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 Introspective and intense, you tend to be a deep thinker. You are quiet and spiritual - and you have a unique perspective on life. Your soul reflects: Lightness, luck and an open heart Your gemstone: Ruby Your flower: Larkspur Your colors: Green and red |
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
占有欲) 怎么那么强
我有一个很奇怪的毛病，就是很喜欢把别人占为己有。
听起来很不可思议是吧？可是我所谓的占为己有，是精神上的，你想到哪里去了？
我莫名其妙的觉得，我的朋友仅仅属于我，所以每当我发现我的朋友和其他人变得友好，我就很不舒服。
我没事干嘛对朋友的占有欲那么强？
我也不晓得。
是不是因为我朋友本来就不多，所以对仅有的那几个咬着不放。还是我这个人就是怪怪的？
听起来很不可思议是吧？可是我所谓的占为己有，是精神上的，你想到哪里去了？
我莫名其妙的觉得，我的朋友仅仅属于我，所以每当我发现我的朋友和其他人变得友好，我就很不舒服。
我没事干嘛对朋友的占有欲那么强？
我也不晓得。
是不是因为我朋友本来就不多，所以对仅有的那几个咬着不放。还是我这个人就是怪怪的？
Monday, October 29, 2007
Red hair
| Your Hair Should Be Red |
 Passionate, fiery, and sassy. You're a total smart aleck who's got the biggest personality around. |
My hairstylist once recommended the same thing! But for now, it is still black hair for the lazy me. I cant keep up with patching the roots.
Childish senior manager
This entry should originally appear on 26th Oct 2007.
All these while, the only way of working that I know of, is to work hard. Certain people would say that I work too hard, and work too foolishly hard.
While it may not be beneficial to me, but I am sure working hard is never bad for a company.
Unfortunately, my senior manager is a person whom strike off one's credit as though it doesnt matter. We have a glass whiteboard on the wall in front of the design team, and on it, each designer's assigned account is written on it as a way to keep track of everyone's job responsibilities.
That day, after a long meeting, I reached back in the office worn out and relieved that I'd move yet another step ahead in the project. But at that very point, he erased my name off the list, together with all the projects that I was handling.
That was a very small action, but I was totally irritated. It was irrational, yet I couldnt help but to feel upset.
What was it that I had done to deserve that? I could have just begin to slack on my the moment I resigned, and just wait for days to pass. I worked hard for the company in hope that I can tie up as many loose ends as possible, and what happen in the end?
Sigh. Forget it. I had already left the company, and I wont need to face this person anymore. Actually my big boss told me that if I want to return to the company after my freelance job, I am very welcomed. He promised he will deal with the senior manager problem and I wont suffer like how I used to.
How come the boss is such a nice person when the senior manager sucks like mad? No, I cant keep dwelling on it. Let's move on.
All these while, the only way of working that I know of, is to work hard. Certain people would say that I work too hard, and work too foolishly hard.
While it may not be beneficial to me, but I am sure working hard is never bad for a company.
Unfortunately, my senior manager is a person whom strike off one's credit as though it doesnt matter. We have a glass whiteboard on the wall in front of the design team, and on it, each designer's assigned account is written on it as a way to keep track of everyone's job responsibilities.
That day, after a long meeting, I reached back in the office worn out and relieved that I'd move yet another step ahead in the project. But at that very point, he erased my name off the list, together with all the projects that I was handling.
That was a very small action, but I was totally irritated. It was irrational, yet I couldnt help but to feel upset.
What was it that I had done to deserve that? I could have just begin to slack on my the moment I resigned, and just wait for days to pass. I worked hard for the company in hope that I can tie up as many loose ends as possible, and what happen in the end?
Sigh. Forget it. I had already left the company, and I wont need to face this person anymore. Actually my big boss told me that if I want to return to the company after my freelance job, I am very welcomed. He promised he will deal with the senior manager problem and I wont suffer like how I used to.
How come the boss is such a nice person when the senior manager sucks like mad? No, I cant keep dwelling on it. Let's move on.
SibeiEng : Sony Bravia
Maybe it's an occupational hazard, I had always been in love with colours.
I love most colours on it's own, and for those that I dont favour, I love them as teamed with other colours to achieve various possibilities.
That is why I like sony bravia.
It is a flash site, hence I cant give you lazy bugs the direct links to the pretty commercials. But from this link, go to "Colourwall" and rollover the various tiles to reveal the locations where they embed the commercials.
(The Bouncy Ball commercial is at the fire hydrant tile, and the Paint commercial is at swing tile.)
Aiyah, for the really lazy ppl who dont mind lousy resolution, watch the attached clips then find the original from the sony bravia website. The effects is incomparable.
I love most colours on it's own, and for those that I dont favour, I love them as teamed with other colours to achieve various possibilities.
