Sorry, three from now

Hmm, things did went wrong. Today is my fourth last day. Wed will be my third last day, fri being my second, next mon being the last.

Wow. 3 more days. Very hard to imagine leaving my colleagues.

I dont mind having to leave the company, but I miss my colleagues a lot. Then again, even if I dont leave they will leave eventually, so suan le lor.

Anyway, it is the culture at this company that when a staff leaves, an envelope is passed around and people put in a token. Usually people would put in from between $2 to $5 and some would just pass the envelope without putting in money -- like me.

This money will eventually be miraculously transformed into rations to be distributed among the company.

I was originally considering what kind of food to buy, and cornetto minis were on my mind.

(Images stolen from fonsus cos lao niang too lazy to go take my own pictures. The flickr-tag search engine is too useful!)

Or polar's small swiss rolls.

(Normal swiss rolls, stolen from gnuf)


Or crystal jade egg tarts.

(These are just normal egg tarts. Pics stolen and touched up.)


Or chicken pies.

(Again, pics stolen and touched up.)

In the end, I've decided on subway's cookies. It is only right that I choose something that I like to eat right?



I've checked the prices, 1 cookie for $1, or 3 for $2.50, or 12 for $9. I think I am getting 84, meaning it will cost $63. Quite relieved cos I am prepared to bleed $100.

(Sorry for the various sizes of pics. I am too lazy to uniform them. =p)

Three

If things doesnt go wrong, tomorrow will be my third day to my last day at work. I dunno what to feel.

Or rather, it is not even tomorrow, it will be later today.

After that I will be resting for a few days then start work at the new company. I have zero confidence in myself for the next job. I dunno how am I going to be killed/slaughtered/maimed there.

Sigh.

Lyrics: wbxxzan

我比想像中愛你
作詞：陳忠義／蕭人鳳 作曲：陳忠義 演唱：JS

飛的越遠越看不見 你陽光下燦爛的笑臉
在天和海之間那條界線 慢慢地走遠 你曾經是我的地平線

你有沒有一點想念 我們一起去年的夏天
有種愛的感覺 在心裡面 那麼的強烈
而這一切 好像只是昨天

我才發現 我比想像中愛你 只是一时不小心錯過了你
每當夜深人靜 我誠實的分析我自己
還是不可否認的 我比想像中愛你

浪花掠過沙灘邊境 (海風就像你的呼吸)
我又看見我們的腳印 (那曾是回憶的痕跡)
如果遇見幸福的機率要千萬分之一 不顧一切 也要找回你

我才發現我比想像中愛你 只是一时不小心錯過了你
每當夜深人靜 我誠實的分析我自己
總會從夢中驚醒 還是不可否認的 我比想像中愛你

終於發現我比想像中愛你 只是一时不小心錯過了你
每當夜深人靜 我誠實的分析我自己
總會從夢中驚醒 還是不可否認的 我比想像中愛你

It's the 25th

Bills paying day. $110 poorer. Shit. = (

Anyway, tomorrow I am going to sign my appointment letter. Although inside me I am a little bu shuang why she is fetching a pay almost twice of mine at her new job. I mean, we are both doing the same jobscope in this current job, and she is joining her new job with no relevant experience like me, but her pay is so much higher.

What is the difference here? The qualifications? It is time like this I find it utterly unfair. It doesnt seems to pay (literally) to pursue my interest.

Although I am not putting money in first place for everything, but having more money never hurt anymore.

Sigh.

Firing singnet?

I'm considering to leave singnet and embrace maxonline from now on.

The price is the same, ard $60 a mth, but still I'm inclined towards maxonline.

Singnet is giving me 5 mths free subscription, but still I'm inclined towards maxonline.

Wha... but 5 mths x $60 = $300 leh. I wanted to leave singnet since long ago because the customer service sucks, and there is nothing they are doing for a loyal customer for ard 8 years.

With singtel, if you have been their customer for how long how long, then they will automatically gives a certain percentage of savings off the bill.

But singnet doesnt have that. When I was using dial up, at least they were giving me some extra hours. After I signed up for their broadband, they begin to forget to bait me with more benefits. Then whenever I need their assistance the customer service officers always give me attitude problems. I am no gem myself, but the poor attitudes of those officers really makes you wonder is it that their boss taught them that?

