Biang oi..

Today on scheduled leave... ji kuai le yi xia~

But I also super pia, last thurs onward OT every night until wed night, even went back on sat to work. Finally finish my pia-ing yday by 7pm! Yay! I will be getting individual incentive for at least $348. I am rich!

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But not for long, 'cos I spent the money on clothes today... *sheepish grin*

Bought 7 skirts and 1 coat like top. It is a cross between the two because it is thick (thick means coat to me) and it is long... I like it because it 'looks' flattering, but on the other hand, I think I am going to die in it when I wear it because it is so fuckingly hot... Then why I buy leh? 'Cos I like it. Lame enough I know.

And yah, I know I am supposed to be packing my room today, and taking photos of my worldly possessions. I remembered all that, but today go shopping mah, so came home late, so no chance to pack lor... and okok, I know that sounds like my procrastination working up again... Tmr ok, tmr I will get it done... And will take pictures with the witch's camera... hehehe...

And *ahem* *ahem* today I did something that I meant to do for a long time but never got ard to doing it.

Behold! I went for karaoke today. *Collective boos*. ALONE! *Collective gasps*

Shen qi leh! I really went to sing k today alone. Which is something unimaginable to some people. But then again. Everyone knows what a karaoke fanatic I am, so it shouldnt be TOO much a surprise la hor.

Anyway. Went alone because lao da cant go. (And congrats once again to lao da who passed his driving test. It's about time! =P) And mashi is too tired trying to adapt to her new job and juggling studying at the same time. According to her, she is very tired. I bet she felt worse especially since it has been some time since she last studied. And it seems her new job is so much more demanding. Zhen chan. =(

I reached ard 11.30, but first bought a copy of female to read so that I dont look so bored when people look into my room. Usually I would be going to k with either at least mashi, or with a few person at a time, and would be passing the mic ard... I thought I wont be able to cont to sing for so many songs at a go, especially for 2 and 1/2 hours leh.

But leh~ I just sang and sang and sang, and even run out of time to finish my whole list of songs! I had fun running thru a lot of jolin's, fan fan's and stefanie's song. And also songs by other artistes la!

And I want to start remembering and compiling songs tt I feel I can sing well, so that next time can impress guys. Hahahahaha.

No lah, these few songs I must sing more until I perfect them. =)

• wo men de ai (fir)
• bai he (js)
• shen me dou ke yi wang ji (lin fan)
• lydia (fir)
• dui de ren (dai ai ling)
• silent all these years (stefanie)
• que niao (matilda)
• dao dai (jolin)
• yuan zou gao fei (sandy lim)
• wo men zhi jian de shi (fan fan)
• ai yao tan dang dang (xiao xiao)
  

To be increased! =)

Aiyahhhhh

Hen shen qi!

What is this? Why tickets to david tao's concert are not for sale? Now how do I get tickets to attend.. Irritating to the max.

Simply Her

Simply my fav magazine, and I've just bought the latest may issue. Off to read my magazine, wheeeeee...

(Wheeee reminds me of Wins... Sigh...)

Moving Office

And it sucks.

We officially moved office today. This is so saddening.

I have been in this office since july 2004 and it have since been 9mths. I have no idea why our small division was moved out, initially, of the original main office in apr04 (and so I was told). But now we are moving back, from our branched office, to the main office.

In our small haven, we are a close-knitted bunch. I joined this office feeling apprehensive about everyone. There are loud-mouthed woman, arrogant guys, and the such. After a few mths of getting-to-know, they are really super nice and I have a nice lao ban too.

We would be talking across the office in a stock-market manner, laughing at jokes opening, spew our vulgarities and the like, eat in office, walk out and talk on hp ever so often, and etc.

These are only possible because we were in our own haven.

Things are to change now. We will not be able to do any of these anymore. This main office is goddamnit quiet, because all the biggest bosses are here. We cant talk out loud (or for the matter, we are not even allowed to talk), we cant walk ard to each other's desk, and we cant eat in office. What kind of fucked up working environment is this leh?

