Loud and clear

Recently I had been receiving many good-intention-ed advices, with the underlying message being that I must let go of the past and look forward to a better future (which comes in the form as a promising career).

People, trust me when I say I understand.

I know exactly what you mean. Theory lessons has always been easy to me. Like my bike lessons, I passed my RTE (Riding Theory Evaluation) at my second try and my RTE (Riding Theory Test) at my first, which is supposedly not easy, considering I should have some practical lessons background, which I dont.

Despite so, I managed to pass my theory part for my 2b license, basking in admiration with fellow students in my practical lessons, but anyone who sees me ride a bike has the unanimous reaction as -_-".

Hence, what I want to say is that I do understand what you all mean by telling me to think on the brighter side. What I need to do is to really put knowledge to practice. And to do that I know I have to depend on myself, and I am bearing that in mind.


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And peeps, everyone has some archilles heels, and I am telling you one of mine.

I've mentioned before, not only in my blog, but to many of you personally, that I really do not appreciate hearing things like "You had it bad, but others have it worse."

When I was doing my fyp during my TP years, I had this coursemate, unknowingly, who tried to assure me when I was feeling very insecure about my project. She told me "Dont worry, look at xxx or yyy, their projects are worse than yours!" I hate her for that.

All along, I had never really like to compare myself to others. I seldom look at at the top student in my class and wonder how come I cant perform as she does. Mostly I look at myself and wonder if I can push myself a little bit more. I dont care if someone else had did a worse job, I admit it is of some comfort though, but I care about how come I can never do my work to a standard that I can be proud of.

It is just a pet peeve, so try not to say that, or anything in the same line, to me can?

Thank you. =)