Zen me ban?

What's with inconveniencing others?

Why doesnt the witch bring keys with her when she goes out? I know this is trivial, but it irritates me to beyond my imagination.

She always goes out without her keys, then knock on the door when she return. I've asked her to bring keys repeatedly, but she prefer not to, giving me some lame excuse like her bunch of keys is too heavy to bring to the market.

Rubbish.

I dont like to open door for others because I would never request someone to open the door for me when I can open it myself. No matter how many shopping bags I am carrying on my hands, or I am so sick I cant stand up straight I will still open the door myself.

Even if I cannot find my keys inside the abyss of my enormous carrier, I would squat down outside my door and rummage the contents.

So why is it that she cannot bring her own keys?

I detest opening doors for her so much that whenever I am the only one at home, when she knocks I will dash into the toilet and sit in there. She would then have to go to borrow keys from my granny. Very jian I know, so what?

She always ask me to open door for her not jian meh? Sometimes I am in the middle of doing work, or comfortably reading, or playing games then I have to put down whatever I am doing to open the door for her. I am selfish I know, so what?

If her hands are full I understand, but I cannot comprehend elsewise. How can someone take so much fun inconveniencing others? *Shakes head.*

Uh oh

The company wants me to go sign the appointment letter this fri. I immediately say because need to hand over work, I need to do a lot of OT these days. Anyway, it was they who decided that I sign the appointment letter when I start work what.

Shit one leh.

Now change their mind again, they think they teppanyaki chicken ar? Peng lai peng kiir.

They want me to give them an answer tmr. Shit one leh. Choose next wed lah, fuck care.

Anyway. The reason why I am at home now is because I am on mc again. Down with flu. Tsk tsk tsk. Poor me, always so ill stricken.

My kind doctor gave me 2 days mc, so I would be home until tmr if I feel like it. If I dont I shall go back to work lor, it doesnt matter much to me.

But I think I shall stay home, it isnt nice to spread germs to colleagues, is it?


Oh, I've spent my last two days watching Rain's first drama show 'Sangdoo, let's go to school'. He plays a young father in it, and is very devoted to his daughter, who he later realised isnt his flesh and blood actually.

Very touching show, but Rain is cuter as Lee Yeung Jae than Sangdoo. But maybe because acting as Sangdoo, it is his daughter (and his childhood sweetheart) that he loves dearly, so it is really that kind 无条件 kind, so the devotion is very focused, thus very 感动人心.

Cried like mad again. 爽!

I've tendered my resignation

This afternoon, at around 3.30pm.

I know my colleagues dont mean any harm, but the moment they saw me with my resignation letter they ask me why I resigned so hastily when the difference is just 15 days.

As per my resignation today, my last day would be on 13nov. If I didnt, my last day would be on 30th.

My colleagues immediately ask me why I want to tender my resignation? Work till the end of my contract expiry la!

Exactly like how I expected, nobody believes I can find a job and get out of this company. Especially this quick.

Except kenny. He just read the letter for me to see if my choice of words is ok. I thought of letting him read first before showing to boss. He just asked me I'm quitting ar? Going where? Starting when? None of the skeptism.

Is it a wonder why I like kenny so much? If he is my direct lao ban, it would be so much harder to bear to leave this company. I am just so very glad I had a chance to get to know such an easy-going lao ban.

I was really nervous about how to break the news to boss. It is my first formal resignation and I really dunno how to 开口. But in the end, I sticked with what I've thought about earlier.

"老板，谢谢你十五个月来的照顾."

Like what meow say lor. The moment I say that it is very obvious already. So I went ahead with it.

Boss' first question was to ask why do I want to quit when my contract is ending soon? (See?!!?!) I told him I've found another job and the company wants me to start immediately but I've informed I need to serve 1 mth notice.

He went on to ask what kind of company is that, am I satisfied with the terms and conditions? I deliberately wanted him to feel bad, so I told him, "It's ok lor, but it is a perm job, I cant refuse a perm position."