Luckily I dont have the intention to stay for long. Hopefully I can embark on my dream career soon. Or rather, hopefully, I can earn enough to study for the necessary courses to allow me to work towards my dream career. *cross fingers and pray*

But meanwhile it is so sian, to know that come monday, I have to work at the death-inducing working environment. I cannot imagine not hearing the noisiness from the bunch. I cannot imagine cannot turn around and joke with lynette. I cannot imagine I can no longer access the clean toilet, nor can I imagine not being able to take pantry breaks.

ARRGGGHHH!!!

Kill me la.

This main office environment spells the finish of a cosy space, and reeks of cold-hearted bosses. No communication between colleagues can only mean we will never get to know each other, then what is the fucking good of asking us to move back? So much for team spirit, excuse me while I puke.

Retail Therapy

Recording my expediture from my shopping spree yday.

I really dont usually spend so much, yesterday I just happen to found nice and cheap deals! =)

(And if I managed to borrow the digital camera from the witch I want to take all pictures of my purchases while they are in their most beautiful and new state.)

And with that thought, I am thinking of taking pictures of all my worldly possessions to remind myself what a blissful bitch I am. At the same time remind myself to work harder. Hehe.

That will be when I managed to kick my lazy genes into the dark corner, because this is seriously going to take a lot of effort.

BUT~! I know when will that be possible, and with that ingenious thought, I am really killing 2 birds with 1 stone leh.

I will be taking my scheduled leave on 29apr, meaning I will have a long wkend on 29apr, 30apr, 1may and 2may, isnt that super exciting? I will spring clean my room on 29th, throwing out all unwanted stuff, and at the same time will do a massive phototaking of all my worldly possessions and... and..

No absolute point in doing it, but I just want to.. hehehe..



Anyway, back to the expenditure list.

Brown shoes--- $16.90
Black heels---$9.90
White shoes---$9.90
Pink heels---$29.90
Earrings x3---$6.00
Lingerie---$15.00
Facial Cleanser---$6.00
Laundry bag x2---$3.15
Purple plastic bottle---$1.05
Green container---$1.05
Dano/Match sale x6 tops---$30.00
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grand total---$128.85

Yes, I am bai jin nuu no.3... (No.1 being Sis, No.2 being michelle)

Must spill michelle's secret here too, whahaha... Her spending as following: 3 pairs of shoes, 3 blouses, 1 belt, $1.05 shop miscellaneous items x6, 1 pair of earrings.

I am all hands up for retail therapy.

Si Erv!

Si Erv. Qi si wo le!

Sms-ed erv yesterday. Told him, almost in exact words, that I saw fang zhong xing on a taiwanese show (yu le xing wen) and for some absurd reasons fzx reminds me of him (erv).

I dont really like fzx previously because he always act in chauvinistic roles. And of course, being superficial, I associate that he is one mcp lor. Oops.

He replied with a laugh and ask missed him issit?

Of which I replied positive, because really quite miss him, and at the same time I req he give me his email add, cos after the recent disappearance of becky, I am very worried of losing my friends. Told him was worried we will lose touch.

He evaded my request for his email add, then in a joking manner, warn me I cannot lose touch with him, and sd he was busy with exams, and have to get back to studies.

Asked him again for email add. Told him to let me update some other contact numbers or what if one day he lost his phone he cant contact me anymore! (Hmmph!)

He sd no la, wont la. Even if he lose his hp I will sms him and he will be able to contact me again. (Once it happens that his hp went dead and he lost my number. But because I have the habit of sms-ing him once every mth at least, he could update my number).

THEN I FEEL ABSOLUTELY PISSED!

The issue here is that it has always been me who sms him, me who has keep in touch with him. If he lost his hp I will sms him eventually and he would be able to ctc me again. But what if I lost my hp leh? Then perfect, we will lose ctc officially because he will never take iniative to sms me (his gf has got an issue with this, I strongly believe).

