The bitchy thing I did

My computer restarted on its own and I've lost the entry that I was typing. I am guessing I lost about 3 hundred words at the most. So it is not that bad. But still,

SIGH!!!


I guess I have really poor time management, because I am awake since 11am but I am getting to type this entry at this time of the day when I should already be in bed.

Ok, o/o/p.

I mentioned before that I want to blog about a bitchy thing that I did. Boy, I am glad I never gave jes this blog address, for she seems to be like someone who would be reading my blog at every chance that she have.

Of course, even if I never give anyone my blog address, it is not THAT hard to guess.

Arh... Fuck the consequences. If I cant even air my thoughts here, must I be talking to a rock then throwing it into the sea? I think I dowan to be talking to people at work how I feel about certain people and certain issues already, because I dowan my words to be intentionally/unintentionally twisted.

And there are some bitchy things that I do that I shouldnt even talk about, much less talk to colleagues about.

Anyway, here goes.

On thurs, jes was telling me how stressed she was and how much things she have to do. I had things to do as well, before you ask, although I had been leading a slacker's life these days.

I remember distinctively that I looked up from work and tried to offer some sympathy. Some weird company culture I have here.

Digress a little here, I just sighted a cockroach running towards me, luckily gor got rid of it for me. It actually crawled beneath a bookshelf and he was going to give up. I request he lure it out by spraying insecticide then killing it when it reappeared. He gave me a look of defeat but did it for me all the same.

It's time like this when I feel I've cute family members. Muahahahaha. Everyone in my family will help me kill cockroaches, my younger bro will even wake up in the middle of the night to slay them for me. =)

I was saying, some weird company culture I have. Everyone in the company is burning at both ends, but whenever someone come up to us to request for help or just to talk, we have to offer a few minutes of our time.

When I first started out at work here, I remembered ramming into a problem at my 2nd day at work. I no-choiced-ly went to ask michael for help, not wanting to disturb him at work actually but he immediately responsed to my queries.

Unable to solve my difficulty, he roped in mh to help, whom I do not know at all at that time. He too got up from whatever he was doing and helped me out.

That is my company culture, and I've grown to fit in. But sometimes I will still apologised and say I am in the midst of something, and promise the person I will get back at my next immediate available chance, which I always do. But whenever I can, I will still extend my assistance on the spot.

So when she commented that she was having too much to do, I looked up from what I was doing and asked her what is she doing at the moment, wanting to offer to help her do if it is within my capability.

She informed, but it is not my expertise, so I told her I cant help. She sighed then tried to get back to work but still seemed very bothered. I told her since she is having so much problem with it, maybe she want to explain to vnc of her workload and rope in vnc to help?

She immediately got defensive and pratically hissed at me, saying vnc had a lot to do too, how can she burden him?

I explained that I am not telling her to burden him, but since she cant cope, she must tell vnc that she needs assistance. Although it is not my style to call for help either, but at least if I had already accepted the work I would finish it no matter what. If I cant cope, I would have foresee that before I started and request the job to be distributed to someone else.

I rather admit that I cant achieve, rather that promise then make a mess of the work in terms of deadlines/quality/quantity.

Recently I am having some issues with jes. I dont know when did it started, but I am not liking her as much as before.

I always have this 歹款, that I cannot be too close to anyone for too long. I can be very emotionally attached to people, but bitchy-ly, this is exclusive to me only. Hahaha. I like to be emotionally attached to some people for a certain period of time, but cant stand it when people are to me.

She had been very tactless in the way she phrases her words these days, and I am not sure if I am being overly sensitive or what.

Like when I packed my workstation after completing one project, so that I can start a new project with a clear workspace, she have to comment, loud enough for a few to hear that "Wha, you very free hor, still got time to pack your workstation? I am so busy that I have no time to pack, look at how messy my things are."

I am very pissed when she said that. I am a self-proclaimed slacker, but that is called self-proclaimed for a reason. I am not slacking at work of course, but I cant help it if there is no work to be done right? I complete my work asap, then before more work comes my way, I can only sit there and streamline my work process.

To jes, I am slacking.