That is why I like sony bravia.
It is a flash site, hence I cant give you lazy bugs the direct links to the pretty commercials. But from this link, go to "Colourwall" and rollover the various tiles to reveal the locations where they embed the commercials.
(The Bouncy Ball commercial is at the fire hydrant tile, and the Paint commercial is at swing tile.)
Aiyah, for the really lazy ppl who dont mind lousy resolution, watch the attached clips then find the original from the sony bravia website. The effects is incomparable.
A move in career
This entry should originally appear on 26th Oct 2007.
It took me 3 months before I actually gave up and decided that I need to leave the job, and after which, I took another month or so to go through job ads every saturday until I found a perfect job.
I sent that particular resume on a saturday, and my new boss emailed me late sunday night. Although I am constantly online, I didnt get to see that email the same night. The next day, he called me and we had a quick talk over the phone, then we arranged for an interview the same friday.
The interview was informal, and we chatted without restriction, just like how we will speak with friends. I laughed unresevedly at his jokes, and smiled as he fished out his children's pictures and smiled adoringly.
He told me about this company that he founded. He warned that it is a small setup and I will be expecting a lot of work when I start work. Within the same meeting, he decided that he will hire me and I was astonished.
My immediate reaction was that he must be joking, and I do not have the calibre to join such a promising company, abeit small.
He assured me that he have the confidence in me, and with proper guidance, I will definitely make it. He told me that the ideal candidate for the job is someone who would work hard with his company, and want to see the company grow as much as he do. It is not so much as the skills, but the willingness.
I am eager to be able to work with him, and at the same time, I am really worried about how I can cope in this new job.
But I am sure I can survive! By putting in the same amount of effort as I did in this current job, I am sure I will manage. Aja aja hwai'ting!!
It took me 3 months before I actually gave up and decided that I need to leave the job, and after which, I took another month or so to go through job ads every saturday until I found a perfect job.
I sent that particular resume on a saturday, and my new boss emailed me late sunday night. Although I am constantly online, I didnt get to see that email the same night. The next day, he called me and we had a quick talk over the phone, then we arranged for an interview the same friday.
The interview was informal, and we chatted without restriction, just like how we will speak with friends. I laughed unresevedly at his jokes, and smiled as he fished out his children's pictures and smiled adoringly.
He told me about this company that he founded. He warned that it is a small setup and I will be expecting a lot of work when I start work. Within the same meeting, he decided that he will hire me and I was astonished.
My immediate reaction was that he must be joking, and I do not have the calibre to join such a promising company, abeit small.
He assured me that he have the confidence in me, and with proper guidance, I will definitely make it. He told me that the ideal candidate for the job is someone who would work hard with his company, and want to see the company grow as much as he do. It is not so much as the skills, but the willingness.
I am eager to be able to work with him, and at the same time, I am really worried about how I can cope in this new job.
But I am sure I can survive! By putting in the same amount of effort as I did in this current job, I am sure I will manage. Aja aja hwai'ting!!
A friendly boss
This entry should originally appear on 26 Oct 2007.
At around 4pm, my manager asked me whether I am free to go for dinner. The big boss wants to throw a mini-party for me, and at the same time it will be a gathering for the rest of them.
I had things to pack, and emails to send (down to the last day and last hour) and I reached 1 hr later than the rest of them did. He quickly got to know I cant consume beef and proceed to grab some chicken for me. As he returned, I was on the line with a client and I gestured a sorry to big boss and also to leave the food on the table.
He shook his head and stood until I finished my call.
When I ended the call, I apologised to him and told him he could have just leave the food on the table! He lamented that it is hard to find an employee who would be doing work down to the last day and beyond the working hours some more. Another person would have just dumped the job and feign ignorance already.
I smiled and proceed to bury myself beneath the parquet planks.
Really, that is nothing! I told him that; this is all part of my job, and these are my clients, so I have the responsibility towards them even if no one else have.
Big boss then began to persuade me to stay, something he hadnt do since the day I resigned. He had spoke to me through my manager and now after I had left, he initiated a compromise with me.
I were to stay, and he will ensure I wont receive unfair treatment again.
He keep telling me that he wants to see me back at the office on monday, and if he dont, he will give me a call.
I told him I wont be able to answer his call because I am doing freelance then, and his eyes lit up, and counter offered me. He said I could take one month unpaid leave off work, and then come back to office and wait for bonus.
Everyone around the table began to exclaim that big boss is so generous and I shouldnt be rejecting him. Big boss even offer to transfer me to another of his company to work if I really feel I cant work with certain ppl in this company.
Well, I didnt want to slap myself later, so I told him no matter what happen, I will need to finish my next two weeks of freelance before I will consider any of his offer. He was satisfied with my answer, and at the same time reminded he will call me on monday to talk further with me.
