Short fused

I am getting increasingly short-tempered these days, which is very hard to achieve I know, given that my temper is already THAT short.

For the second time in a few days, I was the last person to leave the company at night. The last time was last fri, I think I am going to break some new records le, being one of the dua dah ones, staying ot alone.

My mind wandered, definately, as I contemplated the possibility of phantoms appearing. But I am so bored with life that I reckon a phantom might be a good conversation topic in days to come.

But I met with none.

I had to stay to do a stupid project which I am almost doing it solely. I love the way things are now, I am doing the crap, and they are getting the commissions and great appraisals.

I must do something about this, quitting is a plausible move.

Ok, I shant digress that much.

I was saying I was doing ot and I needed to find a price for an item so that I can do a quotation. Because I am the only fucked-up person left in the company at that time, there was no one I could turn to.

There is a file that I know contain the information I needed, but it is not where I last left it. I thought michael might have taken it, given that he is using that file frequently these days, and so I rummage throught his workstation.

No luck.

I looked through many other files that might hold the answer, but done did, and I was getting impatient. I sms-ed kt, because the file that I was looking for belongs to him originally, and I thought he could tell me where he found his answer from, back then.

He told me two places to look, and I apologised to him for bombarding him with questions these two days. It seemed too convenient to let by, because most of the drawings I am doing now are based on the standards he left behind.

I said I am sorry to be piling him with questions, but everyone else looked like they are going to kill me if I ask yet another question, so I can only ask someone who is not within reach. (Haha, lame excuse from a lazy person.)

Slt and michael have to put up with my endless questions and slt is already getting fed up. In return, I am retorting that 赢了,熟了就开始没有礼貌了.

Hahah. He cant win me when it comes to saying this kind of bitchy contents.

Anyway, kt seemed to be pissed by my constant questions, because he replied that "next time condense all your questions into one session and ppl wont be so bothered."

Oops, I think he is talking about himself.

I think I will keep my questions to slt in future. Cos as much as he wants to staple my mouth together, he is still entertaining my questions, save for the fact that he is rolling his eyes more often now.

I kept searching and I couldnt get the answer I need. I decided to try the file cabinet again, as though I believe my guardian angel and put back the file for me in the position that I've left it.

No way, but I suddenly found the file in another location, not in alphabetical order, not in any fucking order at all!

I screamed the loudest CCB I ever managed, snatching the file from that slot and 过肩摔 it against the worktop at the same time.

Ok la, not that exaggerated.

But I did string some expetitives together in praise of finding that file. I fished the information I need and I heeled the file back into its incorrect slot.

I dont understand why I had to be so angry over a lost file. I guess I am angrier at my job than I realised.

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I am getting addedly upset at this job. I dunno how long I can hold out.

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Pris is considering to quit since her boss is not going to give her her confirmation. I am saddened, but she deserves a better job.

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I dunno why am I still alive. While I cabbed home just now after work, I watch the speedometer scaled 110km/hr and I wondered if I will have the luxury to crash. I didnt.

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Most ppl are not aware of my dark side. I try not to let that shadow of my past appear, but sometimes why does it seem like I am not in control of my life?

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I really feel like taking mc tmr, but I've got work to do. Maybe I should take mc on wed and go for a karaoke session. Or maybe I should take one next monday. I dunno for now. When is the next public holiday coming?

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I've never admit to anyone before, but one reason why I am learning to ride a bike is because I want to remember how it felt like to treasure life.

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Slt is leaving the job and because he had always been the 'boss' of the team, it felt remotely like this group is falling apart. Luckily we stay quite close, so there is still a high chance of me and en'en meeting him for dinner.

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I've been sleeping extremely long hours these weekends but I am still feeling lethargic. I dunno what kind of doctor can cure me.