For a few days I thought I am enjoying my job.
But seems like I dont.
And I am absolutely pissed that 7270 is selling at $368 with contract. WTF? Second hand is only $380 leh! Their website pian ren one issit?
I tried to make sense of their online shopping. I clicked and clicked but it doesnt bring me to the online shopping page, but keep kicking me back to catalogue page. Angry!
If I dont buy this phone I also dunno what phone I want to buy. Sigh. But I want to change phone. I am tired of this phone. Shit.
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Monday, November 28, 2005
Feeling crabby
Adl is quite impossible to work to. Dont like her. Sigh. She is very fussy and too detail orientated. She has her own set of beliefs and behaviours and she expects me to adhere cos I am supposed to be under her.
I dowan.
I dowan.
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Pictures!
I self made this using two clear card plastics, gold ringlets for the holes in the plastics, string and papers. Tada! So nice! I am so in awe of myself.
This A6 booklet should be used at work. I would be jotting down information in this small booklet so that I can bring it around with me and I need not memorise so much informations.
Swee.
My new heels. $19.90 from heatwave.
Swee.
While my digital cam is with me, I quickly took a pic of my favourite 提神济. =)
Report after 2 weeks
Supposed to be blogging this yesterday also, but my brother happily used the comp from 8pm all the way till 2am.
Now I dunno if I still have the sim to type anything, see what goes.
I've been learning quite a lot of things on this job, information that makes me more effecient in the job. I dunno if it is a good thing, but I am currently loading my brain with a lot of information about the job. Of course from the viewpoint of doing a good job at work, it is a good idea I waste my limited braincells on remembering these stuff.
But from my own viewpoint, my braincells will be depleted soon at this rate I am going. I have so many things to remember and I keep having to force myself to concentrate, concentrate, remember, remember.
Tiring sia.
And up to know I hadnt have my computer yet. I am supposed to be producing drawings but I dont have a computer to use. Wtf is this la. I feel bad about hoarding jsyn's comp and she had to sit at my desk instead. I can use vnc's comp also, but vnc keeps complaining that he is not use to sit away from his seat.
See. So ma fan.
2 wks already leh. How long more need I to wait? I want to have my own comp so that I can save my stuff on my desktop. I want to secretly install msn so that I can talk to mashi. I want to... I want to...
I could blog more about my colleagues, but I think the interesting parts are generally how I get along with jsyn and vnc. I dont have to try too hard to get along with michael cos he is friendly in the first place, and I dont get to talk to him much as he is always very engrossed in work.
Jsyn seems to be trying very hard to get use to my sense of humour. My sense of humour gets very trying at times, and I think she is curbing her urge to club me. I try to stay out of her way most of the time in case I unleash any monster in her unwittingly.
And if you all think I am hardworking, you should see jsyn. She is so hardworking that I feel ashamed. Actually as a matter of fact, all of them are hardworking except me. I reach work on time and leaves on time. If I need to do OT, it is only because I havent finish my work. But jsyn would hardworking-ly stay back to organise her work and the such.
Role employee I tell you. I really feel small working beside her. She is organised, calm, and in compose. There are times when she dont have the information off hand when the contractors ask her, but she would still be able to retain her posure and tell them she would need to check with vnc and get back to them. Stylo milo I tell you.
Vnc is very 罗嗦. Or I can say he's very 碎碎念，or very 喋喋不休. Not in the bad sense, but rather in a uncle kind of way. Keeps repeating himself like some senile old man. Or kept forgetting things that he wants to tell me.
Because I am that kind of person who 闲不住. I mean when I am not officially slacking, that is. When I've put my feet down that I want to slack, I would just single-task. Otherwise I am always doing a few things at one time.
Like now, while I am blogging this, I am also playing games when I suddenly have one second to spare while I am organising my thoughts. I would also be watching to tv at the same time and also be watching vcd on a sized-down screen on comp.
Friends ask me how I concentrate on doing so many things at the same time. That is the issue here, I am never really concentrating. I am only devoting say 60% of my attention to blogging, 10% to the vcd, 10% to the game, 10% to the tv and maybe 10% to allow my mind to wander and think about is there anything else that I need to do at the same time.
When I need to turn away from my blogging to do something else, the proportions just adjust accordingly. 利害 leh!
That is my only way of getting things done. But when I am studying or when I am watch a very interesting show, I would still focus 100%.
Eh, what was I talking about. *Sheepish*
Because I cannot stand doing nothing, so whenever I finish the task on hand, I would go back to vnc and ask him if he have anything else he wants me to do. By the next few weeks, I am expecting that I would have an endless task list that I would never get to complete. Before I can complete the 5 jobs on hand I would be dumped with another 5.
But meanwhile, although I should be enjoying my slacking period, sometimes I feel bad that I am doing nothing while everyone else is so busy. At the moment, at the most I had is 5 jobs' instructions standing, but I still managed to kill them.
I may be worried for having an endless worklist as I proceed with the job, but that beats slacking.
Arh, digressed again. I kept asking vnc for things to do and he keeps saying that I very 烦. Say I keep sitting there looking at him do his work when he dont give me things to do. Then what he expect? That I sit there and count dust particles ar? 很奇怪, hardworking he also hiam.
Anyway, because I know my worklist would expand very soon, I must quickly think of a way to combat confusion, and therefore I think I will be keying everything into an excel sheet to facilitate my work. Hence, I NEED A COMPUTER!!!!
Kao eh.
Now I dunno if I still have the sim to type anything, see what goes.
I've been learning quite a lot of things on this job, information that makes me more effecient in the job. I dunno if it is a good thing, but I am currently loading my brain with a lot of information about the job. Of course from the viewpoint of doing a good job at work, it is a good idea I waste my limited braincells on remembering these stuff.
But from my own viewpoint, my braincells will be depleted soon at this rate I am going. I have so many things to remember and I keep having to force myself to concentrate, concentrate, remember, remember.
Tiring sia.
And up to know I hadnt have my computer yet. I am supposed to be producing drawings but I dont have a computer to use. Wtf is this la. I feel bad about hoarding jsyn's comp and she had to sit at my desk instead. I can use vnc's comp also, but vnc keeps complaining that he is not use to sit away from his seat.
See. So ma fan.
2 wks already leh. How long more need I to wait? I want to have my own comp so that I can save my stuff on my desktop. I want to secretly install msn so that I can talk to mashi. I want to... I want to...
I could blog more about my colleagues, but I think the interesting parts are generally how I get along with jsyn and vnc. I dont have to try too hard to get along with michael cos he is friendly in the first place, and I dont get to talk to him much as he is always very engrossed in work.
Jsyn seems to be trying very hard to get use to my sense of humour. My sense of humour gets very trying at times, and I think she is curbing her urge to club me. I try to stay out of her way most of the time in case I unleash any monster in her unwittingly.
And if you all think I am hardworking, you should see jsyn. She is so hardworking that I feel ashamed. Actually as a matter of fact, all of them are hardworking except me. I reach work on time and leaves on time. If I need to do OT, it is only because I havent finish my work. But jsyn would hardworking-ly stay back to organise her work and the such.
Role employee I tell you. I really feel small working beside her. She is organised, calm, and in compose. There are times when she dont have the information off hand when the contractors ask her, but she would still be able to retain her posure and tell them she would need to check with vnc and get back to them. Stylo milo I tell you.
Vnc is very 罗嗦. Or I can say he's very 碎碎念，or very 喋喋不休. Not in the bad sense, but rather in a uncle kind of way. Keeps repeating himself like some senile old man. Or kept forgetting things that he wants to tell me.
Because I am that kind of person who 闲不住. I mean when I am not officially slacking, that is. When I've put my feet down that I want to slack, I would just single-task. Otherwise I am always doing a few things at one time.
Like now, while I am blogging this, I am also playing games when I suddenly have one second to spare while I am organising my thoughts. I would also be watching to tv at the same time and also be watching vcd on a sized-down screen on comp.
Friends ask me how I concentrate on doing so many things at the same time. That is the issue here, I am never really concentrating. I am only devoting say 60% of my attention to blogging, 10% to the vcd, 10% to the game, 10% to the tv and maybe 10% to allow my mind to wander and think about is there anything else that I need to do at the same time.
When I need to turn away from my blogging to do something else, the proportions just adjust accordingly. 利害 leh!
That is my only way of getting things done. But when I am studying or when I am watch a very interesting show, I would still focus 100%.
Eh, what was I talking about. *Sheepish*
Because I cannot stand doing nothing, so whenever I finish the task on hand, I would go back to vnc and ask him if he have anything else he wants me to do. By the next few weeks, I am expecting that I would have an endless task list that I would never get to complete. Before I can complete the 5 jobs on hand I would be dumped with another 5.
But meanwhile, although I should be enjoying my slacking period, sometimes I feel bad that I am doing nothing while everyone else is so busy. At the moment, at the most I had is 5 jobs' instructions standing, but I still managed to kill them.
I may be worried for having an endless worklist as I proceed with the job, but that beats slacking.
Arh, digressed again. I kept asking vnc for things to do and he keeps saying that I very 烦. Say I keep sitting there looking at him do his work when he dont give me things to do. Then what he expect? That I sit there and count dust particles ar? 很奇怪, hardworking he also hiam.
