Life's always unfair

My mother went for an operation last thursday and because it was considered as quite a major operation, we are expecting her to be immobilised for 2 weeks.

I planned her operation date in such a way that it would have less impact on our work. I know that sound so pragmatic, but if I can work out the schedule until it affects less people, isnt it the best of all worlds?

It was within my plans that my elder bro will take leave on thursday, the actual day of the operation, and myself on friday. During saturday and sunday, myself and my younger brother would be able to go down to the hospital to accompany her.

On monday, which is today, my elder bro is working night shifts, hence he would be able to fetch my mother from the hospital. Tomorrow is P/H, meaning I would be around again. My brother is having his off days on wed and thurs this week, meaning I've got that covered too.

My younger brother would buy food for her on friday afternoon, and then leave her alone at home. Saturday and sunday would come by again, and on the following monday, my brother will be on afternoon shift.


My planning was quite flawless, no? Only that I didnt count on my two brothers and father taking the plan THAT literally.

When I say I can be at the hospital, I do not mean the rest of them can stay at home and sleep!

But that was what happened during the past few days. I made my way down to the hospital all 4 days, while my elder brother, the favourite child, took the liberty to bring her to the hospital on the first day, and once she was in the operating theatre, immediately went home to sleep.

The bad thing here is that I had always been a very petty person. I never like to be on the shorter end of things, and I hate how people always take it for granted that I would be there no matter how busy or tired I am.

But that happens all the time.

And to rub more salt on the wound, it is most irritable when I get crapped on, and no one cares. It is almost I am simply there so that they can shit on me.

It's ok that my brothers dont visit her at the hospital, but I shall be damned if I am late (which I always am). I was at the hospital for a total of more than 20 hours, while my elder brother got away with 2 hours.

I know I sound like a petty and whiney little pain in the ass, but it is not like it is the first time something similar had happened.

Take for example that time when she had to go for a follow up check up. She immediately decided to ask me despite me being very busy at work. On the other hand, my brother has no responsibilites at work, but just need to carry out duties. Why couldnt she ask him?

But fine, I shall go. But when the doctor asked for yet another follow up appointment, she decided to choose a date where my brother neednt work. When the doctor explained she have limited slots (because the operation was scheduled at no more than 3 weeks away only), my mother kept insisting.

I told her if she must have him with her, then ask him to take leave!

She refused, and say something in the line that shouldnt 'waste' his leave.

Ok, she is the one who mentioned 'waste' first. If him taking leave is a 'waste', then it doesnt matter that my leave is 'wasted'? How can she be so biased?

Sigh.

It is not that I want to be so petty, and match each unfairness with a spite. But sometimes I really think there's no point being so kind, especially in situations where it doesnt pay off.

And this is MY relationship with my mother, I know exactly where it is heading.

Nowhere, that is.