I originally chuckled with meow and obasan, plotting to tell boss I am getting a just-as-good-pay and everything was to my utmost satisfaction. In the end I ended up deciding to make him feel bad instead. Whahahahaha.

Boss said he would really want to convert me to a perm if he can, but there was really no opportunity. Boss asked if suddenly there are positions openings will I be interested? I told him frankly. I am looking for a perm job, and at the job that I am going to, I only gave them my verbal confirmation, but hadnt signed the appointment letter.

I told him, if there are perm positions I would be glad to stay. I must leave (and refused to extend my agony in the form of contract period) because I know I cant be converted to a perm where I am.

Boss said he noted that and he would see what turns up. Guess that means if there is sudden openings, he will still recommend me.

心领了.

He also said he regretted converted me to a contract when I was just a temp. If so I wouldnt have wasted my time here. I told him nevermind, it wasnt anybody's prediction that the department will turn out like this.

I feel quite touched (like I always do when people are nice to me) that he said that. Prove that he is not really bo sim lor. At least he more or less knows I have been doing a good job and he would retain me if it was to his capacity. What more do I want?

I know. A fantastic testimonial would be fine. Muahahahahaha.

Anyway

Wu jing wu xian, the company called me today to confirm I've been selected for the job. I shall tender my resignation tomorrow and start work at this company on 14nov.

Goodbye to my high pay.

But nevermind. Ren wang gao chu. My next aim now is to get a art degree. I think I might shelf the plans to get a full time art diploma cos it is not going to get me far enough.

If things goes well, I would love to go to lasalle than nafa. The student officer has been really helpful and cheerful, unlike the moe 'autoreply' staff. Kns one, phrase my enquiry so thoughtfully to them they keep giving me copy and paste reply.

KNS. One type one leh.

I've said once and again of my wish to be an art teacher at the end of the day. But why is it so difficult? 40k is really a lot of money. But at least that is straighforward.

Earrings again!

Here, as usual.


The first pair is from my mother from her shanghai trip. Kns, buy only one pair. Cheapskate.

The other 3 pairs are from the push cart outside carrefour. One of my favourite places to buy earrings these days.

I gave up on the $10 5 pairs already, unless of course I find really pretty ones. I am giving them up basically because they are very small. I need flamboyant large earrings! =)

Took a nosedive

My good luck on finding the job seems to be on a overdose for the past few days, now things are taking a nosedive.

Yesterday pearly kept urging me tender my resignation, saying that although I cant sign the appointment letter yet, she is very confident. She said there are a few person in the company that was employed thru her and the company can be trusted.

She said the company seems to be expanding and they are looking to hire 4 persons.

Earlier that morning, she chided me for not having confidence. She said between myself and the other guy who went for interview on the same day, the company quickly confirmed me.

Yesterday she also said the company had already signed the contract with her, and now it is just the appointment letter that needs to be drafted and some contents to be confirmed.

She said she will call me today to give me all the details, after which I can tender my resignation maybe towards end of the day.

And?

Nothing.

She didnt call, and when I called to ask her, she said the people from the company seems to be still in meetings and cant reply to her.

She said I can hold back the resignation letter first, no problem.

Tell me, how does that sound like to you? Full of hope? Or full of false hope?

Dont tell me the answer, I dont really want to know.

Now I can only keep consoling myself, telling myself I've been thru worse, and false hopes is so much easier to handle than my bad past.

I dont have much to lose when I dont have much to begin with.

I am also constantly reminding myself things are not at its worst. If it is, it would only turn for the better. If it is not, I shall just slowly sink to the bottom of the sea and die there.

Blooop blooop blooooooop.

$168

A bit expensive leh.

But it is david tao zhe leh. How how how?

Like mashi say, last time I so broke I also can squeeze $129 to watch his concert, how come now, after working for 1 yr, I have no money to pay for $168 ticket?

Actually of course I have the money, but do I want to spend the money?

933 is saying that the stage is going to be decorated into a rainforest theme, and there will be helicopter blah blah blah.

What the? I want to hear him sing, not see helicopter or the forest leh. How? Tickets starting to be for sale today. How la??!?

Everyone say "Yay!"

I've been confirmed!