Anyway, because I know my worklist would expand very soon, I must quickly think of a way to combat confusion, and therefore I think I will be keying everything into an excel sheet to facilitate my work. Hence, I NEED A COMPUTER!!!!
Kao eh.
Sorry
Sorry.
Dui bu qi.
Paiseh.
Gomen ne.
Miannada.
And this entry should be blogged yesterday. I should be going to your concert but in the end I didnt cos I want to save my $168.00. I heard that there would be fantastic visuals and the stage would be decorated into a rainforest and there would be a helicopter. I heard you would be inviting your father as your special guest.
But I am not interested in all these. I want to see a concert where it is just you and only you. No frills no nothing. I just hope to see a concert like your last one, where there is only you, your band and your 合音.
No guest. No decorated stage. No frills.
I heard about how you think this concert would be interesting, how you would like your fans to enjoy ur music.
But I think I wouldnt, so I didnt go.
See what others say about the concert, at here, here, or here.
Or see this page devoted to you. And extracted this from this page, which was in turn extracted from newpaper.
Need to be so fanciful meh? Your music alone isnt good enough anymore?
I like your music since your first album. It is weird to say this, but it all started subconsciously. Around 6 or 8 mths after you release your first album, taoism, I heard daniel chan singing a cover version of ai hen jian dan.
I thought to myself, tao zhe sings better. The next second, I am bewildered how I knew that. Those were the days when I am still no master at the chinese songs scene. I listened, but dont pay as much attention as I do now.
The next day, I find myself recapping the tao zhe songs that I knew. Again to my amazement, I realised although I never thought much about it, I do know quite a long of your songs, and I even know the lyrics to them.
It is almost as though I've heard your songs and they had be subconsciously planted in me.
I bought your first album a few days later, and after 2 yrs of so after that, you released your next album, 'I'm ok'.
I bought it the same day that it was released and I love that album. I think that is my favourite album of yours.
Of course when your music company decided to re-release with vcd, I bought them too.
Your music appeals to me, or rather you appeals to me probably because you were a musician to me then. Your music was quite well recieved but not considered as very good selling. But still you would still produce good music without being too commercialised.
Back then it was like this.
The first mini concert I went of yours was held at hardrock cafe, where the entrance fee is $28. (I can still remember leh! Shen qi!) That was a mth or so before your second album. I was super touched by your performace.
The second mini concert I attended was at sparks. Very 音乐性 as well.
The third I attended was your first concert in singapore 2 yrs ago. As much as I like other artistes, I make it a point to buy tao zhe's original albums. I also try to attend all concerts as long as I can get the tickets.
But for this one, I am not half as eager. Tao zhe, dont be so commercialised can? Thank god your music is not, but your performace is getting very commercialised.
Think of your mtv, think of your appearance on tv these days (you dont grace tv shows last time one what, and you leave your sales of your albums to your music), think of the sometimes crude humour you injected in your interviews.
Please?
Dui bu qi.
Paiseh.
Gomen ne.
Miannada.
And this entry should be blogged yesterday. I should be going to your concert but in the end I didnt cos I want to save my $168.00. I heard that there would be fantastic visuals and the stage would be decorated into a rainforest and there would be a helicopter. I heard you would be inviting your father as your special guest.
But I am not interested in all these. I want to see a concert where it is just you and only you. No frills no nothing. I just hope to see a concert like your last one, where there is only you, your band and your 合音.
No guest. No decorated stage. No frills.
I heard about how you think this concert would be interesting, how you would like your fans to enjoy ur music.
But I think I wouldnt, so I didnt go.
See what others say about the concert, at here, here, or here.
Or see this page devoted to you. And extracted this from this page, which was in turn extracted from newpaper.
Visual treats at David's concert
A HELICOPTER, a tropical rainforest, and the song Butterfly.
That is David Tao's promise to fans who show up at his Love Can concert tomorrow.
There will be flashy costumes, a replica chopper, a 'back to nature' backdrop, and great music backed by an eight-piece string orchestra.
David will also croon the highly-requested Butterfly because his Singapore fans have requested it repeatedly.
He said he wrote the song as a devotional piece to God, but rarely performs it live because the lyrics are 'too complicated' and difficult to remember.
Would he also strip and show off his six-pack abs?
David laughed: 'It all depends on the audience reaction. Screaming (for him to strip) for 10 seconds is not enough. At least 30 seconds to a minute!'
Need to be so fanciful meh? Your music alone isnt good enough anymore?
I like your music since your first album. It is weird to say this, but it all started subconsciously. Around 6 or 8 mths after you release your first album, taoism, I heard daniel chan singing a cover version of ai hen jian dan.
I thought to myself, tao zhe sings better. The next second, I am bewildered how I knew that. Those were the days when I am still no master at the chinese songs scene. I listened, but dont pay as much attention as I do now.
The next day, I find myself recapping the tao zhe songs that I knew. Again to my amazement, I realised although I never thought much about it, I do know quite a long of your songs, and I even know the lyrics to them.
It is almost as though I've heard your songs and they had be subconsciously planted in me.
I bought your first album a few days later, and after 2 yrs of so after that, you released your next album, 'I'm ok'.
I bought it the same day that it was released and I love that album. I think that is my favourite album of yours.
Of course when your music company decided to re-release with vcd, I bought them too.
Your music appeals to me, or rather you appeals to me probably because you were a musician to me then. Your music was quite well recieved but not considered as very good selling. But still you would still produce good music without being too commercialised.
Back then it was like this.
The first mini concert I went of yours was held at hardrock cafe, where the entrance fee is $28. (I can still remember leh! Shen qi!) That was a mth or so before your second album. I was super touched by your performace.
The second mini concert I attended was at sparks. Very 音乐性 as well.
The third I attended was your first concert in singapore 2 yrs ago. As much as I like other artistes, I make it a point to buy tao zhe's original albums. I also try to attend all concerts as long as I can get the tickets.
But for this one, I am not half as eager. Tao zhe, dont be so commercialised can? Thank god your music is not, but your performace is getting very commercialised.
Think of your mtv, think of your appearance on tv these days (you dont grace tv shows last time one what, and you leave your sales of your albums to your music), think of the sometimes crude humour you injected in your interviews.
Please?
Saturday, November 26, 2005
It's 12am now
I should be sleeping cos I hadnt been sleeping well for the past few days. No thanks to the cold weather. I may be old and forgetful, but I do remember that I've complaint abt cold and rainy weather, so I shant do it again.
On another note, I like rain though. Ok, irrelevant, I know.
I need to work tmr as I have to work on alternate sats. I do admit that half of my own life is officially gone because I only go out on saturdays if I can help it. But to think about it, actually it doesnt really matter. While I am in town, maybe it would be easier to arrange with friends to go out. I almost never wander out of jurong during weekends because mashi and myself are two lazy bums.
Around 40% of my days off are spent with mashi, around 20% are with ALL of the rest of my friends, and remaining 40% of time I gladly spend it on myself. I enjoy solitude. Sometimes I think I am really not suitable to have a special someone cos I enjoy spending time with myself. I dont think I can ever adapt to needing to accomodate a man's schedule.
What was I talking abt? Oh, alt sat. I need to work tmr and I am not too sure if I had things to do. I'd almost completed all the things that was given to me, and vnc will be on leave tmr onwards until tues. Adl 应该不会放过我, but I shall worry about that later.
I've decided that a 'V' and an 'A' doesnt suffice. It is just too confusing to you people already lar hor? (Dont say it is not confusing, no implying of me having low intelligence at my blog ok!). Therefore I've name the two of them as vnc and adl.
Like I will name kenny, but I will not name my lao ban (See, ham jii again).
***
Ok, brief runthru...
Vnc: Ok la, I have to admit that he is very nice. *Grumble grumble*.
He reminds me a little of jack as well, but have some degree of attitude problem. Then again, I also have attitude problem, so last sentence 说了等于没说.
He will keep asking me where is his dwgs, where is this, where is that. I'll just tell him "No hor, I never steal!". Muahahaha. Everything I say he always have a clever comeback and sometimes it irritates the hell out of me.
True that he can take jokes, but sometimes when I want to shoot him some sarcastic replies I would still think twice and wonder if it is a good idea. But I can safely say that I really 没大没小. Adl is bewildered that I speak to vnc this way especially when I as so new in the job and he is the boss leh.
But if I suppress my thought too much I feel very bu shuang. Like this afternoon, after he (开玩笑-ly laa.. people, dont need to worry too much abt me) picked on my dwgs a few times, and mused at my working habits a few times, I really (jokingly) 忍无可忍!
"我踩到你的尾巴是嘛?"
He was taken aback for a second, and kept quiet. I felt bad, cos I seemed very rude. He kept his silence for like 3 seconds and he cont to pick on me again. Chey, made me worried for nothing.
Adl: I am supposedly tagged to her and she will pass me dwgs or quotations to complete. We two form the sales team, so she tries to convince the client to give us a chance, I do up the necessary dwgs, do a quotation and she presents it to the clients.
Therefore, she is always running around at different sites, when I am always slacking in the office, one hear listening to the radio, the other ear actively eavsdropping on my colleagues' conversations.
***
I shall blog about my 工作感言 tomorrow, about how I've spent my 2 wks. Meanwhile I am hitting the sack.