Perfect way to maintain a friendship (kao! this word sounds goddamnit cliched).

He eventually provide a hotmail email add. Which only serves to escalate my anger. I am being mean abt this, but I cant stand people who provide me hotmail email add. Even yahoo is better.. I have nothing strongly against hotmail, but 2mb is so pathetic as compared to my 2gig gmail. And hotmail email was the first email address that I abandon the moment I recv my gmail acct.

So when someone give me an hotmail acct, I immediately dismissed the purpose of this person being in my contact list because he obviously isnt taking the effort to ensure a form of contact.

My bad to stereotype against hotmail.

He sms me this afternoon, saying hi or something, which I promptly replied (the bitch in me bubbled and evolved the moment I saw his sms)

"The subscriber you are trying to sms is being a bitch and refusing to acknowledge your sms. Please try again 20 years later."

So my humour sucks. So?! So?!

He proceeded to share with me a portion of his thinking process, saying I am being dao and all.


And I fumed.
The only purpose for wanting to update contacts is because I dowan to lose him as a friend, and these feelings are clearly not reciprocated, so what can this bitch say?

Nothing lor. I shut up ok?

Him or her?

No, I am not a lesb, what makes you think tt way? Hmmph.

I am in a dilemma to choose between Claudia and Pearce. *Arh, refer to prev post abt my insurance consultant, friend*

It's confirmed. Becky the magician has left the job. Her old number is no longer is use, so I was told to call her office as adviced by 1800-3330333. They also provided me with her office number yesterday, but unfortunately I wasn't able to call thru yday, so I called today since I am on mc and at home today (tt's another story le la).

I called. Was told by the lady who answered that becky already left the job. She offered me becky's manager's contact number, which I called immediately and left message to return call.

When he did, he apologized that becky alr left the job, and my policy has been handled over to claudia. I was going to be nice again and smile and thanked him, but I maintained my harsh front to show him I am not to be ignored as and when they prefer and intend. My existence has a more profound meaning than to be treated like a piece of stinky trash.

After a while, claudia sms me to ask me can she help me. She sounds like a nice person and all. Just that I was a little apprehensive abt her and the manager, andrew. Nothing to do with them personally, just tt I am traumatised by becky's incident.

At the same time yday, while I was trying to reach becky with the contact numbers provided by 1800-3330333. And was lamenting to camilla and jordan that my consultant has disappeared. Camilla suggested that she will ask a consultant (pearce in this instance) to contact me. She said that this consultant, from prudential also, is a very nice guy who visits her at hospital even when she never purchase any policy from him.

Now my issue is: Shall I give claudia a chance and let her be in charge of my policy? Or should I give pearce a chance ne? I am in dilemma. On one hand I cannot be sure if claudia will disappear (like becky), or pearce will disappear after he confirmed my policy with me (like becky)… Sigh!

Let me ponder of it for tmr first la. Wtf.

And back to the mc today. Took mc today.

Sigh. I dowan to give excuses la, but I was really tired and needed a rest. Like I say lor, I old alr…last time I can dont sleep for so many days in a row also wont die… Now bu xing le. Auntie wo lao le la.

I distinctively remembered… okok, not remember, it was the truth. I had a scheduled leave on 21^st mar (a Monday, so it was a long wkend), and a easter long wkend on 25^th, 26^th, 27^th, and it is like one week ago, why am I so fuckingly tired leh?

I am pushing all blames on the ot nights on 28^th till 31^st, and a sat ot on apr2.

Without a proper wkend rest away from work, I cannot be recharged for work for the following week. Sat ot was until 1, meaning I reached home only ard 3 oclock, and that is ¾ of day light gone leh.

And the stress accumulated to yday, which I had a sibei suay day. And this morning when I woke up, the devil on my right shoulder punched the angel on my left in her face. I decided to call in sick and not go to work.

Not hundred percent jia jia la… my stomach wasnt feeling heavenly anyway, but on a good day I would have been able to still go to work.

