Dettol

I really do hate work.

I have been doing so much ot already, yet they are asking me to go back during the weekends.

Of course they are not at fault, because I am the one who couldnt finish the work. They didnt give me an exceptional pile of work either, it is because I am not familiar with the work process hence it is taking me extra time to sort out information.

But I really cant take the stress of having to work ot everyday and through weekends. I told slt that I agreed to do ot whenever necessary, but I didnt realise it feels so terrible when it is a confirmed schedule to need to work on sun.

Also, partly it is because I felt I've drained my life at this job, clocking in long hours at work and having to sacrifice my weekends.

I was told I need to go back to work this weekend. I can assure you I had almost never been so useless before, when I immediately felt upset enough to bring a tear to my eye.

I blinked it away and bravely sat at my seat, working exceptionally slowly at my work because I was feeling defeated.

When the boss came over and asked me how it is going for me, I tried to force my brightest smile and told him everything is just fine, although inside me, I am already contemplating to leave.

Now at home I dont feel those emotions at all. As a matter of fact, when I was drinking with iris, slt, ec and kt just now, I also didnt feel the unhappiness even though they kept sensing something was wrong with me.

But when I was at the job, the waves of helplessness just sweeps over me so incessantly that I am permanently wearing a forlorn look. I think my colleagues are sick of seeing me in such a gloomy mood because my gloom always radiates in spiraling loops.

What should I do?

I sms peilin to lament and express my helplessness. She exclaimed : yikes, so what do you plan to do now?

I morbidly replied : Dettol sounds like a fine idea, 8 sounds like an auspicious number.