Let me go cry

As much as I am having fun in this new company, enjoying my boss's and senior's silly banter, sometimes I cannot help but to miss my last company.

In my industry, we need support from one another to function properly. There are many aspects in interior design, and more often than not, there is one person specialising in each sector.

One in doors, one in walls, one in glass panels, one in decorative lights, one in power points, one in telephone lines, one in security system, one in wall paint, one in wall fabric, one in wallpaper, one in carpet, one in tiles, one in vinyl floor, one in laminate floor, one in workstations, one in cabinets, one in chairs, one in sofa, one in blinds, one in curtains, one in projectors, one in security, one in coffee machine, one in fridge, one in graphics, one in aircon, one in computers, one in lockers, one in steel, one in locks, and etc etc etc etc etc.

In my last job, I spent 18 months building rapport with all the various vendors and suppliers, and it finally reached a point when I get what I want, sometimes very quickly, because of me, and not my company.

I had been a vendor before, therefore I understand their pains of unreasonable demands. I will do OT to finish work earlier so that my vendors have a little more time to calculate quotations for me. I plan my materials properly so that when I need something, I give 3 days notice.

It took me very long, but I gained the support of my old vendors slowly and surely, and sometimes my colleagues are unable to get vendors to help, but if I request, everyone will offer help immediately.

I left that job, but maintained all my vendors contacts. But unfortunately, it isnt everytime that I can recommend my familiar contacts. Sometimes there's already a specific person that my company goes to, and I have to liaise with this person.

But the bad thing is, most of them dont give a damn to me.

Here I am, trying to get my things done quickly, but I dont get the kind of support I need.

I am so upset. Let me go cry.