En'en initiated a dinner gathering this fri, using a sum of money which is pretty much 来历不明. I usually would happily accept the invitation, especially when it is one that I neednt pay for.
I am such a cheapo that I am ashamed of myself sometimes, but the guilty feeling usually give way after a few minutes, for that is only how long my conscience can stretch.
But I've decided not to turn up this fri.
I had been experiencing an overwhelming amount of negative feelings these days, may it be anger, sadness, helplessness, I am unable to cope with any of them.
I dont think I want to meet them and then ended up using smoking breaks as an excuse to get away when I dont want to talk. Like how it had been for the past few times.
So I think it is surely a better idea to not join them, but go home and sleep.
I dont need friends, I just need to be left alone so that no one can witness my depressed self.
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
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