He is quite a nice boss, but the crap I am receiving is not from him, so no matter how much he promise me, it will not solve any immediate problems.
But let's worry about this after 2 wks. =) No point worrying now.
At around 4pm, my manager asked me whether I am free to go for dinner. The big boss wants to throw a mini-party for me, and at the same time it will be a gathering for the rest of them.
I had things to pack, and emails to send (down to the last day and last hour) and I reached 1 hr later than the rest of them did. He quickly got to know I cant consume beef and proceed to grab some chicken for me. As he returned, I was on the line with a client and I gestured a sorry to big boss and also to leave the food on the table.
He shook his head and stood until I finished my call.
When I ended the call, I apologised to him and told him he could have just leave the food on the table! He lamented that it is hard to find an employee who would be doing work down to the last day and beyond the working hours some more. Another person would have just dumped the job and feign ignorance already.
I smiled and proceed to bury myself beneath the parquet planks.
Really, that is nothing! I told him that; this is all part of my job, and these are my clients, so I have the responsibility towards them even if no one else have.
Big boss then began to persuade me to stay, something he hadnt do since the day I resigned. He had spoke to me through my manager and now after I had left, he initiated a compromise with me.
I were to stay, and he will ensure I wont receive unfair treatment again.
He keep telling me that he wants to see me back at the office on monday, and if he dont, he will give me a call.
I told him I wont be able to answer his call because I am doing freelance then, and his eyes lit up, and counter offered me. He said I could take one month unpaid leave off work, and then come back to office and wait for bonus.
Everyone around the table began to exclaim that big boss is so generous and I shouldnt be rejecting him. Big boss even offer to transfer me to another of his company to work if I really feel I cant work with certain ppl in this company.
Well, I didnt want to slap myself later, so I told him no matter what happen, I will need to finish my next two weeks of freelance before I will consider any of his offer. He was satisfied with my answer, and at the same time reminded he will call me on monday to talk further with me.
He is quite a nice boss, but the crap I am receiving is not from him, so no matter how much he promise me, it will not solve any immediate problems.
But let's worry about this after 2 wks. =) No point worrying now.
That bit of recognition
This entry should originally appear on 26 Oct 2007.
Today is my last day of work at this company.
Actually, my last day should be on the past tuesday, but because of project083, I decided to stay a few more days so that I can finish up more work for the client.
A bit of background on proj083.. This is an account that I didnt think I will get signed, because of many factors.
1) During the first meeting, I got into a major argument with my sales team in front of the client.
2) There are 5 persons in the committee that the client set up, and it is already not easy to win one client over, lest to say 5.
3) One of my competitors were the clients' existing contractor, and my clients were not dissatisfied with them at all.
4) After the first round of price war, we were 50% more expensive than our competitors.
But of course, I carry out certain moves to increase my chance to bag the account, but I didnt think my pros out weighed the cons that much.
The clients were comfortable with us, and although I can see that the director is eager to see my sales team than myself, the consolation was that he recognised that I was the one doing all the work, and was never stingy with his compliments.
That should be one of the push factor that for me to keep going that extra tens of miles for them.
Although talk is cheap, everyone deserves the basic courtesy nod when they had put in good effort in their work. How difficult is it to pay someone flattery that they deserve？ I am not shy to admit that I feel more motivated with suitable words of praise.
If I were to leave on tuesday, I would be missing out in a lot of the final details of the account and at the same time leave a lot of loose ends for my manager to tie. That is something that I dont want to see happening because I had always pride myself to be a responsible person and I have no wish to crap on my name during my last days in this job.
Today, I still had meetings to attend with clients of proj083. I kept mostly silent during the whole meeting, only nodding to show my support when my manager talked to the clients. At this junction, I cannot be speaking and making anymore promises to the clients that I am not sure if my manager would be happy to accommodate.
At the end of the long meeting, my manager announced of my leaving, and my clients, though clearly surprised, shook my hand and wished me best of luck. They thanked me for bringing the project this far ahead with them, and that since I had already completed " 99.9%", the rest of the minor details will be easily solved.
I smiled, with a warm feeling in my heart. They had been so kind to me all this while and have not even the tiniest bit of reprimand for leaving the project in lurch.
From the bottom of my heart..
THANK YOU.
Today is my last day of work at this company.
Actually, my last day should be on the past tuesday, but because of project083, I decided to stay a few more days so that I can finish up more work for the client.
A bit of background on proj083.. This is an account that I didnt think I will get signed, because of many factors.
1) During the first meeting, I got into a major argument with my sales team in front of the client.
2) There are 5 persons in the committee that the client set up, and it is already not easy to win one client over, lest to say 5.