Despite being a klutz, I am still being accepted. Haha, guess it is a good idea to be myself.

I havent got to sign my appointment letter yet. It is not too much of a surprise also, cos it is really a rush of events.

I submitted by resume on 1oct, the agency's lady, pearly, called me on 3oct to ask me if I am interested in this job instead. She felt this job is more suitable for me.

I told her yes and she told me she would submit my resume to the company. 4oct she called to inform me she had already submitted the resume, and would keep me informed of the latest news.

On 5oct, she called me to ask me can I go for interview the next day. I had to decline because I had to work and OT on thurs. I wanted to go for the interview on sat instead, but because the company is on alt sat off, so I either wait till next sat, or I have to think of something.

In the end, I choose to go for interview on fri. I took one hr off and went for the interview.

Today, pearly called to say she is very disappointed in me. Said she recv'd my email that I sent in apology and she asked me what happen. I vaguely told her things just didnt turn out well.

She ask me whether I know what is the biggest prob with me, she said I lack confidence. She told me that cant do! Then proceed to inform me that I've been confirmed.

O_O



So now leh, I dont get to sign my appointment letter yet, but as per all advice, I think I shant hold back my resignation. I dowan later the company decides to hire someone else and felt that they didnt do me wrong because since I havent tendered at this job yet.

So cannot. I must quickly tender my resignation. Actually also not much diff la. If I tender now, my last day will be on 10nov. If I was never offered this job, my contract would end on 30nov. 20days only. Suan le lor.

I used to be so poor I also can survive, cant be that I cannot survive a 20days gap if things go wrong right?


I am really in jubilee. Especially happy because I think there are some ppl who are waiting to see how I die, see how I am going to be stranded, orbi that I flatly declined to renew my contract.

Yay! I am not stranded! Yay!

Lang man man wu

Just finished the show yday, 3am. I dashed thru disc 2 to disc 16 from yesterday's 11am onwards, and finally ending at 3am.

I only got off my seat between breaks to go to the toilet or eat bring my lunch and dinner to in front of the comp.

It has been truly ages since I last indulged in doing nothing but watching a drama.

The show stars Rain and Song Hye Kyo. I've long heard abt this show on taiwan's entertainment news but never got to watch it until one~fateful~sunday~afternoon.. Whahahahaha. Then I am hooked and I went to yahoo auctions to bid for the vcd. Whahaha.

It is a comedy la, but of course still has the element of qing qing ai ai, so still, I cried like a crybaby throughout the show.

Basically, the Han Ji Eun was played out by her friends who sold her house to Lee Yeung Jae. He finally accepted to keep her in the house to do the chores but because Lee Yeung Jae wanted to spite the woman he liked, he announced that he will be marrying Han Ji Eun.

Lee Yeung Jae (Rain) is a movie star in the show and Han Ji Eun (Song Hye Kyo) is a writer.

There are some parts of the shows which I couldnt understand at first look, like how Lee Yeung Jae ming ming like Han Ji Eun a lot but couldnt accept her. Also like why Han Ji Eun became so angry with herself when she was rumoured to be a money grabber.

Since Lee Yeung Jae is a movie star in the show, and there was many gossips abt him all along. Even though their wedding was a contract one, he ming ming cared a lot for her. But when gossips news reporters started to bug her, he only keep ensuring her it will be ok, and to ignore it, but never took a step to stop the news from spreading.

Lee Yeung Jae's parents and granny was mistaken by the news of Han Ji Eun being a money grabber but he did not offer to explain to them, causing Han Ji Eun to be utterly upset. Even so, she still felt she did Lee Yeung Jae wrong.

Qi guai.

Like dont make sense.

When Lee Yeung Jae left and returned, Han Ji Eun was so happy that she cried, but she wouldnt accept his proposal. Why?


Anyway, some screenshots.


Sweet Han Ji Eun (Song Hye Kyo)


Very cute and doeful-eyed Lee Yeung Jae (Rain)



One conversation. Han Ji Eun stayed over at Lee Yeung Jae's parent's place without informing him because he irritated her again. He called her and screamed at her asking where she was. They crapped for a while, talking about Hei Yong (the lady Lee Yeung Jae likes) and that only manage to piss Han Ji Eun more! Then he asked whether she wants him to go fetch her home.