But no, darling, not this morning.

This morning I was being spiteful to myself and refused to get ready for work. I smsed lao ban to tell him I am calling in sick, and proceeded to use the comp for the whole of the day. Cant say I will be recharged by tmr, but I am very certain I am going to mope for the whole of today and feel miserable if I were to turn up for work.

I sounded like I am making excuses for myself. But seriously sometime I need to let myself go before I snap from then tension from handling those difficult customers.

Sibei suay

Today I really dunno why I suay until like that leh! Stuck with two demanding customers, then boss asked me to his desk for a prep talk (because of these two customers, no less).... Sigh, all the events successfully cause a huge migrain in my oversized head (and undersized brain).

And actually supposed to be doing ot tonight. Have to do two ot nights per week, so originally choose to do it today and tmr... But after such a demanding day, I decided against it. Like I told lynette, if I dont go home asap I might be too tired later and get killed in a freak road accident.

Lynette went 'aiyoh, luan jiang hua', and proceeded to pack her things and flutter out of the office.

Was also super dulan because my prudential consultant has disappeared. Woot! I am truly living a blessed life. No wonder she didnt reply to my sms, her hp is presently not in service. Neither is ernest's. (Ernest is the guy who was with becky the disappeared consultant when I was considering to sign up for prudential insurrance).

I am angry because before I officially signed the policy with her, I asked her specifically if she is going to leave the job after a few mths? If so, I only want to sign my policy with someone whom I can reach/contact easily. She assured me she will be around for very long. And if she leave she will inform me.

CRAP!

I will attempt to track her down and give her a piece of my mind.

This suay event as categorised as today because it is only today that I realised her number is presently not in service. Previously we sms each other.


And if it wasnt bad enough, I have to encounter a lewd indian today. Prreasse. I am not discriminating against any race lah, if I meet with a lewd chinese I would say I've met with a lewd chinese. Discrimination is not the issue here okok?

Anyway, was sleeping on bus journey home. I was sitting at the long rows near the back, the two long rows facing each other...


(diagram later)

There was this indian sitting right at the back of the row.. I wasnt sitting directly near him, but when the bus is vacant he seems too uncomfortably close.

At first I notice him because he was talking TOO loudly on his hp. I cant even hear my music over the din. I turned my head 90degrees to the left to give him a cold look, he got the cheek to beam at me.. wtf.

I ignored him and proceeded to sleep on the journey home. Only woke up when I was near my alighting stop. Was looking ard with my still-half-closed-eyes. Turned ard and realised he is STILL looking at me and still giving me the beam!! Shit.

I've got a choice to alight at two stops, so it is entirely up to my choice. He looks like he is alighting at the earlier stop. So I stay put. He stayed put too. I was still half asleep here, so wasnt really thinking too much.

Only when the bus reached the terminal then I began to be worried. I paused at my seat, allowing everyone to alight first. Wanted him to alight first so that I can gauge my distance from him... I dont have eyes growing on my butt, so I dowan him to be behind me. He didnt move from his seat, so I decided to leap out of seat and dash for the door, never mind there is many people who thought I must have sighted ghosts.

Was trapped at the exit, one fucked up man was tapping his card for the umpteen times. By the time he was done and I would tap, the indian guy was already standing beside me, beaming fuckingly again.

Tell me how can I not be creeped?

I escaped from the bus and walked in the opposite direction of home, hoping furiously that he wasnt following me, and I am just one paranoid bitch. But no lor, he still follows closely. I started walking real fast, weaving between crowds until I dont see him anymore. Then I stopped at a stall to look at earrings, he is gone.

Thank god.

I very suay leh, why like that one... Just when I thought I am safe in my jurong haven I met with a weirdo. Sigh, I'm living a damned life or what huh?

Uncanny occurrence of amnesia

News update: Witch suffers from Amnesia

The witch at home suffers from amnesia, or rather, I should classified it other 'xuan ze xing shi yi zheng'.