3) One of my competitors were the clients' existing contractor, and my clients were not dissatisfied with them at all.
4) After the first round of price war, we were 50% more expensive than our competitors.
But of course, I carry out certain moves to increase my chance to bag the account, but I didnt think my pros out weighed the cons that much.
The clients were comfortable with us, and although I can see that the director is eager to see my sales team than myself, the consolation was that he recognised that I was the one doing all the work, and was never stingy with his compliments.
That should be one of the push factor that for me to keep going that extra tens of miles for them.
Although talk is cheap, everyone deserves the basic courtesy nod when they had put in good effort in their work. How difficult is it to pay someone flattery that they deserve？ I am not shy to admit that I feel more motivated with suitable words of praise.
If I were to leave on tuesday, I would be missing out in a lot of the final details of the account and at the same time leave a lot of loose ends for my manager to tie. That is something that I dont want to see happening because I had always pride myself to be a responsible person and I have no wish to crap on my name during my last days in this job.
Today, I still had meetings to attend with clients of proj083. I kept mostly silent during the whole meeting, only nodding to show my support when my manager talked to the clients. At this junction, I cannot be speaking and making anymore promises to the clients that I am not sure if my manager would be happy to accommodate.
At the end of the long meeting, my manager announced of my leaving, and my clients, though clearly surprised, shook my hand and wished me best of luck. They thanked me for bringing the project this far ahead with them, and that since I had already completed " 99.9%", the rest of the minor details will be easily solved.
I smiled, with a warm feeling in my heart. They had been so kind to me all this while and have not even the tiniest bit of reprimand for leaving the project in lurch.
From the bottom of my heart..
THANK YOU.
Daylight
That night, I was out with vin, yong and ting at 12am at west coast macdonald. After which we adjourned to vin's office for their round of maplestory addiction.
They played for 7 hours straight, and I fell asleep some time during the lapse of time. When I woke up, it was around 6.40am and I was admiring the blueness of the sky, something that I hadbnt seen for years! (6.40am is simply not an hour that I am seen awake. Haha.)
I must bring my digital camera out next time lah! My hp is only good enough to take pics to use is msn display pics.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Comments are now open
As of today onwards, comments will be open.
But they will probably not be displayed, but as a medium for you to reach me.
Thanks for reading. =)
But they will probably not be displayed, but as a medium for you to reach me.
Thanks for reading. =)
拍马屁) 才是爬得又快又高的方法
和一群朋友玩通宵，已经不是什么特别的事了。以前玩得再疯，通常也是会凌晨 2，3 点到家，然后倒头大睡。
现在不一样了。玩到天亮，然后回到家想睡又因为天色太蓝而不舍得。
虽然这样真的很累很累，但是心灵是满足的。从前的我，非常坚持不在礼拜天出门，因为觉得一整个星期的工作量那么大，如果不在星期天好好休息，便无法承受接下来一个星期的煎熬。尽可能不再周日的夜晚出门，因为隔天需要充沛的精神来应付难搞得上司和挑剔的顾客。
我只允许自己在礼拜五和礼拜六出门，那样就不会弄累自己，才能在平时克服工作上的疑难杂症。
后来发现，平时出去玩，然后隔天睡眼惺忪的去上班，有着一种莫名奇妙的幸福感。原来能和朋友一起共度的时间，并不是理所当然的。朋友不一定想要你陪，而再有心有意的朋友，始终有一天会因为你的长期缺席，不愿意再碰一鼻子灰。
少了你，他可能不会损失什么。 可是你少了他，你的人生会不会因此改变，是你不会知道的。
更何况，把生活绕着工作打转，有必要吗？
你死去的那一天，是朋友和家人会为你泣不成声，还是那恶势力且金钱主义挂帅的老板会为你哭？他可能会花上对他来说是九牛一毛的数额买一份鲜艳夺目的花圈送来奠堂，好赚取在常人眼里，好老板的封号。然后可能在办公室里举行一场法事，好让你这个疲劳成疾的员工不会找他算账。
我话或许言重了，可是大义你是能明白的。
我为什么突然之间，很象变得相当愤怒？最近看着上司轻描淡写的抹煞我的功劳和存在，而大事渲染两个在我眼里是在混水摸鱼的同事的所谓"功劳"。原来原来，打工的人，不需要工作能力强，而是需要不断的拍马屁。
本以为我还欠缺的就只是社交的习惯。
以为只要在我原有的工作能力上增添少许亲和力，就会无往不利。
慢慢发现，不仅仅如此！！！ 需要非常斯下脸皮的，卑微的奉承，才能赢得上司和客户的心。
可我真的无法苟同！
为什么工作不再需要能力，而需要很多背叛自己原则的行动？难道努力已经不值钱，有价值的是夸张的阿谀奉承？