Very interesting show. The show moves very fast in the beginning and mid of the show, then dragged a little too long towards the end, when the show started to feature Han Ji En's sadness and tears.

But overall, very interesting show. =) Very nice and Rain is so cute in the show!!

Dreadful faux pas

Wo feng le.

I went for the interview like I was mentioning in yesterday's entry. I am a total fool lor!

I took one hr off because the interview was scheduled to start at 6.30. I told boss I will make up next mon by doing ot.

And so I reached there around 6.10pm, and someone let me in and asked me to sit at the waiting area. I sat there like a fool while the company's employees floated around. Nobody came to ask me who I was and there wasnt anyone sitting at the receptionist.

I sat there until 6.25, then someone finally realised I was there and passed me the job application form to fill up. So I did, and this guy came to say to follow him to the meeting room area. I immediate took it as he is V, the person whom I was supposed to be looking for at the company.

Then of course la, he went thru the normal questions. I answered very normally too, until like 30 minutes into the interview I began to lose my marbles.


Kua.Kua.Kuaaa~


Basically V said that he is looking to employ two person. One of them to do project management job, the other to do support, as in support designers/sales ppl with the drawings. He asked me which one I am interested.

I told him I dunno.


Kua.Kua.Kuaaa~


He still very nice, laugh (saw him went -_-") and said he dunno. He said I should choose what I want what, and so re-explained the job scope of the two posts all over again.

I decided on the support one. I thought out loud that I think I lack management and leadership skills.


Kua.Kua.Kuaaa~


He asked me whether I can use AutoCAD, I told him yes, but truthfully, it had been some time since I've last used AutoCAD, so I might not be able to do it immediately.

Halfway thru the interview, he said he wanted to test me on my AutoCAD skills. I almost froze, cos I am not being humble when I said I havent been using the skill for very long.

So I tried to disguise my embarrassment and I followed him to a desk. He sketched on a piece of paper (which I later realised it was my the job application form that I filled up earlier. -_-") of a very very very simple drawing, so I managed to finish it in one minute.

Heng ar.

I super worried, cos twice before, while I was looking for interior design job, the moment the set me down to draw something I am dead. Although I can use AutoCAD well, under scruntiny is stressful.



He asked me am I willing to take a lower pay than I stated. I rejected. I told him I had commitments. He asked me what commitments I have. I told him I've got bills to pay, family to support and I have to save up for studies.

I immediately sense him tensing up, asking me I am going to study very soon? (Angel on my right shoulder slaps her forehead.) I quickly added that I am definately interested in continuing studies, but that might be another 5 yrs away.

He doesnt sound like he believe me.


Kua.Kua.Kuaaa~


He asked me do I have any questions to ask him? I told him yes, only one silly question. V immediately narrowed his eyes, like trying to guess what stupid question I am going to ask.

I asked him "Hmm, can I play music while I am working?"


Kua.Kua.Kuaaa~


(Angel expressed shock by dropping her jaws.)


V laughed nervously, and said asked "speaker or earphone?" "earphone" "one side or two sides?" "one side". He dragged his words a little and said can, but best to keep the volume low.

I told him of course, and he brightened up (as though inwardly trying to help me justify my stupid question) and asked whether I work better with music on?

"No la, just that I find this place a little too quiet, a little scary." (Chuckles)

"Dont worry, during the day it is very noisy one, you cant hear your music one, not quiet, not scary one."

"Huh?!?! Very noisy? Like that very disturbing leh."


Kua.Kua.Kuaaa~


V asked whether I am prepared for the pace of the job. I told him I am very fine with it. He had explained to me about needing to ot quite often. That is something I can accept, because designer's or designer's support's job is like that. I expected it.

I told him everything is fine, and I think I can perform the jobscope too (the support job). He asked me whether I can take the pressure, and I gave the killer answer of the night.

"I can, no worries, just that I might break down a few times."


Super Kua.Kua.Kuaaa~


I think V really think I am mentally unsound.



I officially declare this job is out of my grasp already. I thought it is hilarious, but I think pearly, the agency lady, wont think the same. But well, I already emailed her an apology le. She shouldnt be too angry la hor.

