Tired.

I am very tired these days. Granted that I did a lot of OT, had been spending long hours at work, and had been loaded with so much work that I have not a moment to spare.

But I had plenty of sleep over the weekend. So why is it that I am so lethargic.

I realised I am sprouting grey hairs, and that I am waking up many times throughout the night. It had always been a norm for me to sleep a night filled with dreams, but recently I had been jolting awake thru the nights and have been taking a long time to fall back to sleep.

It had been subconsciously stressful at work I guess. I thought I dont feel too stressed but apparently I am quite burned-out. I am highly distracted and I cannot really concentrate. I dont wish to blame it all on stress, that seems to be such an easy excuse, but I guess the stress factor is affecting me.

The bluetooth issue sucks too.

But I am too tired to blog about it. Yet.

I am offered another job which would pay me better. Money is always a temptation, but can I bear to leave nice colleagues like jes and michael and vnc? Or would it be better if I leave, cos 距离就是美.




I DONT KNOW!




Seriously, I dont know.



I really dont know.


And yah, esther, I still havent forgot about wanting to blog about adl. But my grievance is so thick that it takes at least 3 hours to blog it. And it is a dilemna as usual. Part of me wants to forget about the things that she did and get on with life, another part of me urges to blog it down so that I can (hopefully) view things from a different angle.

Crap.

I dont know what I want, I dont know how to know what I want.