谁能告诉我？
现在不一样了。玩到天亮，然后回到家想睡又因为天色太蓝而不舍得。
虽然这样真的很累很累，但是心灵是满足的。从前的我，非常坚持不在礼拜天出门，因为觉得一整个星期的工作量那么大，如果不在星期天好好休息，便无法承受接下来一个星期的煎熬。尽可能不再周日的夜晚出门，因为隔天需要充沛的精神来应付难搞得上司和挑剔的顾客。
我只允许自己在礼拜五和礼拜六出门，那样就不会弄累自己，才能在平时克服工作上的疑难杂症。
后来发现，平时出去玩，然后隔天睡眼惺忪的去上班，有着一种莫名奇妙的幸福感。原来能和朋友一起共度的时间，并不是理所当然的。朋友不一定想要你陪，而再有心有意的朋友，始终有一天会因为你的长期缺席，不愿意再碰一鼻子灰。
少了你，他可能不会损失什么。 可是你少了他，你的人生会不会因此改变，是你不会知道的。
更何况，把生活绕着工作打转，有必要吗？
你死去的那一天，是朋友和家人会为你泣不成声，还是那恶势力且金钱主义挂帅的老板会为你哭？他可能会花上对他来说是九牛一毛的数额买一份鲜艳夺目的花圈送来奠堂，好赚取在常人眼里，好老板的封号。然后可能在办公室里举行一场法事，好让你这个疲劳成疾的员工不会找他算账。
我话或许言重了，可是大义你是能明白的。
我为什么突然之间，很象变得相当愤怒？最近看着上司轻描淡写的抹煞我的功劳和存在，而大事渲染两个在我眼里是在混水摸鱼的同事的所谓"功劳"。原来原来，打工的人，不需要工作能力强，而是需要不断的拍马屁。
本以为我还欠缺的就只是社交的习惯。
以为只要在我原有的工作能力上增添少许亲和力，就会无往不利。
慢慢发现，不仅仅如此！！！ 需要非常斯下脸皮的，卑微的奉承，才能赢得上司和客户的心。
可我真的无法苟同！
为什么工作不再需要能力，而需要很多背叛自己原则的行动？难道努力已经不值钱，有价值的是夸张的阿谀奉承？
谁能告诉我？
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Accurate test
Recently I watched a taiwanese variety show that talks about horoscopes, tarots and etc. One of the tests was to gauge how come one doesnt have romance luck in the workplace.
I cant remember the whole test, but my choice showed that it is because I am too open-minded and disregardless of image that makes guys keep a wide breth.
Wuahahahahaha.
That is soooo accurate!!
I had always been closer to guys than to girls, mainly because guys are easier to get along with, generally. I am very comfortable with being the only girl in a gathering of all guys and I dont as much as blink when then began their dirty jokes routine.
Of course I will act coy in front of guys I am interested in, but usually I dont give a damn when I am with those I am not. I swear, I smoke, I guffaw when there's a joke. But I guess the world is small and guys can easily hear from another guy about how sam-bart I am.
But then again, I dont think I am changing myself to fit the criteria the society sets. If guys insist on not liking girls who swear, smoke or laugh loudly, then let me be a happily alone! I am splendidly fine.
I cant remember the whole test, but my choice showed that it is because I am too open-minded and disregardless of image that makes guys keep a wide breth.
Wuahahahahaha.
That is soooo accurate!!
I had always been closer to guys than to girls, mainly because guys are easier to get along with, generally. I am very comfortable with being the only girl in a gathering of all guys and I dont as much as blink when then began their dirty jokes routine.
Of course I will act coy in front of guys I am interested in, but usually I dont give a damn when I am with those I am not. I swear, I smoke, I guffaw when there's a joke. But I guess the world is small and guys can easily hear from another guy about how sam-bart I am.
But then again, I dont think I am changing myself to fit the criteria the society sets. If guys insist on not liking girls who swear, smoke or laugh loudly, then let me be a happily alone! I am splendidly fine.
I'm back
Laoda mentioned that I hadnt been blogging for a few days now. Hmm, my bad. I had been reaching home after 12am everyday for the whole week, and I am sooooooooo tired.
Hahaha. Exaggerating~~
Come November, (which is just 1 wk from now), I will be starting a new chapter in my work life. After then I will release the draft entries that I had been keeping away from public eye. At this moment I am not ready to speak too much regarding my work schedule, so I'll leave it to you to speculate.
=)
Hahaha. Exaggerating~~
Come November, (which is just 1 wk from now), I will be starting a new chapter in my work life. After then I will release the draft entries that I had been keeping away from public eye. At this moment I am not ready to speak too much regarding my work schedule, so I'll leave it to you to speculate.
=)
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Business as usual
Because a client wanted to meet me yesterday to go through project details.