On another note, I like rain though. Ok, irrelevant, I know.
I need to work tmr as I have to work on alternate sats. I do admit that half of my own life is officially gone because I only go out on saturdays if I can help it. But to think about it, actually it doesnt really matter. While I am in town, maybe it would be easier to arrange with friends to go out. I almost never wander out of jurong during weekends because mashi and myself are two lazy bums.
Around 40% of my days off are spent with mashi, around 20% are with ALL of the rest of my friends, and remaining 40% of time I gladly spend it on myself. I enjoy solitude. Sometimes I think I am really not suitable to have a special someone cos I enjoy spending time with myself. I dont think I can ever adapt to needing to accomodate a man's schedule.
What was I talking abt? Oh, alt sat. I need to work tmr and I am not too sure if I had things to do. I'd almost completed all the things that was given to me, and vnc will be on leave tmr onwards until tues. Adl 应该不会放过我, but I shall worry about that later.
I've decided that a 'V' and an 'A' doesnt suffice. It is just too confusing to you people already lar hor? (Dont say it is not confusing, no implying of me having low intelligence at my blog ok!). Therefore I've name the two of them as vnc and adl.
Like I will name kenny, but I will not name my lao ban (See, ham jii again).
***
Ok, brief runthru...
Vnc: Ok la, I have to admit that he is very nice. *Grumble grumble*.
He reminds me a little of jack as well, but have some degree of attitude problem. Then again, I also have attitude problem, so last sentence 说了等于没说.
He will keep asking me where is his dwgs, where is this, where is that. I'll just tell him "No hor, I never steal!". Muahahaha. Everything I say he always have a clever comeback and sometimes it irritates the hell out of me.
True that he can take jokes, but sometimes when I want to shoot him some sarcastic replies I would still think twice and wonder if it is a good idea. But I can safely say that I really 没大没小. Adl is bewildered that I speak to vnc this way especially when I as so new in the job and he is the boss leh.
But if I suppress my thought too much I feel very bu shuang. Like this afternoon, after he (开玩笑-ly laa.. people, dont need to worry too much abt me) picked on my dwgs a few times, and mused at my working habits a few times, I really (jokingly) 忍无可忍!
"我踩到你的尾巴是嘛?"
He was taken aback for a second, and kept quiet. I felt bad, cos I seemed very rude. He kept his silence for like 3 seconds and he cont to pick on me again. Chey, made me worried for nothing.
Adl: I am supposedly tagged to her and she will pass me dwgs or quotations to complete. We two form the sales team, so she tries to convince the client to give us a chance, I do up the necessary dwgs, do a quotation and she presents it to the clients.
Therefore, she is always running around at different sites, when I am always slacking in the office, one hear listening to the radio, the other ear actively eavsdropping on my colleagues' conversations.
***
I shall blog about my 工作感言 tomorrow, about how I've spent my 2 wks. Meanwhile I am hitting the sack.
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Work is beginning to pile
Not much yet though, around 2mm high now. Haha.
There is a lot of information on the job that I am supposed to know by heart. They say it will take time, and I shouldnt stress myself up too much.
Weird. Do I look like I am stressed? I am not stressed cos I cannot be bothered. I am just taking the workload as they come, occassionally looking over my shoulder to see if anyone is standing behind me strumming their thighs in inpatience.
Because there is always an overload of information, I tend to forget details.
Oops.
I tried to take down notes, but my writting doesnt match their speaking speed. I tried to write faster, but I cant recognise my scribble. I tried to concentrate harder so that I wont miss out details, of course that didnt work.
Yah lor, I think I need to bring voice recorder. -_-"
I tried to reassure myself, during the first 2 mths of my last job I also super confused, but still I manage to pull thru. I keep telling myself it is ok to make mistakes as long as they are genuine. As long as I am not making a repeated error I am going to give myself a break and not worry too much about it.
My supposed jobscope is to basically support the key people in the company. They go spend their expensive braincells doing thinking, I am churning out drawings for them. They've got tens of things on hand and they will just nonchatantly assign the simplest but most mundane job for me to do.
Well, I dont really mind, I enjoy doing autocad, so I am happy to sit in the office for the whole day and prepare drawings after drawings. Other than autocad drawings, I am need to do quotations and visit site with the key people to take notes to facilitate my autocad and quoting later.
Up to this moment, I am thinking that things are pretty good.
"Think" is the key word.
Sigh, I desperately want to name the people in the company so that I can blog about them and you people can understand the scenario, but I dont think the company is too high on its employers blogging.
And I dont think my team leader (can only call him V now, as per all the previous posts) and A (the person that I am tagged/assigned to) will be happy to read their names here. Actually their names are very generic, should I or should I not?
I'll sleep on that.
Anyway, I am supposed to be tagged/assigned to assist A, but at the same time I am to do whatever shit V give me. Haha. V is a totally different kind of boss compared to WH the lao ban from the last job. To think of it, V is something of a kenny material. Interesting to communicate with, can take jokes, friendly and patient.
Not too bad leh, having kenny ver 2.0 is conforting. I didnt realise the similarities until right now. Oh, I miss kenny, meow, caho, boon heng, obasan and jacq they all leh.
A gave me a whole stack of information to digest, and I gave up around 1/2 way thru. I will try my best to finish the stack tmr though, if I ever had the time to get to it. She also told me she would be testing me on the informations soon, and asked me to get ready for it. ~_~
Jsyn asked me if I am stressed. Of course I am not, I cannot be bothered anyway. 兵来将挡，水来土淹。Worry about it after I finish the tasks on hand.
A wants V to move me over to sit beside her so that she can communicate to me easier. Currently I am sitting around 2 rows away from her, so it is a 10 second walk. I prefer not to move, and I told V I dont really wish to move. I told him I will gladly walk over whenever she call for me? Like that can?
V say cannot (sickening~ Haha, very deliberate..), cos A dowan to walk over. He ask me why do I want to continue to sit where I am sitting now?
吊起来卖!
I rather sit near jsyn and mchl lah. They are plenty of fun and I think A is a little too serious for my liking. I can work with her no doubt about it, but if I sit there permanently I will quickly consider to leave for another job bah.
Later in the afternoon when I follow A to site, she told me I'd been doing quite well for the past few days. (In my heart I kind of think the same way, considering V havent go thru even 1/3 of the basics with me, hahaha. 真的是推我一把让我去摔死.) I hypocritically told her, no la, V really taught me a lot, teaching me many details along the way.
And also truthfully (really from the dee~p bottom of my heart) that jsyn and mchl had been great help.
She asked me am I ok with sitting with her. I admitted I preferred to sit with jsyn. She tried to convince me that jsyn might be at site often, so I might not get to see her anyway. I adamantly told her I prefer to sit with jsyn. But of course preference is just preference.
Back at the office, V told her I want to sit back at where I was. A said I've already expressed my opinions to her. Let's see what will happen eventually.
I definately prefer to sit at the same place. I would have the company of jsyn and mchl, and I can piss the hell out of V. Super fun. Muahahahahaha.
***
Staff who goes to site often gets their handphone bills subsidised. I am usually in the office, so I dont think I am eligible. Still, jes helped me ask V to see whether I can claim this expense. V said maybe dont have, cos no one would be calling me anyway.
Good to hear that, I dowan clients to call me on my handphone. I think most people should be nice enough to not call after working hours, but I believe there will be clients who would happily sms and req I reply the next working day or something.
But being so wonderously kind, I would not bear to let people wait for my reply. I would be replying smses as they come, and that will probably mean I would never have time to myself already.
Heng I dont need to do this. *wipes brow*
***
Esther, I wrote this long post to show you I am alive. At least for the moment. Haha.
There is a lot of information on the job that I am supposed to know by heart. They say it will take time, and I shouldnt stress myself up too much.
Weird. Do I look like I am stressed? I am not stressed cos I cannot be bothered. I am just taking the workload as they come, occassionally looking over my shoulder to see if anyone is standing behind me strumming their thighs in inpatience.
Because there is always an overload of information, I tend to forget details.
Oops.
I tried to take down notes, but my writting doesnt match their speaking speed. I tried to write faster, but I cant recognise my scribble. I tried to concentrate harder so that I wont miss out details, of course that didnt work.
Yah lor, I think I need to bring voice recorder. -_-"
I tried to reassure myself, during the first 2 mths of my last job I also super confused, but still I manage to pull thru. I keep telling myself it is ok to make mistakes as long as they are genuine. As long as I am not making a repeated error I am going to give myself a break and not worry too much about it.
My supposed jobscope is to basically support the key people in the company. They go spend their expensive braincells doing thinking, I am churning out drawings for them. They've got tens of things on hand and they will just nonchatantly assign the simplest but most mundane job for me to do.
Well, I dont really mind, I enjoy doing autocad, so I am happy to sit in the office for the whole day and prepare drawings after drawings. Other than autocad drawings, I am need to do quotations and visit site with the key people to take notes to facilitate my autocad and quoting later.
Up to this moment, I am thinking that things are pretty good.
"Think" is the key word.
Sigh, I desperately want to name the people in the company so that I can blog about them and you people can understand the scenario, but I dont think the company is too high on its employers blogging.
