It is as bad as I thought it would be.

I had been very apprehensive of going back to the relevant field cos I feel I am not up to it. I am lacking in all aspects and I dont think I am up to the job's criteria.

I am dead sure that the company is crazy, cos no one in the right frame of mind would want to take me in.

And see! I am right! I am doing as badly as I thought I would be, and that things would turn out as nasty as I can predict.

There wasnt a comp on my table and they say someone would set it up for me really quickly. I have no idea how quick is quick to them, cos by the end of day I still dont have a computer. This really reminds me of ryce. Arg, forget it, dowan to drag ryce into my plight.

I was told to study this catalogue/handbook and supposedly I must understand the contents. Fuck sia, cos I cannot understand a very large percentage of it, and tmr the team leader will be questioning me on it.

You come tell me? How I die tmr la?

I know I know, it's my first day, and things are supposed to be difficult for anyone on the first day. But it is not just a simple job change, cos I am swimming back into a swamp that I've left earlier cos I know I am sinking. But now I am swimming back into it. I do hope I either get out of there alive, or learn how to keep afloat while in there.

Hope is the word, but I am not optimistic.