Being a saturday, I neednt go to work actually, but since my client requested, I obliged.
Since I already returned, I decided that I will hang around to do more work so that I can have less to worry next week. At around 7.30, vin and siong called me to ask where was I and upon hearing that I was still in office, asked me to give myself a break and to go for dinner.
They came to pick me up and we went for dinner at east coast, then adjourned to changi airport for coffee. We randomly chatted of various topics and discussed work.
Actually I am closer to them than I am to many people in my company, that is why I keep telling them, should there's one day that I need to leave this company, my relationship with them will remain the same.
In the first place, we are from two separate companies but we work closely together in projects. When we go out, I am always the only one from my company in that gang, and the rest of them are from the same company,
That is why that even if, one day, I leave my job, my relationship with them will not change a single bit.
Like I mentioned, my friendship with them would be business as usual. If anyone else would to want to give me a farewell meal I would gladly accept. But I wont accept that from them, because between us there's no farewell.
The movie sessions will go on, the karaoke sessions will go on, and the dinners will still continue.
Business as usual wor~.
Being a saturday, I neednt go to work actually, but since my client requested, I obliged.
Since I already returned, I decided that I will hang around to do more work so that I can have less to worry next week. At around 7.30, vin and siong called me to ask where was I and upon hearing that I was still in office, asked me to give myself a break and to go for dinner.
They came to pick me up and we went for dinner at east coast, then adjourned to changi airport for coffee. We randomly chatted of various topics and discussed work.
Actually I am closer to them than I am to many people in my company, that is why I keep telling them, should there's one day that I need to leave this company, my relationship with them will remain the same.
In the first place, we are from two separate companies but we work closely together in projects. When we go out, I am always the only one from my company in that gang, and the rest of them are from the same company,
That is why that even if, one day, I leave my job, my relationship with them will not change a single bit.
Like I mentioned, my friendship with them would be business as usual. If anyone else would to want to give me a farewell meal I would gladly accept. But I wont accept that from them, because between us there's no farewell.
The movie sessions will go on, the karaoke sessions will go on, and the dinners will still continue.
Business as usual wor~.
Monday, October 15, 2007
Take that leave! It's your emergency!
Almost 5 years ago, when I was a student in Temasek Poly studying design, my entire life was turned upside down, thanks to the difficult course.
If I didnt remember wrongly, I didnt take as many as a single MC in my 3 years there, and had never skipped lessons for a whole day (3/4 of a day was as much as I indulge). Life was hard then, and days pass by without making a sound. But as long as I can still attend lessons, walking or crawling, I will.
But as I approached working life, things are no longer the same.
I take my MC when I am unwell, and I take leave whenever I feel the need to.
Once upon a time, annual leave are for vacations and emergencies. If I were to take leave because I need a day off from work, that was deemed as whimsical and willful. My parents would shake their heads disapprovingly in unison, and demand I go to work.
But like I told a couple of friends recently, taking a day off to rest my engines is important. You may snort and think that you work as hard but you never observe the need to take off to rest. But one must understand that my jobscope is slightly different from most people, and all the mindwork eventually do take an obvious toil on me.
I have been dreaming about my work constantly, and they evolves into nightmares that I woke up in the middle of night from. There's an endless stream of responsibilities and conceptualising that I cant get away even if I am at home.
Still, a leave is still helpful, because that gives me a reason to feel good about myself. It is almost as though I am still in control of my life and I can leave when I want to. Yes, it is nothing but an illusion but, to a crazy mind, that is sufficient to make me happier.
If I want to make it easier for you to understand, I am going through an emergency state when I am feeling mind-constipated. There you go, it's a leave for a good reason! It's an emergency!
So friends, if you feel drained out at work, and need to take a break, dont feel bad.
Go ahead and enjoy your day off.
It's your emergency! =)
If I didnt remember wrongly, I didnt take as many as a single MC in my 3 years there, and had never skipped lessons for a whole day (3/4 of a day was as much as I indulge). Life was hard then, and days pass by without making a sound. But as long as I can still attend lessons, walking or crawling, I will.
But as I approached working life, things are no longer the same.
I take my MC when I am unwell, and I take leave whenever I feel the need to.
Once upon a time, annual leave are for vacations and emergencies. If I were to take leave because I need a day off from work, that was deemed as whimsical and willful. My parents would shake their heads disapprovingly in unison, and demand I go to work.
But like I told a couple of friends recently, taking a day off to rest my engines is important. You may snort and think that you work as hard but you never observe the need to take off to rest. But one must understand that my jobscope is slightly different from most people, and all the mindwork eventually do take an obvious toil on me.
I have been dreaming about my work constantly, and they evolves into nightmares that I woke up in the middle of night from. There's an endless stream of responsibilities and conceptualising that I cant get away even if I am at home.