And I dont think my team leader (can only call him V now, as per all the previous posts) and A (the person that I am tagged/assigned to) will be happy to read their names here. Actually their names are very generic, should I or should I not?
I'll sleep on that.
Anyway, I am supposed to be tagged/assigned to assist A, but at the same time I am to do whatever shit V give me. Haha. V is a totally different kind of boss compared to WH the lao ban from the last job. To think of it, V is something of a kenny material. Interesting to communicate with, can take jokes, friendly and patient.
Not too bad leh, having kenny ver 2.0 is conforting. I didnt realise the similarities until right now. Oh, I miss kenny, meow, caho, boon heng, obasan and jacq they all leh.
A gave me a whole stack of information to digest, and I gave up around 1/2 way thru. I will try my best to finish the stack tmr though, if I ever had the time to get to it. She also told me she would be testing me on the informations soon, and asked me to get ready for it. ~_~
Jsyn asked me if I am stressed. Of course I am not, I cannot be bothered anyway. 兵来将挡，水来土淹。Worry about it after I finish the tasks on hand.
A wants V to move me over to sit beside her so that she can communicate to me easier. Currently I am sitting around 2 rows away from her, so it is a 10 second walk. I prefer not to move, and I told V I dont really wish to move. I told him I will gladly walk over whenever she call for me? Like that can?
V say cannot (sickening~ Haha, very deliberate..), cos A dowan to walk over. He ask me why do I want to continue to sit where I am sitting now?
I told him I like to sit with jsyn! He say so? He dont like me to sit here cannot meh? I asked him "为什么? 我的人那~么好。 He laughed and said he will think about it.(Aisle) 1.2 (Window)
(Aisle) 3.4 (Window)
Given that I am sitting at 1, jsyn is sitting at 2, mchl at 3, V at 4. (Suddenly I discover I only assign codes when I am talking about bosses. Why I so gia sii one?
吊起来卖!
I rather sit near jsyn and mchl lah. They are plenty of fun and I think A is a little too serious for my liking. I can work with her no doubt about it, but if I sit there permanently I will quickly consider to leave for another job bah.
Later in the afternoon when I follow A to site, she told me I'd been doing quite well for the past few days. (In my heart I kind of think the same way, considering V havent go thru even 1/3 of the basics with me, hahaha. 真的是推我一把让我去摔死.) I hypocritically told her, no la, V really taught me a lot, teaching me many details along the way.
And also truthfully (really from the dee~p bottom of my heart) that jsyn and mchl had been great help.
She asked me am I ok with sitting with her. I admitted I preferred to sit with jsyn. She tried to convince me that jsyn might be at site often, so I might not get to see her anyway. I adamantly told her I prefer to sit with jsyn. But of course preference is just preference.
Back at the office, V told her I want to sit back at where I was. A said I've already expressed my opinions to her. Let's see what will happen eventually.
I definately prefer to sit at the same place. I would have the company of jsyn and mchl, and I can piss the hell out of V. Super fun. Muahahahahaha.
***
Staff who goes to site often gets their handphone bills subsidised. I am usually in the office, so I dont think I am eligible. Still, jes helped me ask V to see whether I can claim this expense. V said maybe dont have, cos no one would be calling me anyway.
Good to hear that, I dowan clients to call me on my handphone. I think most people should be nice enough to not call after working hours, but I believe there will be clients who would happily sms and req I reply the next working day or something.
But being so wonderously kind, I would not bear to let people wait for my reply. I would be replying smses as they come, and that will probably mean I would never have time to myself already.
Heng I dont need to do this. *wipes brow*
***
Esther, I wrote this long post to show you I am alive. At least for the moment. Haha.
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Dinner at rendevous
Is that how you spell it? I dunno also, but that is beside the point.
The team leaders at work treated the whole team to dinner tonight. Food is ok~ Cos there's too much food in the buffet that I dont comsume.
Heng no need me to pay, or I will be super pissed. I dont eat sashimi, dont eat mussles, dont eat a lot of the galore of sumptuous food.
The dessert tasted quite good, but still, it is really not worth to spend $27+++. Too expensive in my opinion. I would rather spend that money on 4 times of klunch. Whahaha.
When I was at the buffet table taking food, v, the team leader was standing beside me and jsyn passed by me and commented that she would want to try the food that I am taking. I just corresponded with a "好~", then v commented on why am I responding with a "好" for everything, and said he thinks he will never hear me say "不好~".
I smiled and told him cos I am a 好人 mah, so everything I also say "好". He laughed and say now beginning that's why I am so nice. Further down the road I will not be so accomodating already.
*Gasp* He saw through my ruse!
Rubbish. Full of crap. I am just so amicable and pleasant, no pretense at all.
*taps my index fingers against each other and rolling my eyes upwards to the left*
开玩笑, 老娘 simply exude congeniality ok, ark-scuse-moi. =P
I was originally worried the dinner will drag until very late. It is a dreary monday evening and there's work tomorrow! But luckily can sua diuu by 9pm. V even drove us home. Wah, so good, free dinner plus free transport. Tan dio. Muahahaha.
The team leaders at work treated the whole team to dinner tonight. Food is ok~ Cos there's too much food in the buffet that I dont comsume.
Heng no need me to pay, or I will be super pissed. I dont eat sashimi, dont eat mussles, dont eat a lot of the galore of sumptuous food.
The dessert tasted quite good, but still, it is really not worth to spend $27+++. Too expensive in my opinion. I would rather spend that money on 4 times of klunch. Whahaha.
When I was at the buffet table taking food, v, the team leader was standing beside me and jsyn passed by me and commented that she would want to try the food that I am taking. I just corresponded with a "好~", then v commented on why am I responding with a "好" for everything, and said he thinks he will never hear me say "不好~".
I smiled and told him cos I am a 好人 mah, so everything I also say "好". He laughed and say now beginning that's why I am so nice. Further down the road I will not be so accomodating already.
*Gasp* He saw through my ruse!
Rubbish. Full of crap. I am just so amicable and pleasant, no pretense at all.
*taps my index fingers against each other and rolling my eyes upwards to the left*
开玩笑, 老娘 simply exude congeniality ok, ark-scuse-moi. =P
I was originally worried the dinner will drag until very late. It is a dreary monday evening and there's work tomorrow! But luckily can sua diuu by 9pm. V even drove us home. Wah, so good, free dinner plus free transport. Tan dio. Muahahaha.
Monday, November 21, 2005
Hmm, I'll like this
I like this phone. It's $198 with 2 yrs contract with m1. I think I am getting this phone despite it being out for so long already.I am not sure why I'd no prior impression of this phone, I dont think I've ever saw this phone before. Or maybe it is because I am not so into flip phones previously.
Looks nice hor? I had never seen anyone using this phone before, is it because it is not a good phone?
Should I be buying a new phone or should I buy a second hand phone huh? But at m1, if I am buying without contract it will be $598. Why such a big difference?
I want to buy.
I want to buy.
I want to buy.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Today's not any better
I wasted my whole day doing nothing constructive. I was told to do some drawings, but they cant be worked out because I wasnt given enough information.
When I want to ask, everyone is too busy to bother about me. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.
And I still havent got a comp. I am thinking I might never had a comp, I will just be asked to comp-hop and help people complete their drawing.
不说了！
When I want to ask, everyone is too busy to bother about me. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.
And I still havent got a comp. I am thinking I might never had a comp, I will just be asked to comp-hop and help people complete their drawing.
不说了！
Monday, November 14, 2005
It is as bad as I thought it would be.
I had been very apprehensive of going back to the relevant field cos I feel I am not up to it. I am lacking in all aspects and I dont think I am up to the job's criteria.
I am dead sure that the company is crazy, cos no one in the right frame of mind would want to take me in.
And see! I am right! I am doing as badly as I thought I would be, and that things would turn out as nasty as I can predict.
There wasnt a comp on my table and they say someone would set it up for me really quickly. I have no idea how quick is quick to them, cos by the end of day I still dont have a computer. This really reminds me of ryce. Arg, forget it, dowan to drag ryce into my plight.
I was told to study this catalogue/handbook and supposedly I must understand the contents. Fuck sia, cos I cannot understand a very large percentage of it, and tmr the team leader will be questioning me on it.
You come tell me? How I die tmr la?
I know I know, it's my first day, and things are supposed to be difficult for anyone on the first day. But it is not just a simple job change, cos I am swimming back into a swamp that I've left earlier cos I know I am sinking. But now I am swimming back into it. I do hope I either get out of there alive, or learn how to keep afloat while in there.
Hope is the word, but I am not optimistic.
I am dead sure that the company is crazy, cos no one in the right frame of mind would want to take me in.
And see! I am right! I am doing as badly as I thought I would be, and that things would turn out as nasty as I can predict.
There wasnt a comp on my table and they say someone would set it up for me really quickly. I have no idea how quick is quick to them, cos by the end of day I still dont have a computer. This really reminds me of ryce. Arg, forget it, dowan to drag ryce into my plight.
I was told to study this catalogue/handbook and supposedly I must understand the contents. Fuck sia, cos I cannot understand a very large percentage of it, and tmr the team leader will be questioning me on it.
You come tell me? How I die tmr la?
