Blur look

One of my newest additions to my daily reads - audrey's blog - is highly engaging.

She writes witty anecdotes of her life, and observations of people she knows.

Of which, I was groaning inwardly when I read this. I am exactly the kind of person she hate, because I tend to frown and maintain a blur expression when I am, yah, blurred.

Senior loves to pick on this exact expression of mine. He stretches out his hand in a mock attempt to knock my head, lamenting "Oooi, dont look so blur leh!"

But I also realise, I never have this problem previously. Apparently, I never have the habit of showing this blur look. I guess it is because looking confused emphasize the fact that I am really really lost in the woods, and I do not want anyone to realize that.

It is always important for me to be in control. Hence even when I am utterly confused, I will keep a straight face and nod knowingly, as though I am an expert on whatever that was discussed.

Then how come I am willingly to show my weakness in front of senior / boss? I guess that is because I trust them enough to let down my guard.

Yet, I know I shouldnt wor.

害人之心不可有，防人之心不可无。

I need to remember to protect myself.