Still, a leave is still helpful, because that gives me a reason to feel good about myself. It is almost as though I am still in control of my life and I can leave when I want to. Yes, it is nothing but an illusion but, to a crazy mind, that is sufficient to make me happier.
If I want to make it easier for you to understand, I am going through an emergency state when I am feeling mind-constipated. There you go, it's a leave for a good reason! It's an emergency!
So friends, if you feel drained out at work, and need to take a break, dont feel bad.
Go ahead and enjoy your day off.
It's your emergency! =)
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Empty seat
Empty seat when man-with-a-weak-bladder went to answer nature's call.
WHAHAHAHAHAHA.
And the photo quality is much better when the surroundings is bright. I havent been bringing out my camera these days, hence I have to make do with a lousy camera phone.
WHAHAHAHAHAHA.
And the photo quality is much better when the surroundings is bright. I havent been bringing out my camera these days, hence I have to make do with a lousy camera phone.
Hi laoda
Received a call from laoda today at around 2pm, asking if I want to go out to lah kopi in the evening. I am busy watching 'alone' on CR, but well, lah kopi with laoda is something I cannot turn down, cos surely I can do with more laughter.
=)
Honestly, I thought by meeting at around 4pm, we should be talking until around 7pm, and he should be off to another appointment (you have no idea how bloody busy he is).
But we crapped a full 6 hours, and parted at 10pm!
Feels good to be catching up with a friend whom I hadnt seen for around 4 months, especially when the last time we met, it was the at bottom of the overhead bridge outside national stadium.
The topics we covered today were too diversified to be listed here, but one of the things we mentioned was that he is now writing a blog. We exchanged blog addresses and hence I expect him to drop by anytime now.
*rolls out red carpet*
Hi Laoda!
Laoda, writing a blog is good for ridding emotional burdens. Scolding vulgarities on our own platform is sibei song one ok! =)
And sorry for the lack of standards in my blog entries.. 但是我写的中文篇章应该还不太差吧？
对了，无法在你的部落格留言，因为没有 livejournal 户口啦！隔空喊话吧。
=)
Honestly, I thought by meeting at around 4pm, we should be talking until around 7pm, and he should be off to another appointment (you have no idea how bloody busy he is).
But we crapped a full 6 hours, and parted at 10pm!
Feels good to be catching up with a friend whom I hadnt seen for around 4 months, especially when the last time we met, it was the at bottom of the overhead bridge outside national stadium.
The topics we covered today were too diversified to be listed here, but one of the things we mentioned was that he is now writing a blog. We exchanged blog addresses and hence I expect him to drop by anytime now.
*rolls out red carpet*
Hi Laoda!
Laoda, writing a blog is good for ridding emotional burdens. Scolding vulgarities on our own platform is sibei song one ok! =)
And sorry for the lack of standards in my blog entries.. 但是我写的中文篇章应该还不太差吧？
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
想享受）就得先耕耘
近来分别和几个朋友谈论着我的工作心情，很遗憾的，苦乐掺半的遭遇，印象深刻多一点的还是痛苦的部分。
我常常在想，总不可能是大家的问题吧，因为不可能刚巧我遇上的同事都有不妥。那一定是我本身出了错喽。
我再仔细的想，曾经我无法忍受的人，他们到底是哪方面惹火了我？这一个关键点，会不会是很微不足道的，而我却钻牛角尖？
我终于在想了足足一个晚上后，领悟了。
我原来最无法忍受的，还不是恶劣的态度。基本上我没有嫌弃别人态度的资格， 屏什么？
不耕耘，却想要收获。
不努力，却想能享受。
不付出，却想有回报。
我不认同前人种树，后人乘凉的道理。想得瓜，就乖乖的种瓜吧。想得果，就脚踏实地的种果吧。
我常常在想，总不可能是大家的问题吧，因为不可能刚巧我遇上的同事都有不妥。那一定是我本身出了错喽。
我再仔细的想，曾经我无法忍受的人，他们到底是哪方面惹火了我？这一个关键点，会不会是很微不足道的，而我却钻牛角尖？
我终于在想了足足一个晚上后，领悟了。
我原来最无法忍受的，还不是恶劣的态度。基本上我没有嫌弃别人态度的资格， 屏什么？
不耕耘，却想要收获。
不努力，却想能享受。
不付出，却想有回报。
我不认同前人种树，后人乘凉的道理。想得瓜，就乖乖的种瓜吧。想得果，就脚踏实地的种果吧。
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Photoshop skills
Sometimes I feel bad about ignoring my mother when she needs my help in photoshop. I try to help her, but because she dont have sufficient computer knowledge to begin with, it is not easy to begin her encounter with what I will call a difficult software.