I know I know, it's my first day, and things are supposed to be difficult for anyone on the first day. But it is not just a simple job change, cos I am swimming back into a swamp that I've left earlier cos I know I am sinking. But now I am swimming back into it. I do hope I either get out of there alive, or learn how to keep afloat while in there.
Hope is the word, but I am not optimistic.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
So tired.
Although it was fun, I still think I would have enjoyed myself more if I had stayed at home.
Haha.
Went to bernard's and maria's wedding at swissotel just now, and the ambience was beautiful. But maybe it is because I am not familiar with the two of them, I wasnt very involved in the process of the banquet.
Also maybe because I've already left the job and havent start at my new one, there isnt conversation topics. Therefore there was an uncomfortable silence wrapping me. Camilla sat to my right, and she was very quiet anyway, so the silence only expanded.
...
... ...
The food is ok, but since my taste buds are spoilt anyway like I always say, so I am not sure if the food taste good. But at least there is nothing that taste like rubber, or taste raw. That matters more to me, anything else I can accept.
Towards the end of the dinner, which was actually scheduled to end at 11.30, I whipped out my camera and started to take pictures with the people around the table. I was supposed to be taking the pictures during my last day, but ended up I didnt take them. So today I had to.
Hmmm, all I can say is that my wu-wu-dong-dong takes a little time to get use to. Camilla tried taking pics with the camera a few times but she just kept getting blurry pictures. I dont like to switch on flash while taking pictures because I like to take pics with given lighting.
Hence taking pics with my camera will take 2,3 seconds instead of 1 sec when with flash, hence there is a larger opportunity of camera shake, hence for each picture I posed with the people, I had to take a few times before they turn out ok.
But towards the end, camilla grew familiar with my wu-wu-dong-dong and took very nice pics! Cheerio! =)
Pictures will still need to go through the basic photoshop handling, so I cant post them now. There is definately brightness to tune and cropping to do, and I am too lazy to do them now. Let's see if I can get to it tomorrow.
Tomorrow... My last day before I start work at the new place. I've already decided that I want to sleep in until at least 3pm. Whahahaha.
Haha.
Went to bernard's and maria's wedding at swissotel just now, and the ambience was beautiful. But maybe it is because I am not familiar with the two of them, I wasnt very involved in the process of the banquet.
Also maybe because I've already left the job and havent start at my new one, there isnt conversation topics. Therefore there was an uncomfortable silence wrapping me. Camilla sat to my right, and she was very quiet anyway, so the silence only expanded.
...
... ...
The food is ok, but since my taste buds are spoilt anyway like I always say, so I am not sure if the food taste good. But at least there is nothing that taste like rubber, or taste raw. That matters more to me, anything else I can accept.
Towards the end of the dinner, which was actually scheduled to end at 11.30, I whipped out my camera and started to take pictures with the people around the table. I was supposed to be taking the pictures during my last day, but ended up I didnt take them. So today I had to.
Hmmm, all I can say is that my wu-wu-dong-dong takes a little time to get use to. Camilla tried taking pics with the camera a few times but she just kept getting blurry pictures. I dont like to switch on flash while taking pictures because I like to take pics with given lighting.
Hence taking pics with my camera will take 2,3 seconds instead of 1 sec when with flash, hence there is a larger opportunity of camera shake, hence for each picture I posed with the people, I had to take a few times before they turn out ok.
But towards the end, camilla grew familiar with my wu-wu-dong-dong and took very nice pics! Cheerio! =)
Pictures will still need to go through the basic photoshop handling, so I cant post them now. There is definately brightness to tune and cropping to do, and I am too lazy to do them now. Let's see if I can get to it tomorrow.
Tomorrow... My last day before I start work at the new place. I've already decided that I want to sleep in until at least 3pm. Whahahaha.
Friday, November 11, 2005
Lyrics: xp
洗牌 李玖哲
回忆当初我们的好与坏
才发现其实快乐大于悲哀
从过去一路走来我却学不会慷慨
去面对这场得来不易的爱
我们都曾等待下一张牌
让落败的爱能扳的回来
却只组合成伤害希望被失望破坏
眼看错已离手收不回来
谁能把悲伤从新洗牌
谁能说这不是种安排
长久以来 oh 爱情是种意外
让我输了你曾为我存的爱 so beautiful
oh~~
我们都曾等待下一张牌
让落败的爱能扳的回来
却只组合成伤害希望被失望破坏
眼看错已离手收不回来
谁能把悲伤从新洗牌
谁能说这不是种安排
长久以来 oh 爱情是种意外
让我输了你曾为我存的爱 my baby
我怎么能释怀最后的未来
最后一手牌还紧握着悲哀
谁能把悲伤从新洗牌
谁能说这不是种安排
长久以来 oh 爱情是种意外
让我输了你曾为我存的爱 so beautiful
回忆当初我们的好与坏
才发现其实快乐大于悲哀
从过去一路走来我却学不会慷慨
去面对这场得来不易的爱
我们都曾等待下一张牌
让落败的爱能扳的回来
却只组合成伤害希望被失望破坏
眼看错已离手收不回来
谁能把悲伤从新洗牌
谁能说这不是种安排
长久以来 oh 爱情是种意外
让我输了你曾为我存的爱 so beautiful
oh~~
我们都曾等待下一张牌
让落败的爱能扳的回来
却只组合成伤害希望被失望破坏
眼看错已离手收不回来
谁能把悲伤从新洗牌
谁能说这不是种安排
长久以来 oh 爱情是种意外
让我输了你曾为我存的爱 my baby
我怎么能释怀最后的未来
最后一手牌还紧握着悲哀
谁能把悲伤从新洗牌
谁能说这不是种安排
长久以来 oh 爱情是种意外
让我输了你曾为我存的爱 so beautiful
Cant communicate with him!
It used to be just the witch, now my father is becoming increasing irritating. Dont tell me crap like I shouldnt be so unfilial, talking bad behind their backs, I fuck care one ok.
Recently he is obsessed with keying in chinese characters into his hp and send them as sms to dunno what friends. He dun use my hanyu pinyin way, but instead he uses the keystrokes way.
Fine lor, guan wo pi shi right? Until he keep asking me how to write this character, how to write that character. If I know I will surely just help him out, but it is ridiculous that he asked me then dont believe me right.
Weird.
He just bought a new nokia phone and ask me how to use the functions. His hp is set to chinese, so obviously I cant manuveur as fast as I do with my own nokia phone. And he is pissed.
What's with the people of my house huh? Everyone is acting like a child, and things must happen to their liking if not they will sulk. Hallo~ The world doesnt revolves around anyone, please.
Yesterday, after combating desire to scream, I set time on his hp for him. This is after my elder brother gave up on him, and turned back to the comp to see more soccer score updates.
I helped him set the time then he complained that I never did it slowly enough for him to catch. I asked him why he wants to know how to set the time for? Cos a normal user wont need to change any fucking time on the hp one what! He kept whining that I never teach him.
Fed up, I just turned away and concentrate on my novel.
Later while I was fully engrossed playing some mindless neopets game he suddenly plug his earpiece into my ear and blasted fm into my ears. Startled half my life away ok?!!? And stupid issit? Volume turn up so high is for what purpose? 震破我的耳膜吗?
Just now he happily came to tell me that he went to ask his friends, and they told him that the handphone I picked up previously cannot be used in sg. Wah, deja vu leh. Wasnt that the same thing that I told him back in july? He must take this long to comprehend one hor?
For the information of anyone who doesnt know, japanese phone works like our pagers. Each phone is assigned to a number, hence there is no sim card. Therefore also, once the phone is lost, the person just need to buy a new phone.
Hence however nice this phone looks, it cannot be used in sg. So I cannot use it. EXCUSE ME!! Stop asking me the question over and over again!
Ok, while on the topic, I am interested in getting this samsung phone. I dont really want to sign contract with m1, so I am thinking of buying a second hand phone.
The purpose of getting a flip phone is purely for the fun of it, so I dont really want to spend too much money on it.
It will cost $68 if I sign 2 yrs contract with m1, or $298 w/o contract. Anyone love me enough to buy it for me?
Please? *Sweet smile*
Recently he is obsessed with keying in chinese characters into his hp and send them as sms to dunno what friends. He dun use my hanyu pinyin way, but instead he uses the keystrokes way.
Fine lor, guan wo pi shi right? Until he keep asking me how to write this character, how to write that character. If I know I will surely just help him out, but it is ridiculous that he asked me then dont believe me right.
Weird.
He just bought a new nokia phone and ask me how to use the functions. His hp is set to chinese, so obviously I cant manuveur as fast as I do with my own nokia phone. And he is pissed.
What's with the people of my house huh? Everyone is acting like a child, and things must happen to their liking if not they will sulk. Hallo~ The world doesnt revolves around anyone, please.
Yesterday, after combating desire to scream, I set time on his hp for him. This is after my elder brother gave up on him, and turned back to the comp to see more soccer score updates.
I helped him set the time then he complained that I never did it slowly enough for him to catch. I asked him why he wants to know how to set the time for? Cos a normal user wont need to change any fucking time on the hp one what! He kept whining that I never teach him.
Fed up, I just turned away and concentrate on my novel.
