the least. You'll look at your pile of work with despair, then anger, then resignation, then despair all over again. You'll force yourself to concentrate but you find yourself in a daze every alternate minute. You are so tired that your mind had already switched itself off but you have to drive it on.
It is a battle between you and youself, and there is no winner at the end of it. You either gain your rest and get fucked the next day for not completing the work, or stay till you are near collapse, and live with the throbbing headache and giddiness for the next 2 days.
Lose-lose situation, but there is no way out.
All except linn understands why I have to do so much ot, especially when the quantity is not justifiable. Most people warns me what I already know, that I will burn myself out before long, (as a matter of fact, linn and myself tells each other that, but we never kept to our promise of leaving early) or that family and friends are more important than work - I may die at work and my boss wont even care beyond 2 weeks.
But I must say that doing ot is really a choice. I could just produce crappy work and escape the office at 6 or 7 - crappy work in my definiation, is work that is done to please others only, and not myself. Working to pass my own judgement is what I am more concerned about.
I dont want to, because I am answering to myself.
And only myself.
What I meant was an insane late night I've put in for work on thurday (or fri morning, more aptly).
I broke my own personal record then, on the nnumber of hours I stayed back to do work on a work night.
The last record was 2.30am, but on thurs I left at a frightening 4.30am.
4.30 am!!!!!!Honestly, I couldnt believe myself doing that. On regular days I do OT every night, yes, but I try to avoid any time later than 10pm (which is the official time that I may take a cab home).
I digress a little. Having taking cabs more than 30 times a month just to attend meeting (ooi... I attend more meetings than that, but most of them are within walking distance in CBD area), I am so used to flag down cabs whimsically. The bulk of my expenses are contributed to taxi drivers kopi-o funds, but I still have to put up with their nonsense. Ok, that's another entry for later.
Anyway, I was saying I try not to leave later than 10pm, but sometimes it is impossible not to, due to the massive work load. Also, I've worked till 6.45am before, but that was a friday night and I had the whole of saturday to sleep off my weariness.
For thurs, it was hardly similar. I left at around 4.45am and reached home at 5am. With record speed I washed up and took off my contact lens.
I was unconscious before I could say 'wah kao'.
I slept 3 hours and still managed to reach work on time. I'm amazed.
Actually it is more accurate to say I am amazed by my amount of will. Each time I push myself to do more work, I managed to accomplish it and come out in one piece. There's so many times when thought I will fall over and die, but I am still here.The late hours spent in office is agontasing, to say the least. You'll look at your pile of work with despair, then anger, then resignation, then despair all over again. You'll force yourself to concentrate but you find yourself in a daze every alternate minute. You are so tired that your mind had already switched itself off but you have to drive it on.
It is a battle between you and youself, and there is no winner at the end of it. You either gain your rest and get fucked the next day for not completing the work, or stay till you are near collapse, and live with the throbbing headache and giddiness for the next 2 days.
Lose-lose situation, but there is no way out.
All except linn understands why I have to do so much ot, especially when the quantity is not justifiable. Most people warns me what I already know, that I will burn myself out before long, (as a matter of fact, linn and myself tells each other that, but we never kept to our promise of leaving early) or that family and friends are more important than work - I may die at work and my boss wont even care beyond 2 weeks.But I must say that doing ot is really a choice. I could just produce crappy work and escape the office at 6 or 7 - crappy work in my definiation, is work that is done to please others only, and not myself. Working to pass my own judgement is what I am more concerned about.
I dont want to, because I am answering to myself.And only myself.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Concept killed
Very stressed.
The more she comment on my design, the more colours she wanted to take out. But the bloody concept is spectrum.
Might as well change my concept to be sepia.
The more she comment on my design, the more colours she wanted to take out. But the bloody concept is spectrum.
Might as well change my concept to be sepia.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Guess I can only blame myself
In my company, there is only one visualiser supporting us 4 designers.
We plan our projects in such a way that we have to queue our projects, and sometimes it isnt easy because concepts doesnt come at the snap of a finger, but takes a few days to develop.
For certain designers who dont work on concept, there is no such problem, because it all boils down to just colour and material matching for them.
In my case, mainly due to me being very new in the line, I take a freaking long time to develop concepts, but eventually they all turn out pretty well.