Even if I am using the software everyday, I am still not perfect at it, hence I am safely say it is not simple. I am not talking about the usual paint bucket function and etc ok, it is the colour correction that requires much practice and much learning.
I keep telling her that she have to either, learn computer skills from scratch, or keep practicing the basics of photoshop, at least 10 images a day.
I learnt photoshop the hard way too, hence there is no excuse, really. Especially when she wants to learn things the simplest way and feels it is enough to write down each steps.
Unfortunately, for each colour correction, it might not necessarily mean the same routine works. Kept telling her there's no fast route to 'success' but plenty of trial and error but she keeps thinking there is and I am not teaching her.
Sigh. So irritating.
Even if I am using the software everyday, I am still not perfect at it, hence I am safely say it is not simple. I am not talking about the usual paint bucket function and etc ok, it is the colour correction that requires much practice and much learning.
I keep telling her that she have to either, learn computer skills from scratch, or keep practicing the basics of photoshop, at least 10 images a day.
I learnt photoshop the hard way too, hence there is no excuse, really. Especially when she wants to learn things the simplest way and feels it is enough to write down each steps.
Unfortunately, for each colour correction, it might not necessarily mean the same routine works. Kept telling her there's no fast route to 'success' but plenty of trial and error but she keeps thinking there is and I am not teaching her.
Sigh. So irritating.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
疑心病) 总有一天害死我
昨晚和老大谈了３个小时，畅快的谈话中，却发现自己越来越小人。
我们说到工作，对于他的苦尽甘来，我很雀跃。他对我的困境，表示同情。他劝我，人总是要社交，总是要讨好上司。即使不屑，也千万不能表现出来。
他苦口婆心，我却坐在电脑屏幕的这一遍，用以往怀疑人的态度，怀疑他下一句话是不是就要刺伤我了。
我是怎么了。他是我最好的朋友，但是我似乎对他不信任了。其实到头来，我最不信任的是自己，和老是爱开我玩笑的老天爷。
３个小时的对话，我战战兢兢，深怕会被一个我很在乎的人伤害。老大当然没有，是我小人罢了。
好怕让他知道，我质疑过他。
了解我的人，没有几个。朋友已经是少之又少，我真的不能再疑心病那么重。难道我想真的孤苦终身？
我们说到工作，对于他的苦尽甘来，我很雀跃。他对我的困境，表示同情。他劝我，人总是要社交，总是要讨好上司。即使不屑，也千万不能表现出来。
他苦口婆心，我却坐在电脑屏幕的这一遍，用以往怀疑人的态度，怀疑他下一句话是不是就要刺伤我了。
我是怎么了。他是我最好的朋友，但是我似乎对他不信任了。其实到头来，我最不信任的是自己，和老是爱开我玩笑的老天爷。
３个小时的对话，我战战兢兢，深怕会被一个我很在乎的人伤害。老大当然没有，是我小人罢了。
好怕让他知道，我质疑过他。
了解我的人，没有几个。朋友已经是少之又少，我真的不能再疑心病那么重。难道我想真的孤苦终身？
PR skills
I had a lengthy latenight msn conversation with laoda yesterday night, beginning from 11pm and ending at 2am.
He advised me, that it is not just working hard that matters in a job, but more importantly, it is the PR skills.
I always felt that I am a good PR when it comes to my clients, but I am definitely not so when it comes to my colleagues. I feel up to it to maintain a smile and friendly conversation for 2 or 3 hours, but if you need me to keep that up for the whole day, I really dont think I can do it.
He asked me to recall, that even in poly years, isnt it those guys who sticked closer to the demon lecturer who got the best grades? While the lecturer probably didnt give a biased grade, but we are quite sure that the lecturer gave them some tips and guidance over dinner, that we, who were struggling at the library, wasnt near enough to hear.
He reminded me that eventually, no matter how pathetic that sounded, all bosses like to be fawned upon.
Until I learn this critical skill, I am most likely to be stuck badly in this rut.
He advised me, that it is not just working hard that matters in a job, but more importantly, it is the PR skills.
I always felt that I am a good PR when it comes to my clients, but I am definitely not so when it comes to my colleagues. I feel up to it to maintain a smile and friendly conversation for 2 or 3 hours, but if you need me to keep that up for the whole day, I really dont think I can do it.
He asked me to recall, that even in poly years, isnt it those guys who sticked closer to the demon lecturer who got the best grades? While the lecturer probably didnt give a biased grade, but we are quite sure that the lecturer gave them some tips and guidance over dinner, that we, who were struggling at the library, wasnt near enough to hear.
He reminded me that eventually, no matter how pathetic that sounded, all bosses like to be fawned upon.
Until I learn this critical skill, I am most likely to be stuck badly in this rut.
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