Later while I was fully engrossed playing some mindless neopets game he suddenly plug his earpiece into my ear and blasted fm into my ears. Startled half my life away ok?!!? And stupid issit? Volume turn up so high is for what purpose? 震破我的耳膜吗?
Just now he happily came to tell me that he went to ask his friends, and they told him that the handphone I picked up previously cannot be used in sg. Wah, deja vu leh. Wasnt that the same thing that I told him back in july? He must take this long to comprehend one hor?For the information of anyone who doesnt know, japanese phone works like our pagers. Each phone is assigned to a number, hence there is no sim card. Therefore also, once the phone is lost, the person just need to buy a new phone.
Hence however nice this phone looks, it cannot be used in sg. So I cannot use it. EXCUSE ME!! Stop asking me the question over and over again!
Ok, while on the topic, I am interested in getting this samsung phone. I dont really want to sign contract with m1, so I am thinking of buying a second hand phone.The purpose of getting a flip phone is purely for the fun of it, so I dont really want to spend too much money on it.
It will cost $68 if I sign 2 yrs contract with m1, or $298 w/o contract. Anyone love me enough to buy it for me?
Please? *Sweet smile*
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
2 new pairs from a while ago.
Here, as usual.
I actually bought these a while ago, must have been at least 2 wks ago, but I had been so lazy so I took pictures of them.
God, what is becoming of me? Getting lazier day by day. Sheesh.
Forgot to put up this pic!
Given to me by meow on her last working day before she went for her block leave. Because she was on block, I didnt get to see her on my last day.
Thanks meow!
Also, because she is at kl now, she might not be coming back in time for bernard's and maria's wedding, meaning I might not be seeing her also. Sigh. So sad. But meow is DEFINATELY one person I will keep in contact.
Confirm plus chop. =)
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Too much time on hands
I really had too much time today. I even woke up at 11 when I told myself I want to sleep until 4pm since no one is around to restrict me unlike weekends.
I am contemplating to go sing karaoke myself, but it feels too overhyped even when I tell myself of this plan.
Shopping? I can, but I should also be saving up money.
Eat? I am. Arh.
Pack up? Nah, 我疯了啊? *shakes head*
Create? 算了吧. I am not gifted.
I dunno if I've blogged this before, cos I am in the delirious mode recently. I cannot remember things that had happened, lest to say their chronological order.
I feel that my life is slowing down to crawl, and is seemingly meeting with the full stop already.
Sigh, I dowan to sound dangerously close to be commiting suicide soon, but seems like people are beginning to catch these vibes.
没有啦! 想太多了啦!
Haha.
Things seems to be moving downhill now. It has nothing to do with me leaving my last job and me going to join a new job. It is totally because I am totally sick of needing to come up with 40k to study a fuck up diploma. If I give up I wont be half as stressed. But if I give up I will die cos I have nothing to look forward to already.
I dunno how many times I've ranted about the 40k, but I think I will continue to rant about it on and on and on and on and........
And yah, my left arm hurt like crazy. Must have been the load that I tugged home yesterday, or the 2boxes of cookies I've carried around the office yesterday.
I am contemplating to go sing karaoke myself, but it feels too overhyped even when I tell myself of this plan.
Shopping? I can, but I should also be saving up money.
Eat? I am. Arh.
Pack up? Nah, 我疯了啊? *shakes head*
Create? 算了吧. I am not gifted.
*****
I dunno if I've blogged this before, cos I am in the delirious mode recently. I cannot remember things that had happened, lest to say their chronological order.
I feel that my life is slowing down to crawl, and is seemingly meeting with the full stop already.
Sigh, I dowan to sound dangerously close to be commiting suicide soon, but seems like people are beginning to catch these vibes.
没有啦! 想太多了啦!
Haha.
Things seems to be moving downhill now. It has nothing to do with me leaving my last job and me going to join a new job. It is totally because I am totally sick of needing to come up with 40k to study a fuck up diploma. If I give up I wont be half as stressed. But if I give up I will die cos I have nothing to look forward to already.
I dunno how many times I've ranted about the 40k, but I think I will continue to rant about it on and on and on and on and........
And yah, my left arm hurt like crazy. Must have been the load that I tugged home yesterday, or the 2boxes of cookies I've carried around the office yesterday.
Suay siao
I am cursed one leh.
Whenever I am at home, there is bound to be some workers cutting blades of grass downstairs, with a lot of small vroooom-vrooooms from the motors they use to cut the blades.
If not I will be experiencing a lot a lot a lot of drilling.
Like now lor. I am supposed to be home resting, in preparation for my next job remember? But the drilling has been going on non stop since this morning.
Fuck one leh. Everytime like tt. Yesterday I'm not at home why never drill? Why today then drill? I know they are doing their job only, I know ok? But that is not stopping me from getting pissed ok!
The thing is that, they are not evening drilling downstairs or somewhere far away, they are putting up scaffolds and drilling outside my window!!! TAMADE!
I cant even hear my line of thought, cant even hear my game's sound effect, cant even hear the television or the vcd playing in my computer!
KAOBEH ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Whenever I am at home, there is bound to be some workers cutting blades of grass downstairs, with a lot of small vroooom-vrooooms from the motors they use to cut the blades.
If not I will be experiencing a lot a lot a lot of drilling.
Like now lor. I am supposed to be home resting, in preparation for my next job remember? But the drilling has been going on non stop since this morning.
Fuck one leh. Everytime like tt. Yesterday I'm not at home why never drill? Why today then drill? I know they are doing their job only, I know ok? But that is not stopping me from getting pissed ok!
The thing is that, they are not evening drilling downstairs or somewhere far away, they are putting up scaffolds and drilling outside my window!!! TAMADE!
I cant even hear my line of thought, cant even hear my game's sound effect, cant even hear the television or the vcd playing in my computer!
KAOBEH ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Recapping my last day's events
Waking up isnt any special events bah, but everything on a last day should be marked as special mah. I woke up at 6.50 as per normal, didnt wake up any earlier cos I watched wo hen jiang shi you ge yue hui III until 1am on sun night.
But wasnt too worried, cos I've already picked out clothes to wear already. Picking out clothes is the part of my daily routine that drives me late, so yesterday morning I wasnt too kan cheong. I've even selected out my anklet and earrings. Haha. Seldom do I prepare myself so much.
Because I thought I would be taking pictures with the people, so I even applied a little mascara cos my eyes are so tiny. Basically I applied one layer only la, just to let the lashes look thicker.
Although my eyes are miserably small, my lashes are quite long ok!? Especially my lower lashes, so I just applied a little mascara to make it more prominent lor. No fibre no extension kind of shit lah.
As I took the morning train, I cant help but to think that will be the last time, (for a while at least), that I will be taking a train at that time. My next job's working hours is from 9am to 6pm, so I would be taking 8.30 train instead of 8.00 train.
As I approached the city hall mrt station, I remembered that it should be the last time too, for a while at least too, that I would be going to city hall mrt station that early in the morning.
As I took the free shuttle bus, those luxury travel coaches, to work, I also remembered it will be the last time that I am ever going to sit in them as an identity of employee.
As I past the gantry at the bottom of the millenia tower building, once again I am reminded that that will be the very last time that I will be passing thru the gate to walk into the lift lobby.
I was supposed to be moving to another seat remember? So once I entered the office I went to collect some of my desktop stuff to start to move to the new seat. At that seat, the computer doesnt start up properly, and keyboard is absolutely dirty, and there is no mouse. How the fuck to work that way?
So I requested with boss that can I sit somewhere else, maybe back at the old row first, especially it is only for one day? Boss is ok, so I sat at meow's seat cos she is away for block leave. Camilla is sitting at my seat cos she is using my comp.
I ended up wasting at least 30mins of my time cos I need to set up the system for my first-time use. There was a part that I couldnt get about, so I began to sieve thru my old stack of papers in hope there is some instructions.
Boss ask me to go over to his seat to sign some documents then he ask me what am I looking for? I told him I am getting some self-help and he laugh and said anything I dunno also can ask him what. So he came over to my seat and helped me set up my system. So nice of him hor?
But still I've got some paperwork to complete and some stuff to hand over, so I almost hadnt do any work for that last day. But then again, anyone also spend their last day slacking one la. So I dont feel paiseh at all.
And then I started to pack my things, and ended up packing one big bag of stuff, and was even contemplating to take taxi back home after that.
Janice said she wanted to treat me to lunch, and so she asked camilla where I wanted to go. I had already told camilla earlier that I want to eat the curry chicken noodles at marina square food court. Janice bemused, asked me why for my last day I want to eat at a food court. But no difference la, at least it is something that I want to eat. =)
So she still treated me, even went to to purchase it for me. So very sweet of her. She also treated me apple juice though I declined.
Back at the office, I repeatedly went to the toilet cos there is nothing else to do. I am too distracted to work, but everyone else still have to work, so cant entertain me also. I am scheduled to collect the subway cookies only at 4, so I still had to spend around 2 hrs waiting.
But at around 3, boss ask me to teach the temps how to use the system. I dowan to, especially when I am prepared to slack for the whole day. I ask boss to ask someone else, cos I am not good at the system anyway.
Actually if it is at a different time I would be more than willing. I always like to teach others and I had always thought it would be fun to teach newer staff. But because bosses always attach newbies to those lao jiaos, so I know I will never had the chance to teach.