Currently I am doing a ground floor unit for a client, and because it is for public access as well, I am wringing my brains to come up with a focal point that no one may miss.
But because of the conceptual period, I wasted 2 precious days in my 4 days visuals production slot that I have, and now I can only blame myself that I wont be able to make it for the submission.
Actually, I've got slots all the way from last fri to this thurs, meaning 5 days in production, hence I took my time to do research and developement.
Then suddenly I was told that I have to give up my thurs for a colleague, and then someone else dropped another bomb. I was to give up slots for another project, which will take 2 days out of my slots again.
2 days wont be enough because I am in the office for less than 4 hours a day due to all the meetings that I have to attend.
But nevermind, I thought, because that presentation was scheduled before mine own, so I thought their visuals would be done by the time I've finished my conceptualisation, quite perfect too.
And I realise no. It ate squarely into my production slots.
My visuals was returned to me 60% done, and now my visualiser had went on to do another project. I hate it. Especially cos they give me the slots, and then happily take them out.
But well, I've only myself to blame. Will just give up the project then. Doesnt matter.
We plan our projects in such a way that we have to queue our projects, and sometimes it isnt easy because concepts doesnt come at the snap of a finger, but takes a few days to develop.
For certain designers who dont work on concept, there is no such problem, because it all boils down to just colour and material matching for them.
In my case, mainly due to me being very new in the line, I take a freaking long time to develop concepts, but eventually they all turn out pretty well.
Currently I am doing a ground floor unit for a client, and because it is for public access as well, I am wringing my brains to come up with a focal point that no one may miss.
But because of the conceptual period, I wasted 2 precious days in my 4 days visuals production slot that I have, and now I can only blame myself that I wont be able to make it for the submission.
Actually, I've got slots all the way from last fri to this thurs, meaning 5 days in production, hence I took my time to do research and developement.
Then suddenly I was told that I have to give up my thurs for a colleague, and then someone else dropped another bomb. I was to give up slots for another project, which will take 2 days out of my slots again.
2 days wont be enough because I am in the office for less than 4 hours a day due to all the meetings that I have to attend.
But nevermind, I thought, because that presentation was scheduled before mine own, so I thought their visuals would be done by the time I've finished my conceptualisation, quite perfect too.
And I realise no. It ate squarely into my production slots.
My visuals was returned to me 60% done, and now my visualiser had went on to do another project. I hate it. Especially cos they give me the slots, and then happily take them out.
But well, I've only myself to blame. Will just give up the project then. Doesnt matter.
Movie : Infamous
Courtesy of a friend, I had access to the preview of the show 'Infamous'.
I dont want to spoil it for you, but I must say it is good. I just read today's newpaper and it gave it a 4.5 out of 5. That's good no?
I never really like daniel craig before, ok, or rather, I hadnt watch casino royale. So to me, he is just another actor. But in Infamous, he plays Perry, one of the two murderers, someone whom is terrible, yet tender at the same time.
There's a lot of irony in the show, but it is a true reflection of life sometimes. The biggest must be how Perry didnt really want to kill, but was pushed to just because of mockery. Truman shouldnt be wanting Perry to be given the death statement because he had already treated him as a friend, but he did want, so that it gives the case a proper closure.
In the show, you will see how some people are out to deceive you, and how you'll let him, because you are desperate for hope, a flicker of possibility that someone understands you.
You'll learn that some people place themselves before anyone else, and insist that things must go strictly to his plans.
Watch the show if you can afford the time, and you can tell me what you think of the story.
I dont want to spoil it for you, but I must say it is good. I just read today's newpaper and it gave it a 4.5 out of 5. That's good no?
I never really like daniel craig before, ok, or rather, I hadnt watch casino royale. So to me, he is just another actor. But in Infamous, he plays Perry, one of the two murderers, someone whom is terrible, yet tender at the same time.
There's a lot of irony in the show, but it is a true reflection of life sometimes. The biggest must be how Perry didnt really want to kill, but was pushed to just because of mockery. Truman shouldnt be wanting Perry to be given the death statement because he had already treated him as a friend, but he did want, so that it gives the case a proper closure.
In the show, you will see how some people are out to deceive you, and how you'll let him, because you are desperate for hope, a flicker of possibility that someone understands you.
