Saving habit

My brother borrowed $50 from me the moment I reached home just now. I just withdrew money just now because I am absolutely cash broke and I am supposed to be having dinner w/ erv and eric tmr.

I told him I am down to my last $50 and I need the money tmr. He keep asking to borrow it and say he will return me the money tmr.

Pissed, I questioned him that since he is going out, why dont he just go withdraw money? If I am to withdraw tmr, it will be eating into my lunch time and it is a stupid choice to withdraw any money in the morning at the mrt station as he suggested because there are at least 15 fucking people queuing every morning when I walked past.

He said he cant withdraw the money now because he is getting his pay tmr only!!!!

What the fuck?

He is fetching $1900 a mth ok! And he can manage to wipe out his whole salary within one mth? Where is his common sense? Doesnt he understand everyone needs to save?

It is irritating not only that he managed to finish his whole pay within that one mth, he is even falling short! Yah I know it is just that $50 that he is short of, but excuse me, his bring home pay is $1500 a mth leh! That means he is spending $1550 a mth to substain his lifestyle?

*Jawdropped.*

And the stupid thing is that, when I asked him how come he is cleaned out his paycheck in his first ever proper (full-time) working mth, and that wasnt him fetching $1900? He retorted after cpf he is only bring home $1500!

Siao one. Who doesnt have cpf deduction? He acted like he is one poor deprived man whom the government exploited.

*Jawdropped.*

He really surprise me with his lack of intelligence/common sense. Of course I am not saying I am any smarter, but anyone who has lesser common sense than him needs to see a psychiatrist. Go quick ok? I am worried for your well-being ok, dont have common sense how are you going to survive this demeaning world?

Well, unless you are like my brother la, who has full financial support from the mother.

Sometimes I am thinking, at this rate things are going, the mother's money is going to be wiped clean by the son. The father have zero savings and the youngest son is too young to be depended on.

Dont tell me all of them are going to live off the daughter.

I dowan to support them. I dun care how you think I am unfilial and you will from now on hold me in contempt, it is my deepest wish that I never need to support them after their retirement.

I never enjoyed my life all these years. If my whole family is in a pathetic state I have nothing to say, but ONLY myself is living the pathetic life while my two brothers are preciously handled by the mother and the father as per all hokkien families.

If I can choose, I would rather indulge all the money in my future children and have enough to live a simple and comfortable life after retirement. In that case, my children will not have the stress to need to support me and my husband when we are old.

I always believe by the fact that, if you want to give birth to children, you must make sure you can take care of them until they are no longer dependable on you. Taking care will mean financially and emotionally. You can choose to give birth or not to give birth to your children, but nobody can decide who their parents would be.

Hence, if you want to give birth, you better ensure you can take care of your children.

And excuse me, I am not even talking about take GOOD care like providing loads and loads of financial support until your children turns out to be a sissy or spoilt brat.

My wish in live, other than being able to work my dream job and having a wonderful husband and children, would be that I hope I am rich.

I hope as I grow old, I have enough money to support the parents thru their old age, support my children until they grow to be independant, and still have enough money to survive my old age.

If I can have one wish, my only wish is that I am fuckingly rich. So rich that I will never have to worry again. So rich that I have no more fear.

Riches cant buy health, but it can buy the time and slot of the doctor who would operate on you.

Riches cant buy beauty, but it can buy botox to iron out those wrinkles.

Riches cant buy knowledge, but it can fund my borders shopping spree.

Riches cant buy kindness, but I am very kind to begin with. What's your problem?

Riches cant buy love, but with health, with beauty, with knowledge, and with kindness, (AND with enough money to allow variety of choices of places to go on dates), not possible got people dun like me one what.

I wont flaunt my riches, I will be very low-profiled, 低调的奢华嘛. =)

Ok la, I can continue to dream my fantasy in lalaland. Bleah.