But yesterday boss ask me to teach the temps leh, so I am quite excited. But then again, cos I know I only have around 1 hr or so before I go collect my cookies, so it feels quite sian also. But still I agreed, cos there wont be another chance liao mah. And also luckily it was kevin that boss planted under me, so I am still ok with teaching him. Should it be another temp I wouldnt be half interested.
The other temps are too.... Suan le la. Hahaha.
Kevin is quite a nice guy la, and he listen to chinese songs too. Hmm, will consider to jio him for karaoke. Haha. Maybe no la, dont know him well, but still I asked him for his hp number just in case. Hahaha.
I feel quite bad actually, cos my last day I am not putting in effort to do any work, but he still have to learn to use the system so that he can work for the rest of his temping days. But I just vaguely went thru the procedures, everything also tell him "aiyah, anything la". Oops, my bad.
Around the same time, erv sms-ed me to ask me if I want to go for dinner with him and eric. Eric is another temp when I was still working as a temp at the job.
I replied (in the line) "Wah, so nice of you to ask me ar?"
He replied "Nice? Arh? U mean all along I not nice.. U very what leh.. Hee.. You still e same you. So when u free? Go leh.. Dun be dao leh.. Prob only him and me and u.. U dun mind 2 guys right?"
(In the line) "Since when are you nice to me? Then when?"
"Nonsense again.. Maybe 25 nov..? U free? Any suggestions of where 2 eat.? So where u working now? Still temping?"
(In the line too) "Why 25th? And what nonsense? So rude. Dont like you!!"
And he never reply again. Yay, I successfully pissed him off again.
Later in the evening I msn eric, asking him why the sudden thought to want to have dinner. eric say erv asked him. Chey, I thought what. If eric ask one I will go for sure. Erv ask one.... I will think about it.
I bought all the rest back and share with my family. Gave mashi 3, gave ah ma 2, gave ah yang 2, gave my mother 1, and I ate 3 in total. The rest are sitting in the fridge.
The cookies were a hit with the people. Only 4 persons didnt take it, cos they felt it was too heaty. Then a lot of people were on mc. Off hand I can count at least 6 who were on mc/leave. Response considered quite good, cos just last fri, another colleague had distributed curry puffs and a lot of people declined.
Like that very sian one lor. Especially when you calculated just nice and people dowan to take. Then scurry the food isnt something that you personally enjoy and you have to force people to take it cos you dowan to bring home either.
Unlike mine hor. Like I said, it was a hit and people complimented that no one had treated them subway cookies before and it is a refreshing change from the curry puffs and swiss rolls.
I meant to be taking pics with the people as I distributed the cookies, but it is really too much work. I also meant to take a pic of all the cookies before I gave them out but I also forgot. So in the end leh, although I donned mascara, I ended up not taking a single pic.
But ok la, cos this sat is bernard's and maria's wedding, I would be able to take all the pics I want then.
By the time I gave out all cookies it was almost time for dismissal. As per the culture, the person leaving have to give a farewell speech. I am not 扭扭捏捏 kind of person, so I just marched up to the front and gave my speech la. Basically just did a general 'thank-you' to the general audience.
Although I didnt really thought of a farewell speech, but I originally had a rough outline of what to say, but decided against it in the end cos it would get too emotional.
=)
I recieved a total of $94 for the farewell cash gift. Covered the cookie's cost and earned a little more also. Haha. The extra will go into paying for bernard's and marie's wedding. =)
I tugged home all my stuff eventually, taking a bus cos it will be the last time I am taking a bus home after work. 97 came pretty quick, I didnt had to wait for ages. Before I boarded the bus, I nostalgically look back at the millenia tower. So dramatic sia. I think what?! Acting in tv serial ar?
Hmm, now as I am finishing this entry, it is almost 6. It is almost time for these colleagues to be dimissed for the day. Hope they are well, hope they are fine. =)
But wasnt too worried, cos I've already picked out clothes to wear already. Picking out clothes is the part of my daily routine that drives me late, so yesterday morning I wasnt too kan cheong. I've even selected out my anklet and earrings. Haha. Seldom do I prepare myself so much.
Because I thought I would be taking pictures with the people, so I even applied a little mascara cos my eyes are so tiny. Basically I applied one layer only la, just to let the lashes look thicker.
Although my eyes are miserably small, my lashes are quite long ok!? Especially my lower lashes, so I just applied a little mascara to make it more prominent lor. No fibre no extension kind of shit lah.
*****
As I took the morning train, I cant help but to think that will be the last time, (for a while at least), that I will be taking a train at that time. My next job's working hours is from 9am to 6pm, so I would be taking 8.30 train instead of 8.00 train.
As I approached the city hall mrt station, I remembered that it should be the last time too, for a while at least too, that I would be going to city hall mrt station that early in the morning.
As I took the free shuttle bus, those luxury travel coaches, to work, I also remembered it will be the last time that I am ever going to sit in them as an identity of employee.
As I past the gantry at the bottom of the millenia tower building, once again I am reminded that that will be the very last time that I will be passing thru the gate to walk into the lift lobby.
*****
I was supposed to be moving to another seat remember? So once I entered the office I went to collect some of my desktop stuff to start to move to the new seat. At that seat, the computer doesnt start up properly, and keyboard is absolutely dirty, and there is no mouse. How the fuck to work that way?
So I requested with boss that can I sit somewhere else, maybe back at the old row first, especially it is only for one day? Boss is ok, so I sat at meow's seat cos she is away for block leave. Camilla is sitting at my seat cos she is using my comp.
I ended up wasting at least 30mins of my time cos I need to set up the system for my first-time use. There was a part that I couldnt get about, so I began to sieve thru my old stack of papers in hope there is some instructions.
Boss ask me to go over to his seat to sign some documents then he ask me what am I looking for? I told him I am getting some self-help and he laugh and said anything I dunno also can ask him what. So he came over to my seat and helped me set up my system. So nice of him hor?
But still I've got some paperwork to complete and some stuff to hand over, so I almost hadnt do any work for that last day. But then again, anyone also spend their last day slacking one la. So I dont feel paiseh at all.
And then I started to pack my things, and ended up packing one big bag of stuff, and was even contemplating to take taxi back home after that.
Janice said she wanted to treat me to lunch, and so she asked camilla where I wanted to go. I had already told camilla earlier that I want to eat the curry chicken noodles at marina square food court. Janice bemused, asked me why for my last day I want to eat at a food court. But no difference la, at least it is something that I want to eat. =)
So she still treated me, even went to to purchase it for me. So very sweet of her. She also treated me apple juice though I declined.
Back at the office, I repeatedly went to the toilet cos there is nothing else to do. I am too distracted to work, but everyone else still have to work, so cant entertain me also. I am scheduled to collect the subway cookies only at 4, so I still had to spend around 2 hrs waiting.
But at around 3, boss ask me to teach the temps how to use the system. I dowan to, especially when I am prepared to slack for the whole day. I ask boss to ask someone else, cos I am not good at the system anyway.
Actually if it is at a different time I would be more than willing. I always like to teach others and I had always thought it would be fun to teach newer staff. But because bosses always attach newbies to those lao jiaos, so I know I will never had the chance to teach.
But yesterday boss ask me to teach the temps leh, so I am quite excited. But then again, cos I know I only have around 1 hr or so before I go collect my cookies, so it feels quite sian also. But still I agreed, cos there wont be another chance liao mah. And also luckily it was kevin that boss planted under me, so I am still ok with teaching him. Should it be another temp I wouldnt be half interested.
The other temps are too.... Suan le la. Hahaha.
Kevin is quite a nice guy la, and he listen to chinese songs too. Hmm, will consider to jio him for karaoke. Haha. Maybe no la, dont know him well, but still I asked him for his hp number just in case. Hahaha.
I feel quite bad actually, cos my last day I am not putting in effort to do any work, but he still have to learn to use the system so that he can work for the rest of his temping days. But I just vaguely went thru the procedures, everything also tell him "aiyah, anything la". Oops, my bad.
*****
Around the same time, erv sms-ed me to ask me if I want to go for dinner with him and eric. Eric is another temp when I was still working as a temp at the job.
I replied (in the line) "Wah, so nice of you to ask me ar?"
He replied "Nice? Arh? U mean all along I not nice.. U very what leh.. Hee.. You still e same you. So when u free? Go leh.. Dun be dao leh.. Prob only him and me and u.. U dun mind 2 guys right?"
(In the line) "Since when are you nice to me? Then when?"
"Nonsense again.. Maybe 25 nov..? U free? Any suggestions of where 2 eat.? So where u working now? Still temping?"
(In the line too) "Why 25th? And what nonsense? So rude. Dont like you!!"
And he never reply again. Yay, I successfully pissed him off again.
Later in the evening I msn eric, asking him why the sudden thought to want to have dinner. eric say erv asked him. Chey, I thought what. If eric ask one I will go for sure. Erv ask one.... I will think about it.
*****
I collected my cookies, all 84 of them, for $63. And so I went around the office distributing them. I calculated that I need around 60 of them, so I thought to buy 20 more in extra would be safer. In the end really distributed 60 or so. I only made a rough calculation, so I expected maybe will bneed around 70, in the end only gave out 60. So zhun. Whahahaha.I bought all the rest back and share with my family. Gave mashi 3, gave ah ma 2, gave ah yang 2, gave my mother 1, and I ate 3 in total. The rest are sitting in the fridge.