You'll learn that some people place themselves before anyone else, and insist that things must go strictly to his plans.
Watch the show if you can afford the time, and you can tell me what you think of the story.
Ok, made it
I reached home late after the movie yesterday (but that's another entry) and hence I didnt update.
After a wasted trip, a wasted cab fare and a wasted sunday afternoon, I finally got myself enrolled yday morning.
Me is sneaky. I actually called in to work to say I am having the runs and I will be coming in 1 hr late. But as I was saying that, I was in fact at NAFA signing up my course.
Well, I wouldnt say I am very excited now, but I must say I am glad I made it. =)
After a wasted trip, a wasted cab fare and a wasted sunday afternoon, I finally got myself enrolled yday morning.
Me is sneaky. I actually called in to work to say I am having the runs and I will be coming in 1 hr late. But as I was saying that, I was in fact at NAFA signing up my course.
Well, I wouldnt say I am very excited now, but I must say I am glad I made it. =)
Monday, May 21, 2007
Just want to get the hell out of here
LINN says:
hey babe!
LINN says:
you free this evening?
LINN says:
i just got a pair of tickets to a movie called Infamous
LINN says:
7.30pm tonight
LINN says:
wanna watch?
LINN says:
then i can return your long-overdue umbrella *)
my life's bitched says:
7.30?
my life's bitched says:
at where?
LINN says:
i think Cathay Cineleisure
LINN says:
the tix are on their way
LINN says:
i feel so lathegic today!
my life's bitched says:
me too
my life's bitched says:
i am interested
my life's bitched says:
but i am damn tired
LINN says:
hahah
my life's bitched says:
i feel tired every single %&^$% day
my life's bitched says:
*beeps rude word
LINN says:
a movie will make us feel better!
LINN says:
i;ll definitely take a cab home anyway
LINN says:
so can drop you home
my life's bitched says:
so good
my life's bitched says:
can take cab home after movie
my life's bitched says:
i dunno
my life's bitched says:
i am looking at my pile of work suspiciously
my life's bitched says:
*suspicious side glance*
my life's bitched says:
i think they need me here
LINN says:
alamakkk
LINN says:
just one night lorrr
LINN says:
hahahha
LINN says:
i shd actually stay also
LINN says:
but i have a sneaky suspicsion i won't be very productive today
LINN says:
so might as well watch a film *)
LINN says:
hahahhaha
my life's bitched says:
what is the show about?
my life's bitched says:
*too lazy to google*
LINN says:
hahahaha
LINN says:
i have no clue...
LINN says:
hahahaha
LINN says:
lemme know soon?
my life's bitched says:
1 ticket?
LINN says:
hmm?
LINN says:
i got a pair =)
my life's bitched says:
not just you and me right? and your many many colleagues right?
LINN says:
some of my colleagues will be going
LINN says:
but i won't be hanging out with them lah!
LINN says:
if i invite you means i'm gonna sit with you what!
my life's bitched says:
are we meeting then we go together?
LINN says:
can also
LINN says:
up to you =)
my life's bitched says:
ok lets go
my life's bitched says:
dont give a damn about the stupid work
my life's bitched says:
what time shall we meet?
my life's bitched says:
are we going for dinneR?
LINN says:
YAYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LINN says:
I CAN SMELL THE SCENT OF FREEDOM!
LINN says:
HAHAHAHHA
LINN says:
hmmmm
LINN says:
i dunno if we have time for dinner
LINN says:
ok, lemme get th etix and confirm the location
LINN says:
and then we decide the time and dinner?
my life's bitched says:
ok
LINN says:
wohoo!
LINN says:
yay, now i feel so happy!
LINN says:
movieee!!!
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Tired mind II
I had been very stressed up at work these days. There's so much to do, so much to conceptualise and so little time.
I am forcing myself not to think about work for this weekend, hence I am spending the whole afternoon cooking, blogging and taking psychological tests.
The more I stress up the less I am able to perform, but the stress level at work is usually very overwhelming.
There is an urge to cry, and there is an urge to run out of the office. I hadnt been feeling well all week but there's no time to take mc. But I am estimating that I will be taking mc this wednesday though, since I need to see the doctor and since tomorrow and tuesday is out of bounds.
