Dear En'en

I love you.

Seriously, I do. But I dowan you to marry me, I dowan to marry you either. You go ahead and have your hot dates on fridays.

=)

I had always meant to say this, and I've said part of it to you. I've told you that the best thing that came out from the damn job was knowing all of you, particularly pris and you, and that I really appreciate everything everyone had done for me, regardless it is eventually of help or not. Haha.

But to you especially, thank you for being the one whom always ensure I am not left out in this group of yours, and thanks for being the one who strike the best balance. I dont know if the correct dose of sympathy from you is a result of 狗屎运 or what, but I prefer to think that you are sensitive and 心思细腻. Not bad huh, still know how to por you in a time like this. =)

Thanks for being angry on my behalf. I couldnt feel a trace of anger and I was helpless on how to help myself get out of this rut. But seeing you being angry for me cleared some of my blocked frustration artileries. Thanks for being the one whom tried your best to ensure the gathering on michael's birthday would be comfortable for me. Thanks for all the time you spent with me on msn.

There was once on msn when you suddenly ask me was I very sian with life, I denied at first thinking you had just randomly asked. When I realised you hadnt, I laughed and replied that you know me better than I thought you did. While most people couldnt see past my mask that I don for a good part of my life, you happen to see through it. Maybe it is not fair to say that you happen to, but it is a scary thought to know how much you might know about me in the short 5 months that we knew each other.

Unfortunately, you might be feeling that I am ostracising you these days. To be more exact, I am ostracising myself. It is not fair to you after you had been so kind to me, but that is my way of coping in difficult times. What you had done for me is already way more than I can expect from anyone, so for the remaining path, I will pick myself up.

When I return, it would only be after I've found and started on the new job, I will be a happier person (on the surface of course). Till then take good care!

Yours,
LG.