I wonder

I think I dont even have to wonder, I am going to fail tmr's rte for sure.

That thought sucks.

But I havent study fully, and I had only been reading one of the two books, and not quite memorising.

Dead.

I went for drinking with slt, wilf and en'en just now. As much as I enjoy talking to them, sometimes I feel there is still something missing.

Maybe I am too used to how lao da and andy will crap, so much so that I am very uneasy when we are went silent after running out of topics and everyone just looked away to somewhere distant.

Luckily I am new to this group, so it is easy for me to distract myself and concentrate on the passerby coconut tree or the occasional worm that wriggle across the road.

And you know how paranoid I am, I keep thinking the group doesnt like me and it worries me sometimes. Usually not for long, because I have a pre-tuned mindset and once I think that the rest are not liking me, I will avoid them, hence eventually jeopardising any relationship there might had been.

I am one contradicting person.
(This line itself deserve another post, I'll try to get to it tmr.)