I had been doing extensive amount of ot these two weeks and it is basically swallowing me up whole. I cant even find time to go out with friends, and the little time I have this week, which is today, I cant stop thinking about work.
Sheesh, I wish I have on-off switch and I can switch my mind off. While I am typing this line, I am telling myself that I HAVE to switch off, but yet at the back of my mind, I am still conceptualising.
Conceptualising is something that requires time and space, and sometimes it takes the stroke of luck.
None of these is on my side now.
I am forcing myself not to think about work for this weekend, hence I am spending the whole afternoon cooking, blogging and taking psychological tests.
The more I stress up the less I am able to perform, but the stress level at work is usually very overwhelming.
There is an urge to cry, and there is an urge to run out of the office. I hadnt been feeling well all week but there's no time to take mc. But I am estimating that I will be taking mc this wednesday though, since I need to see the doctor and since tomorrow and tuesday is out of bounds.
I had been doing extensive amount of ot these two weeks and it is basically swallowing me up whole. I cant even find time to go out with friends, and the little time I have this week, which is today, I cant stop thinking about work.
Sheesh, I wish I have on-off switch and I can switch my mind off. While I am typing this line, I am telling myself that I HAVE to switch off, but yet at the back of my mind, I am still conceptualising.
Conceptualising is something that requires time and space, and sometimes it takes the stroke of luck.
None of these is on my side now.
Sibei Eng : Blockoo.com
There's this webpage called blockoo.com where one can type in their msn address and find out who had blocked or deleted you.
I tried it out to see if any results would be surprising to me, and well, nothing is.
But I kind of think this website is really an invasion of privacy. I have so many people whom I want to block on msn but I cannot do it anymore because I dowan to appear socially inept.
Crap.
I tried it out to see if any results would be surprising to me, and well, nothing is.
But I kind of think this website is really an invasion of privacy. I have so many people whom I want to block on msn but I cannot do it anymore because I dowan to appear socially inept.
Crap.
Art Exhibition / Superstring
Esplanade PresentsSuperstring - a series of single continuous line drawings
Joshua Yang
Singapore
7 Apr - 1 Jul 07, Sat - Sun, Concourse
Created by Joshua Yang, an engineer turned sculptor, Superstring - a series of single continuous line drawings is a site-specific installation consisting of drawings done on rolls of canvas stretched across pulleys and rollers and moved along in circular loops by electric motors in the fashion of conveyor belts or travellators. These drawings are done in a single continuous line with no breaks or overlaps. The concept behind the mode of drawing in a single continuous line ties in with the Superstring Theory which postulates that all matter in the universe is made up of and connected by tiny symmetrical vibrations called strings. The significance of connections and drawing parallels between science and art becomes apparent in the installation which couples art (in drawings) and science (motors and pulleys).
I was at the esplanade on friday and there is this art exhibition which is just installation of marker drawings on canvas.
But the concept of a string drawing is interesting, though it cannot be unique. The pictures took are a mess, and the actual is much nicer. Find time to visit esplande, and see them for yourself. =)Among all, I think I like the drawing of the sewing machine most. Singer brand leh! So nostagic.
Will blog more
I hadnt been blogging for a while, and hence felt the necessity to update, though it is not as though the 3 readers that I have are diligently reading.
But well, blog to record, blog to register.
As a matter of fact, for the past few months, although I had plenty to say, I didnt manage to find the change to blog about it. Particially it is due to the fact that I had been working as long hours as before, and I am honestly getting drained (as though you hadnt hear this for the 456418741th time already.)
But usually, after I've reached home, I could only find enough energy to watch meaningless tv (and that means I cant even watch national geographic and discovery without my brain warning to crack and ooze blood) and no strength to log in to blogger to write anything.
I do try to blog via email at work, but that is wholly dependant on whether I am busy or not. The moment I have some free minutes, I would log in to gmail and smash away at the keyboard to put together a quick entry.
I used to blog via gprs too, but stopped for over 6 mths now. That is because gprs always prompt to disconnect while I am still typing and then I wont be able to send the email.
But I've learnt! These days I simply compose my contents like I am writing an sms, then I will copy the whole chunk and log in to gprs's gmail to paste and post it.
Each log in will cost me 10cents, but aiyah, who cares right? I've surfed gprs to around $50 before, but who cares right? Hahahaha. =)
But well, blog to record, blog to register.