The cookies were a hit with the people. Only 4 persons didnt take it, cos they felt it was too heaty. Then a lot of people were on mc. Off hand I can count at least 6 who were on mc/leave. Response considered quite good, cos just last fri, another colleague had distributed curry puffs and a lot of people declined.
Like that very sian one lor. Especially when you calculated just nice and people dowan to take. Then scurry the food isnt something that you personally enjoy and you have to force people to take it cos you dowan to bring home either.
Unlike mine hor. Like I said, it was a hit and people complimented that no one had treated them subway cookies before and it is a refreshing change from the curry puffs and swiss rolls.
I meant to be taking pics with the people as I distributed the cookies, but it is really too much work. I also meant to take a pic of all the cookies before I gave them out but I also forgot. So in the end leh, although I donned mascara, I ended up not taking a single pic.
But ok la, cos this sat is bernard's and maria's wedding, I would be able to take all the pics I want then.
By the time I gave out all cookies it was almost time for dismissal. As per the culture, the person leaving have to give a farewell speech. I am not 扭扭捏捏 kind of person, so I just marched up to the front and gave my speech la. Basically just did a general 'thank-you' to the general audience.
Although I didnt really thought of a farewell speech, but I originally had a rough outline of what to say, but decided against it in the end cos it would get too emotional.
=)
I recieved a total of $94 for the farewell cash gift. Covered the cookie's cost and earned a little more also. Haha. The extra will go into paying for bernard's and marie's wedding. =)
I tugged home all my stuff eventually, taking a bus cos it will be the last time I am taking a bus home after work. 97 came pretty quick, I didnt had to wait for ages. Before I boarded the bus, I nostalgically look back at the millenia tower. So dramatic sia. I think what?! Acting in tv serial ar?
Hmm, now as I am finishing this entry, it is almost 6. It is almost time for these colleagues to be dimissed for the day. Hope they are well, hope they are fine. =)
Monday, November 07, 2005
And so, it is a big goodbye
I am super tired and I dont know why. No, I didnt cry. No, I wasnt upset.
But I am just very tired.
Yet today is such an important day that I cant not blog about it. I guess it will have to wait till tmr already lor. I will be home the whole of tmr anyway.
So tmr leh, I will blog about...
But I am just very tired.
Yet today is such an important day that I cant not blog about it. I guess it will have to wait till tmr already lor. I will be home the whole of tmr anyway.
So tmr leh, I will blog about...
- Looking at everything and remember it will be the last time I am doing it/using it/blah blah.
- The amount of things I had at work that I need to bring home.
- The subway cookies, favours and cost
- The distribution, and the repeating of same things over and over again
- Taught kevin how to use the system. I had always like to teach or impart knowledge, but why my chance came so late, and so rushed (cos I need to pick up my cookies)
- Ervin's sms
- Farewell gift of money
- Forgot my charger! Despite reminding myself again and again.
Sunday, November 06, 2005
I decline acceptance of changes!
On my last day, nothing less.
The seat where I've been sitting at since our branched office moved back to the main office in april, the one that seat me diagonally in front of kenny, the one that seat me beside boon heng, who has been keeping me entertained with his jokes.
I will leave the seat after tomorrow, after I left the job.
Well, it used to be the plan, but even for tomorrow, on my last day, I cant sit there, for boss had gave notice for us to vacate the whole row of seats, to make room for other colleagues (who are moving back from their branched office).
I will be moving to sit at the other side of the office for my last day, and although unwillingly, I have to agree with the arrangement.
Like how boss put it, it is my last day already, just bear with it.
True la. Last day already, what more convenience can I demand? It's not like the shuffling is affecting me only, it is affecting everyone from my entire row.
I always maintain a mindset to not get attached to an office environment. It is quite a loser's thinking, in my opinion, to love a place in a company so much that a person cant bear to leave it.
In this job itself, I've shifted seats for a grand total of 5 times. To be frank, I should prefer the seat in the branched office than this one. But maybe because I am leaving this company for good, it feels very different.
Sigh, am I throwing rocks at my feet, by not quite being able to bear with leaving my seat/the company?
I would think it wasnt half as bad, if I were to shift my seat, and vacate it for the next occupant, who was supposed to appear next wk or so.
Then why the fuck must move so early!!!! One last day also cannot let me sit there?!?!? *Breathe in* *Breathe out*
But while I move to another seat, camilla will take over my p4 computer. The computer will eventually be moved to her new seat, but seems like it cannot be moved for the next few days and hence she would have to sit at my seat until the computer can be moved.
Obviously I am not happy about it, but I have to keep reminding myself that the computer doesnt belong to me in the first place, and I am going to leave the stupid computer, the stupid phone, the stupid table and the stupid chair anyway!!!!!
I feel stupid.
Why the fuck am I getting so aggitated over office furniture?
Actually it is not the office furniture la. It is the seat, the position. I guess I am just taking an easy way out to vent my anger. I am not missing the furniture, but I am hell sure I will miss crapping with boon heng and kenny and meow.
They had been the best neighbours for the 6 mths I've been sitting at this seat.
I hate to leave the colleagues but I am loving the fact I am getting out of the company. But I am in no jubilant mood regarding my new job either.
There is no doubt that I am not looking forward to work at the new job. Sure, I should be able to adapt myself, I should be able to fit in and I should be able to pass life there quietly and peacefully.
I should.
But I dowan.
Can anyone explain to me how can I earn a lot of money quickly so that I can go study!?!?
How the fuck am I supposed to save up $40k?!?!!?!?! How who the fuck would lend me that kind of money? They crazy? They out of mind? If not, how do I believe that someone would lend me the money, be it a bank or a person.
My life is really slowing down to a crawl, and soon it will be a still. Why am I stuck in a rut?
The seat where I've been sitting at since our branched office moved back to the main office in april, the one that seat me diagonally in front of kenny, the one that seat me beside boon heng, who has been keeping me entertained with his jokes.
I will leave the seat after tomorrow, after I left the job.
Well, it used to be the plan, but even for tomorrow, on my last day, I cant sit there, for boss had gave notice for us to vacate the whole row of seats, to make room for other colleagues (who are moving back from their branched office).
I will be moving to sit at the other side of the office for my last day, and although unwillingly, I have to agree with the arrangement.
Like how boss put it, it is my last day already, just bear with it.
True la. Last day already, what more convenience can I demand? It's not like the shuffling is affecting me only, it is affecting everyone from my entire row.
I always maintain a mindset to not get attached to an office environment. It is quite a loser's thinking, in my opinion, to love a place in a company so much that a person cant bear to leave it.
In this job itself, I've shifted seats for a grand total of 5 times. To be frank, I should prefer the seat in the branched office than this one. But maybe because I am leaving this company for good, it feels very different.
Sigh, am I throwing rocks at my feet, by not quite being able to bear with leaving my seat/the company?
I would think it wasnt half as bad, if I were to shift my seat, and vacate it for the next occupant, who was supposed to appear next wk or so.
Then why the fuck must move so early!!!! One last day also cannot let me sit there?!?!? *Breathe in* *Breathe out*
But while I move to another seat, camilla will take over my p4 computer. The computer will eventually be moved to her new seat, but seems like it cannot be moved for the next few days and hence she would have to sit at my seat until the computer can be moved.
Obviously I am not happy about it, but I have to keep reminding myself that the computer doesnt belong to me in the first place, and I am going to leave the stupid computer, the stupid phone, the stupid table and the stupid chair anyway!!!!!
I feel stupid.
Why the fuck am I getting so aggitated over office furniture?
Actually it is not the office furniture la. It is the seat, the position. I guess I am just taking an easy way out to vent my anger. I am not missing the furniture, but I am hell sure I will miss crapping with boon heng and kenny and meow.
They had been the best neighbours for the 6 mths I've been sitting at this seat.
I hate to leave the colleagues but I am loving the fact I am getting out of the company. But I am in no jubilant mood regarding my new job either.
There is no doubt that I am not looking forward to work at the new job. Sure, I should be able to adapt myself, I should be able to fit in and I should be able to pass life there quietly and peacefully.
I should.
But I dowan.
Can anyone explain to me how can I earn a lot of money quickly so that I can go study!?!?
How the fuck am I supposed to save up $40k?!?!!?!?! How who the fuck would lend me that kind of money? They crazy? They out of mind? If not, how do I believe that someone would lend me the money, be it a bank or a person.
My life is really slowing down to a crawl, and soon it will be a still. Why am I stuck in a rut?
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Two
Tomorrow and next monday.
I am thinking of how my farewell speech should be? Solemn? Teary? Jubilant? Who should I thank specifically? Or should I keep it to a simple bow-and-thank?
And I've did a quick calculation already, I might be needing around 65 cookies in all. I am buying 84 still la, just in case. $63 is affordable lah.
I am thinking of how my farewell speech should be? Solemn? Teary? Jubilant? Who should I thank specifically? Or should I keep it to a simple bow-and-thank?
And I've did a quick calculation already, I might be needing around 65 cookies in all. I am buying 84 still la, just in case. $63 is affordable lah.
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