Curbing my anger

I really will try my best to curb my temper. I dowan to complain anymore, and I dowan to make a fuss anymore.

I will just ignore whoever is making me angry.

I will just ignore whatever crap is happening and will control my anger.

By not complaining non stop, I am not continuing to piss my friends off. Everyone is sick of listening to me complain about the same things over and over again. I am tired of saying them over and over again myself.

Things are not getting solved anyway, so why should I be angry over it.

I dowan to over estimate myself any longer and pretend I am able to change things for the better. As a matter of fact, how do I know for sure that my better is THE better?

The only thing is that, but not being able to be angry, I am depriving myself of an outlet. I feel very wronged and eventually I feel so helpless that I dont know what to do.

When anger turns to tears, it is scary. So scary that you wouldnt know what to do.