As a matter of fact, for the past few months, although I had plenty to say, I didnt manage to find the change to blog about it. Particially it is due to the fact that I had been working as long hours as before, and I am honestly getting drained (as though you hadnt hear this for the 456418741th time already.)
But usually, after I've reached home, I could only find enough energy to watch meaningless tv (and that means I cant even watch national geographic and discovery without my brain warning to crack and ooze blood) and no strength to log in to blogger to write anything.
I do try to blog via email at work, but that is wholly dependant on whether I am busy or not. The moment I have some free minutes, I would log in to gmail and smash away at the keyboard to put together a quick entry.
I used to blog via gprs too, but stopped for over 6 mths now. That is because gprs always prompt to disconnect while I am still typing and then I wont be able to send the email.
But I've learnt! These days I simply compose my contents like I am writing an sms, then I will copy the whole chunk and log in to gprs's gmail to paste and post it.
Each log in will cost me 10cents, but aiyah, who cares right? I've surfed gprs to around $50 before, but who cares right? Hahahaha. =)
Didnt make it
With reference to the last entry that was made over gprs, I was actually going to NAFA to enrol in classes, but it was a wasted trip.
I had been thinking about taking classes for forever now but I always missed the enrolment period.
The website mentioned enrolment is from 9am to 5pm, 2may to 21 may but that's no indication that it wont be opened on sat and sunday.
Well, I thought it would be, cos there are lessons on weekends.
The walk itself was a nightmare already. I walked from bugis mrt station and began to wonder how come I dont see the building; it turns out that the campus had moved and because I didnt see the familiar black font, I didnt even know I was actually circling the building, though I find the wall plaster very familiar.
Bloody hell.
I tried accessing streetdirectory.com via gprs, but the page wont load properly due to the massive numbers of links in the homepage. I called my younger brother who was using the comp when I left home 1 hr earlier, but he had already switched off the comp and menacingly told me he is watching tv.
I ended the call while cursing other my breathe, and decided that the only thing I can do is to depend on myself, hence I walked back to the mrt station to take a look at the locality map.
Well, it was at bencoolen st now, so I began walking all over again, only to realise that if I had walked another 2 minutes on my previous walk, I would have reached the campus already.
Sigh
Sigh
Sigh
Nevermind, at least I've found it, or so I thought, and things will get better.
I looked forward to getting myself a big gulp after my enrolment, only to be told by the security guard that the office is not opened today.
Bloody hell lor!
Tomorrow is the last day, and that means I will have to go early in the morning tomorrow, and call in to take 2 hours off tomorrow morning.
Well, I rather miss 2 hours of pay than miss the course. But if I still dont manage to register tomorrow, I guess it is fated.
I tried to take 197 home after the whole fiasco, only to realise the bus doesnt go my direction, and the busstop on the opposite of the road doesnt have the bus service.
And so what did I do? I succumbed to my laziness, and took cab home. $11.70. Bloody hell.
I had been thinking about taking classes for forever now but I always missed the enrolment period.
The website mentioned enrolment is from 9am to 5pm, 2may to 21 may but that's no indication that it wont be opened on sat and sunday.
Well, I thought it would be, cos there are lessons on weekends.
The walk itself was a nightmare already. I walked from bugis mrt station and began to wonder how come I dont see the building; it turns out that the campus had moved and because I didnt see the familiar black font, I didnt even know I was actually circling the building, though I find the wall plaster very familiar.
Bloody hell.
I tried accessing streetdirectory.com via gprs, but the page wont load properly due to the massive numbers of links in the homepage. I called my younger brother who was using the comp when I left home 1 hr earlier, but he had already switched off the comp and menacingly told me he is watching tv.
I ended the call while cursing other my breathe, and decided that the only thing I can do is to depend on myself, hence I walked back to the mrt station to take a look at the locality map.
Well, it was at bencoolen st now, so I began walking all over again, only to realise that if I had walked another 2 minutes on my previous walk, I would have reached the campus already.
Sigh
Sigh
Sigh
Nevermind, at least I've found it, or so I thought, and things will get better.
I looked forward to getting myself a big gulp after my enrolment, only to be told by the security guard that the office is not opened today.
Bloody hell lor!