For some unforeseen reasons, her she have a relapse when ever she needs to make decisions. She will choose to cook crab meat over chicken when the former is my gor's preferred food. Nevermind the fact that I am allergic to it and will break out in rashes if I taste the savory food.

She will always buy yam icecream, remembering that someone likes to eat this favour.. And behold behold, guess who likes it? Gor lor, no need to turn your head 360 degrees and look ard one leh.

She will obtained free samples of those battery operated toothbrush, the kind that will cost fucking $20 in the stores. And she will remember to give one to gor and one to his gf and distribute the rest to the irrelevant. Then will exclaimed 'Oh, I didnt ask you?'


... Hilarious.

She will always remember that he has to return to the police academy (yes, he comes home regularly even though he is in ns now, while I have to arrange with lao da over and over again until he is free to take leave.), but can never remember when I am on leave. She will only remember if

1. I need to wake her son up, namely gor
2. She needs me to do something for her
3. I write a note and stick it on the door
4. I holler the fact for the 1564312th time

Pathetic life I have, dont you agree?

You dont? Ok nvm.

How about I tell you while we are studying, meaning when gor and I were still studying... I was in year 3 tp and he was in year 2 nyp. I stay at home most of the time to do my projects, and was usually up at the weirdest hours.

She can remember what time he have to wake up each day, she will also memorise what time his lessons end on each day. She will be able to gauge whether he have finished his pocket money and supply accordingly, and will be able to recall every single details.

But she cannot remember (ok la, give her the credit la, neither can my father remember anyway) I was in tp year 3.

*piang ooi*

It is so saddening that I want to laugh.

Last warning to the fucked-up me

I dont know how many times have this happen, and time after time I just ended in a mess that can be avoided if I am hard-hearted enough..

Forever one lor, the two of them, yang and gor, would request for help. Yang will always want to install some games or install some player, or download some band music which is at 10 or 20 mb a file... I can rip my cd into my comp, 12 tracks in 20 mb if I ripped them at really low bitrates, and he would want to download up to 200/300 mb of band music. which is only like 20songs...

Then as much as I am not willing, I have to allow because the purchase of comp is shared by the two of us. As a matter of fact, he paid more for the comp itself. But hallo, Ive been paying internet fees for 5 years, used to be $20 a mth in the first yr, $40 in second and third year, $60 in forth year and up to now.... You tell me how much Ive spent also?

The next person who says I am bullying my younger brother by asking him to pay more will be thoroughly stabbed by me.

Anyway... this time round he wanted to play his stupid gunbound. The last time which it was installed the comp got manifested with spy ware, god knows where they come from? I tolerated all spy ware until it killed my antivirus software... and enough was enough, I deleted his game away.

I felt guilty cos he was paying for the comp but cant use it on something that he want to use. But at the same time I feel cheated when ever I come home to work and I have to spend all my fucking hours killing the ever-multiplying spywares. The last straw was really when the anti virus died on me.... and refused to scan for the spyware which I can then painstakingly search and delete them one by one.

Now that spyware has been completely cleared up by yours truly, I thought I shall be a nice person and allow his game after all... Perfect behaviour too, and achieves moral standards as well.. Then was just setting up half way for him the internet connection went dead.

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..

... .

The comp can no longer detect the modem.

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FUCK!


It is not only that which irks me. It is the fact he will wayang back into the room and read his comic while I am here trying to think of a way to get the modem detected.... Gor also one lor, stepped near the comp, demanded tt he want to 'use the comp for just a minute'. Told him modem down he got the stupid cheek to ask me why. As though I am killing my modem to spite him or something..

Told him dunno la. And he happily walked away.. Yah, forgot. I am supposed to pay for the comp/pay for the internet bills/pay for the batteries and cables and printer and scanner and all the fuck/ and at the same time provide technical support right.


CCB!!!!


After lots of clicking and the fuck, Ive finally revived my darling. And therefore able to blog. I told michelle immediately that next time I ever tries to be nice again she is to either give me a tight slap across my face or give me kick in my stomach. I shall bear that in mind before I attempt to be accomodating again.