I am sorry that I have no work to do while you have a lot of things to do, so bite me can? What's with your thorns infested words?

I've got things to do as well, but I am clearing them at a faster pace probably because I am more organised than you do. You can say your jobscope is more tedious than mine, but no one ask you to choose that job what.

No matter how busy I am, when someone ask, I will say that "I've got things on hand", or in some situations where I am tactless, I will just say "Sorry, 我在忙, I'll get to you later can? (with a paiseh smile)"

But jes will actually say "I am so busy that I dont have time to drink water."

Please lah. Got this 夸张 meh? I got this response from her when I asked her if she wanted to go get a drink from the pantry and she said she is so busy that she cant step away. I then offered to GET A DRINK FOR HER instead and she told me the above.

Ok, the background explaining of why I am being to like her lesser will take forever to document. Because there are many small instances of things that she does that I cannot stand. Before I even start to blog about it in one of my coming entries, let me ANNOUNCE again that I am blogging it to free my anger, not because I am harbouring any wild wishes that she change. Who the fuck am I to her to expect that?


Let me get back to thurs.
So I told her if she cant cope, she should tell vnc, and vnc would be able to assist. She keep saying that vnc had a lot on his hands already.

I told her that is beside the point, because whether vnc has a lot of work on hands is not relative to whether she should tell him she cant cope.

If vnc cant cope, that is his problem. He can go talk to his boss if he wants to. But if jes cant cope she should quickly tell vnc so that the issue is solved earlier, and not too late into the problem when nothing can be done to salvage the situation.

She was so upset with my suggestion that I had to retreat from my seat so that I dont get into an arguement with her.

She went for her facial at 7 and vnc came back.
(Sigh, after so much of background story I am finally getting to the bitchy part.)

I went to tell vnc that jes is very stressed.

I made it sound like I am very concerned that she seems to be unable to cope with her work, but actually I am taking the chance to backstab her after her recent stints.

I know recently she is spurting a lot of my things to vnc and I wanted to act like the way she did, and hoped that vnc tell her that I am talking about her, so that she realised how much I've already gathered and known, and not to backstab me in front of vnc.

I told vnc jes seems very worried about the project she is working on, and chided vnc for not offering more help to her.

Vnc was immediately concerned, and asked me was jes really that stressed? I told him the truth from then on, telling him that she seems to be stressed with her work and that she cant seem to cope. Vnc said he had a lot of work himself, so does michael.

I told him to treat jes better, cos she is a lady after all, and not to be so harsh to her.

He exclaimed that he is never harsh on her! And he is already being very fair!

I told him since he is already not being harsh, he should be able to take one step further and be very nice to jes then, cant he?

That is just the kind of thing vnc hates to hear, (I am sorry but vnc is a very easy character to analyse imo. I will be doing a literature-style character analysis of everyone I know soon. Key word is SOON. Hahahaha.) because he likes to think that he is already doing a good enough job to be a good boss.

And also, jes is his first female subordinate, so he is always treading carefully around her.

Actually, as far as I can see, vnc is ALREADY being very accomodative towards jes, but of course being the bitch that I am, I have to unleash my devil, so I continue to make him believe he have to be treating jes with more care.

Vnc looks defeated, and so I used another tactic. I told him although jes may have a strong facade, she 毕竟 isnt like me. I stand up for myself and refused to be abused. Jes would meekly do all his sai-gang for him and have not a word of grumble.

I told him how I advised jes to tell him of how she is unable to cope with her workload and that she defended vnc, saying he is very busy too. Vnc nodded and say she is correct. I pushed the fact that since she 维护him so much, in return he should 罩 her more.

Vnc bought that idea, and when jes came back from facial, he immediately asked if she had eaten and brought her to eat dinner.


And if you are still wondering where am I benefitting in this whole hoo-ha, I am sorry to inform you I am not benefitting at all. My jobscope and jes's jobscope doesnt overlap so I wont be gaining anything from this.

I am doing it purely to emphasise on fact that she needs constant attention. Give her the constant attention and get her off my back.

Let her know how lucky she is to have a good boss, and in contrast look at how my boss is treating me.