Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Implosive

I am sick of myself being so easily affected.

Cancer Employee Profile (June 22 - July 21)

The Cancer employee isn't at work to feed their ego -- their job is just a job and a means to get paid. They work steadily and are usually very reliable. You'll be able to depend on them to show up on time and do what is necessary.

They won't get involved in power struggles or get upset when someone advances before them. They are able to accept the situation because they see it simply as a rung on the ladder up. Their motivation is security. They'll want more money the longer they've stayed at a job. They don't want to have to worry about how they'll make ends meet tomorrow so they'll need a stable position without much risk.

Cancerian workers can slip into some dark moods on occasion. During these periods productivity tends to drop - as well as everyone else's in the office. Their moods can be so strong everyone becomes affected. To avoid the frequency of these occurrences, managers and co-workers should try to make the work environment as homey as possible-keep it well heated, cozy, and friendly. Don't press them to reveal their true inner thoughts-their tendency is to be secretive and protective, and they could see prying as an attempt to disturb their security.

I got the above via email and I think it is really accurate. To me, positions in a company doesnt matter to me. I dont care if I am a manager or I am a boss or I am a lowly team player. All that it matters to me is the MONEY! Give me money and you get my loyalty. At anytime, if I recieve another job offer that pays me more I would immediately consider to leave the current job.

Of course if the increment is insignificant I wont be bothered, but if the amount in question is an increment of $100 or $200 I would fly out of the current office.

Most importantly, this extract is accurate because of the moody part. I am a typical cancerian (I keep telling myself I want to write an entry about my horoscope traits but I've procrastinated it for extremely long.) and I wear my emotions on my sleeves.

I can be very amicable but once my temper/moodswing strikes, everyone near me can immediately pick up the negative vibes.

Of course I am not talking about slamming things to get attention. No I dont engage in such childish activities. When I am angry, or upset, for some reason I radiate vibes so strong that my colleagues would turn around and look at me jawdropped.

This few days I had been going thru myriads of emotions. I would contemplate resignation, then withdraw my intentions. Something else happens and I would want to throw in the towel then I would think of how nice jsyn, mchl, vnc and ncn is and I would tell myself it is really not quite possible to find such friendly colleagues anymore.

Today when adl informed me that as per big boss's instructions, I MUST move over to sit at the desk beside hers. I've rejected to move 3 times previously, and even got vnc to help me talk to her. She really went a step too far, by telling me the it is the big boss's intentions.

Now although I look quite amicable and harmless, I must say that I am not easily pushed around. The moment she told me that fucking piece of news immediately I think that it must be adl's hobby to make sure my life sucks.

It is bad enough to have to keep working with her, but at least when I am sitting with jsyn I can complain and get my grievance off my chest.

Now that I have to sit with her I think I will implode very soon.

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