This is the second thing that I am swearing by now. The first thing is that I am never going on a trip with my uncle and auntie again. But that is a different story. For both, I am cursing myself with my deadliest archilles heel. Ok, so I am not that mean to myself yet... I cursed myself with one of my most deadliest sore spot.

Rain

You know how some people behave melancholic when it is the rainy season? They think that the sky is crying for them and it is so hopelessly romantic to walk in the rain arms in arms? They feel happy listening to the rain splattering on the car windows?

CRAP!

I hate rainy days. Especially on days where I woke up late and have decided to don my glasses instead. Then I will look like a pathetic fool when I finally found a shelter. My clothes are wet, my hair flatter than ever, drops will stuck on my arm's hair, glistering and all. If that is not bad enough, I have to search for a piece of tissue to dry my glasses so that my eyeballs need not adjust to the grains on my glasses.

And bestest of best, it happened today! Was already feeling downright pissed that I need to wake up to go to work (OT!!), I have to be so suay to have to work on a rainy day when I am wearing my glasses...

Arggh.. Remember what they say about Finagle's Law of Dynamic Negatives?


Really dont like rainy days for the following reasons as well

• trash on the floor gets stuck to the ground
• super high chance of me slipping and landing on my butt
• any places that anyone stepped in from the rain is super dirty/muddy
• have to bring umbrella to avoid looking like a drenched cat
• etc etc etc
  

But not totally bu xi huan... I like it when the air is nicer after the rain, and that the colours of everything like grass ar, sky ar, are more vibrant. Yah, sounds like I love the world right? Sounds like my life is happy and I'm happy with life right? =) =) =)

Sounds like I am dying to give someone a super big hug right?

YAH RIGHT!~ Stop being superficial. I am one angry person... Hates life and all.



Okok la, lets not be so negative... of all things associate with rain, I like the following song so muchieeeee.


RAIN 范晓萱


我怀念有一年的夏天 一场大雨把你留在我身边
我看着你那被淋湿的脸 还有一片树叶贴在头发上面
那时我们被困在路边 世界不过是一个小小屋檐
你说如果雨一直下到明天 我们就厮守到永远
Rain falling in my heart 你的声音仍然深印我心田
世界改变 你也改变 我在海角天边
Rain falling in my heart 你的诺言虽然没有实现
爱是雨点 落在昨天 永不放晴的缠绵

*****

I am actually very sleepy cos didnt sleep much last night. Slept for a mere 6 hours. What? 6 hours is a lot already? I slap you then you know. Once upon a time I can live on 2 hours sleep a day for 2 weeks. Now I old le... cannot le ok? So are you going to slap me or what.

But this rainy day isnt a good time to sleep. I cant sleep when it is so cold. I prefer to made myself snug in my warm blanket in the afternoon when the sunlight is shinning in.. Superb!

So I'm weird.. But so leh?

*****

WANTED

And to anyone who is reading this, if you know of a certain jason who

1. lives in commonwealth/queenstown area,
   
2. studied some businees or engineering course in tp year 2 last year,
   
3. failed his final exams last year,
   
4. smokes,
5. is a blatant liar, and
   
6. is constantly broke,
7. hp number as last contacted 94772***
   

if you know a person like that, bao-dou to me ok? He owes me $50! That arse. Cooked up some story about his father being in hospital and mother has a lot of problem raising money even for daily necessities and even bills. Lent him $50 out of my drying bank acct back then and he disappeared for good. What a fucker. Wait... what fucker? I bet he is impotent.

Even if now I can afford to lose that $50, why should I let him have the money? That money is mine!!! MINE MINE MINE!! I have to work one good working day for 9 hours to earn that money ok! Why must pian yi that wang ba dan?

*****

Why mediacorpse change zhen qing to channel 8 huh? Very jian leh, all the nice shows move to channel 8, then how? Higher viewership then more advertisement income? In summary...

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