Tomorrow is the last day, and that means I will have to go early in the morning tomorrow, and call in to take 2 hours off tomorrow morning.
Well, I rather miss 2 hours of pay than miss the course. But if I still dont manage to register tomorrow, I guess it is fated.
...
I tried to take 197 home after the whole fiasco, only to realise the bus doesnt go my direction, and the busstop on the opposite of the road doesnt have the bus service.
And so what did I do? I succumbed to my laziness, and took cab home. $11.70. Bloody hell.
Towards a wish
I'm on my way to a place where I will be fulfilling a small part of my dream.
This place would provide me the chance to learn something that I
always wanted to, and although I'll be needing to spend some money to
participate, I'm not too concerned about the monetary factor.
What's a bit of money compared to the chance of realising a wish?
Tired mind
I feel very braindead.
I keep reminding myself to relax but so far so bad.
It had been a long week, or rather, it had been 2 long weeks, further magnified by all the OTs.
I keep reminding myself to relax but so far so bad.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
Works hard
Your financial theme song is "She Works Hard for the Money"
What's Your Financial Theme Song?
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Your financial theme song is "She Works Hard for the Money"
In your world, there are no shortcuts, just hard work. Plain and simple. And we have to admire you for that. Whether it's pulling the late shift at the local diner or taking on another project at the office, we'd guess you're rarely one to say, "No," when it comes to work.
Maybe it's because you know what it's like not to have money, and you have no intention of going there again. To you, there's nothing worse than laziness, and we'd guess it drives you crazy to see people around you who aren't pulling their weight. But have no fear, your late hours and dedication won't go unnoticed. In fact, they are sure to reward you in the end.
Well, I agree totally. I cant stand people who are lazy.
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
想放手) 却不自觉的抓得更紧
我想过放手，但是我太软弱。
右肩上的天使很理性的对我说，不放开就永远不能脱身。
放开才能挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩。
我多想啊。我是有多想啊。
天使善良的说，感情总是让最懂事的人不再懂事，最清醒的人无法清醒。即使我努力的想以理智去克服心中的那分痛，往往只是徒劳无功。
我瑟缩，不停的颤抖着。当眼泪不受控制的如雨下，我鄙视这样的我，却放纵自己继续哭。
左肩上的魔鬼，轻而易举的住进心里。他说着是悦耳的谎言，是我想听的话。他帮忙想着借口，好让我的痛能减轻一点点。
我明知道不能听下去，却贪焚的想听。我想让他住嘴，却是自己发不出声音的咆哮着。对自己抱着愤怒和不解，始终不能救赎这份感情。
我厌倦了。我想放手，但是我却太软弱。
右肩上的天使很理性的对我说，不放开就永远不能脱身。
放开才能挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩。
我多想啊。我是有多想啊。
天使善良的说，感情总是让最懂事的人不再懂事，最清醒的人无法清醒。即使我努力的想以理智去克服心中的那分痛，往往只是徒劳无功。
我瑟缩，不停的颤抖着。当眼泪不受控制的如雨下，我鄙视这样的我，却放纵自己继续哭。
左肩上的魔鬼，轻而易举的住进心里。他说着是悦耳的谎言，是我想听的话。他帮忙想着借口，好让我的痛能减轻一点点。
我明知道不能听下去，却贪焚的想听。我想让他住嘴，却是自己发不出声音的咆哮着。对自己抱着愤怒和不解，始终不能救赎这份感情。
我厌倦了。我想放手，但是我却太软弱。
Saturday, May 05, 2007
Badminton
I cannot remember when was the last time I've played badminton, but it is definitely ages ago.
I went to play badminton with my colleagues for 2 hrs just now, and now my right arm is shivering from all the strains.
But it had been fun forcing myself to my edge. Usually with others I would gladly give up after a couple of games, but today I was really pushing myself to continue even when I was already serving shuttlecocks in all crocked directions.
Guess I would feel the full impact only tomorrow.
It is a great feeling to be sweating bullets, but I really have to bring correct sports gear in future. And LOTS of water.
I went to play badminton with my colleagues for 2 hrs just now, and now my right arm is shivering from all the strains.
But it had been fun forcing myself to my edge. Usually with others I would gladly give up after a couple of games, but today I was really pushing myself to continue even when I was already serving shuttlecocks in all crocked directions.