How huh how?

I am supposed to go for an interview tmr. I am excited, and I hope I will be employed. But this company leh, I actually went for interview before and I wasnt employed then. Now that I have to go again for interview again, I feel very unsettled.

What if I am rejected again. Shit.

But I really want to quickly find a job and leave this current one. I know many people are waiting to see how I die, how I am going to be jobless after this contract ends.

Orbi that I dowan to renew contract. I want to prove them wrong leh.

How? How? How?

If only

I should have known leh. Really.

Wah rao. I dont understand how come my father and my brother has no savings for themselves one leh. Especially my father, he has been working for 30 yrs already, why is it that he have no savings at all?

I confess I am very selfish when it comes to money, and I try to save more every mth, but because of my spending habits, I dont get to save much.

So I am very pissed when my brother tried to borrow $800 from me last yr. I ended up lending him $300 only. I do have the money, but I really bu shuang why I must be this walking bank?

He ended up repaying $100 per mth for 3 mths. 1 mth after he finished that bit, he borrowed ANOTHER $300 again.

Vicious cycle I tell you.

I always maintain that, when you lend ppl amt in a chunk, you are parting with a fraction of yourself. When this person return you the money is small proportions, it doesnt feel that the earlier hole was covered.

Really lor, when he returned me the $100 a mth, I ended up having more karaoke sessions only. I didnt return the money to my bank acct. I am not disciplined I know, but I bet I am not the only one who will lapse into such convenience. So I really hate it to have to lend ppl money.

If it wasnt that he's my brother, I WOULD NOT EVEN CONSIDER!

Now leh, my father borrowed $500 from me. I just collected back the 2nd $300 from my brother now I have to part with my money again!!!! Angry la!

Last thurs he said he wants to borrow $500 from me and will return me by chq. Fri night when I gave him the money, he said he would give me the cheque the next day.

I told him ok and he sd he will postdated it to monday. (Narrows eyes in anger).

I said ok again he said he thinks it is best to postdated it to tuesday just in case!!!!!!!!!

Ok ok ok ok ok. I anything. So I waited for his cheque. He got sore eyes over the weekend so I didnt harp on the cheque issue.

Just now he told my mother (who just returned from shanghai) that recently situations are bad. He told her he borrowed $500 from me, and then he told me he will return me the $500 next month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KNS!!!!!

Now only 3 oct leh. Next mth is really one whole mth away leh!!!!

I know you may think I very gey gao, why I save very long for each dollar that I have leh. I dont see why I must give them the convenience.

Disheartened

When ever I read up on the course's entry level and fees required, I feel very vexed and disheartened. Camilla is right, life cant be smooth sailing for me, I accept that.

But why must my obstacle be money? How I wish I can properly assure myself that any problem that can be solved by money isnt a problem, for there is a definate way to overcome it. I wish I can tell myself that.

But when the sum involved is 40k, I dunno what else to say. Sometimes I think I am mildly cursed. I just checked on the nafa website and it says wef 2005, all students who had previously had a tuition loan cant take another.

That means if I had embarked earlier to apply I might be able to get my tuition loan. Yet again, no matter what I also need to halt studying plans and work to earn.

It is the same with the passport renewal leh. If my passport expired 1 yr ago, I would be renewing for 10 yrs instead of 5 yrs for the same price.

I am voodoo-ed.

Back to the course. 40k leh. I want to scold vulgarities, can?

I have some plans of course. But there are so many things that can happen to stop me from pursuing my dreams.

My current plans are (in steps) :

1. work for another 18mths (during same period of time I need to repay my last tuiton loan.)
2. apply for lasalle dip in fine arts
3. beg many banks for a 40k loan
4. get a loan and start to study (while using my savings to live on)
5. finish my dip and apply for teaching (and reapply and reapply until I get in if I dont the first time round)
   
6. teach, and live happily after
   

I am worried. Very. I might not be able to get a loan to take my dip. I might not be able to have enough savings to live that 3 yrs, I might not be able to be engaged by moe, and I might repay the 40k loan until I die. Kao.

The only thing I am confident of is, if I study the dip, I will definately graduate. I cant afford more money and I can do anything as long as I am determined.

But monetary wise, hai...

Wrinkled fingers Part II

Still wrinkled. But my clothes are smelling very nice now, after 2 hrs of hassles. Washing clothes is always time consuming, but I love to wash clothes for some unknown reasons.

That is why whenever I've got a off day I spent my time washing clothes. Whahaha.

I've manually wring-ed (dunno what's the past tense) the clothes. Almost as good as not doing, because all of them are still dripping wet with water and now the whole kitchen floor is flooded.

*Puts on innocent look*

我不是故意的。

Wrinkled fingers (from washing lah!)

Really dulan.

My mother is at shanghai for a tour now and there's a pile of laundry in the washing machine. Dont look at me, I wash all my clothes myself, usually by hand, but more regularly by washing machine.

This morning, or rather afternoon, after I woke up, I began the chore of washing my clothes. I dont wash clothes everyday, but pile them to the weekend. It is just the laziness in me, something that I cant change.

And so I washed, and dumped the clothes into the washing machine for a final round. I lug the entire 2 washing bags of clothes to the washing machine, and realised that my father had put the pile of laundry in the washing machine to spin.

And it was ready for retrieval.

I thought I smelt a tinge of stench from the clothes, the kind that you put your worn clothes into water and submerged it for 5 days kind of smell. But because my nose is blocked, I think I am going to have a flu, I thought I might be over-reacting.

And so I fished out the clothes from the washing machine, sprayed the interior of the washing machine with a hose as I usually do, and dumped my clothes in for the final round.

When I took out my clothes just now, I realised that the earlier stench I smelt linger in my clothes!!!!!!!! HORROR!!!!!!!!!!!

So I lan lan lor, what to fucking do, and RE WASH ALL MY CLOTHES AGAIN.

KNN!

Super dulan leh, but because I dowan my clothes to stink, so I proceed to wash my clothes with washing solution THRICE and now I am leaving the clothes to soak in the softener for 15 minutes then I would have to MANUALLY wring them dry.

You say fucked up or not?

I usually wash once then let the washing machine wash second time and drain dry. So today my poor clothes went thru 5 rounds of washing and 1 round of soaking. They better smell nice later or I'll scream.

To think of it, maybe I should bring my clothes to my ah ma's place to drain dry, since she is living one storey above me.

But to rethink, that washing machine has washes my always-drunk-uncle clothes. Meaning later my clothes might reek of beer and ciggy smoke (everyone is that family smokes).

Cb lor, I have no choice le lor. Now my fingers are all wrinkled le la!


Also to add. My elder bro is a ljl one leh. He asked me why I didnt wash the clothes and hence they smelt so bad. EXCUSE ME! The clothes are worn by you leh, why you dunno how to wash yourself. Fucked up mentality. Leave all the clothes there lor, wait until your precious mother come back and wash lor.

And cooed "Aiyah, my darling poor boy, no one wash the clothes for you? No clothes to wear ar? Throw the sister out of the house!!! She should wash my baby boy's clothes while I am away." Completes with a wail.

Fuck la, go away la.

Sometimes I dowan him and serene to get married in the future because I dont like her. Then again, I think the worst punishment the act-demure-act-shu-nuu person can get is to get my brother to marry her. She would die. WHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Imagine!

• Forever debt ridden;
• Forever have to pay for all the ulitities at home;
• Forever have to do chores while he watch tv;
• Forever have to wake up in the middle of night to ensure all the lights and fans and tv is off because he have the habit of leaving all these on at night;
• Forever have to put up with his fuck up attitude.

Luckily I am not the suay one. Whahahahaha.

Easily startled

Can someone agree with me that easily startled and easily scared is different?

I only fear cockroaches. I dislike lizards but they dont scare me, they just startle me, but no one seems to understand the line I drew.

I am most startled when people stand behind me without a sound initially then suddenly speaks without warning, but I am not afraid of these people what.

Tried explaining that to my granny, she asked me, if I suddenly saw a masked robber, I would be startled or scared?

Cheem ar, why my granny ask question with such preciseness? So precise I was stumped for words. -_-"