Guess I would feel the full impact only tomorrow.
It is a great feeling to be sweating bullets, but I really have to bring correct sports gear in future. And LOTS of water.
Thursday, May 03, 2007
Tired!~
Holy shit.
I've just finished my work. Ahem. I mean my boss's work.
She finally confirmed the visuals with our visualiser at around 5pm, when I had went out for a meeting. As a matter of fact, I was in the office until 3.50pm but she hadnt given the green lights yet.
And when I returned at 5.30pm, I began to apply the visuals to the presentation boards immediately. I had already done the storyboarding (for the uninitiated, in our lingo, it means the layout of the presentation boards) and all I needed to do was to stick the 11 visuals onto foam boards and in turn stick them onto the boards.
She came to me and asked me how come the boards are not ready yet.
To be fair, she wasnt being angry, she said it more in a joking tone, but STILL!
I kept quiet and continued to do my work. Did she really have to know why the 5 presentation boards arent ready? It is because she couldnt confirm the design, and I was waiting for the visuals! And also, I would have to match certain finishes according to the completed visuals, such as the laminate colours, the paint colours, the fabric for chairs and everything that she had not really confirmed on.
(Usually to speed things up, our visualiser would put in some of his input into the design too. But he would do it based on gut feeling, and not off some tangible laminate colours for example. Hence by the time I do the presentation boards, I have to find a laminate to match it.)
Sigh.. More stories another time. I am fucking tired. Tada!
I've just finished my work. Ahem. I mean my boss's work.
She finally confirmed the visuals with our visualiser at around 5pm, when I had went out for a meeting. As a matter of fact, I was in the office until 3.50pm but she hadnt given the green lights yet.
And when I returned at 5.30pm, I began to apply the visuals to the presentation boards immediately. I had already done the storyboarding (for the uninitiated, in our lingo, it means the layout of the presentation boards) and all I needed to do was to stick the 11 visuals onto foam boards and in turn stick them onto the boards.
She came to me and asked me how come the boards are not ready yet.
To be fair, she wasnt being angry, she said it more in a joking tone, but STILL!
I kept quiet and continued to do my work. Did she really have to know why the 5 presentation boards arent ready? It is because she couldnt confirm the design, and I was waiting for the visuals! And also, I would have to match certain finishes according to the completed visuals, such as the laminate colours, the paint colours, the fabric for chairs and everything that she had not really confirmed on.
(Usually to speed things up, our visualiser would put in some of his input into the design too. But he would do it based on gut feeling, and not off some tangible laminate colours for example. Hence by the time I do the presentation boards, I have to find a laminate to match it.)
Sigh.. More stories another time. I am fucking tired. Tada!
Dio sabo
Right after I thought I've finished my work, (or rather, my boss's work), I came to know that I had been working on a superceeded version.
During the only meeting that I was invited to attend, that was THE version that was being discussed, and there was no speak of changing.
I went ahead and finished my share of the work, only to realise there had been a change since dunno when, and no one had bothered to inform me.
Shit.
Win already lor, now have to redo the whole fucking thing.
During the only meeting that I was invited to attend, that was THE version that was being discussed, and there was no speak of changing.
I went ahead and finished my share of the work, only to realise there had been a change since dunno when, and no one had bothered to inform me.
Shit.
Win already lor, now have to redo the whole fucking thing.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Sibei Eng: ModWalls Custom Blender
ModWalls Custom BlenderI am trying to incorporate mosaic tiles into my commercial design and I am trying to see how can I do it without having it look like it is an extended toilet.
The above link gives you a chance to mix tiles to see their effect. This company is not singapore based, but well, you can bring your desired effects to namhuat or something.
Too many visitors
My house is so bloody packed with well-meaning visitors that it is going to explode at it's edges.
Everyone is talking at the same time, and my brother is trying to turn up the tv's volume so that he can tune out the noise. I was ousted from the computer in the living room because there wasnt enough seats.
Thank god for laptop.
If they start to manifest the kitchen where I am at now, I am heading over to macdonalds.
Everyone is talking at the same time, and my brother is trying to turn up the tv's volume so that he can tune out the noise. I was ousted from the computer in the living room because there wasnt enough seats.
Thank god for laptop.
If they start to manifest the kitchen where I am at now, I am heading over to macdonalds.
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