Happy early birthday to ec

EC's birthday is not until this sat but he had decided to throw a karaoke bday party tonight instead.

It is not exactly a good idea, considering we have work tomorrow. But when it comes to friend's bday, we cant just let it pass by silently!

The attendance rate was very high today, surprisingly, and we even went for supper after karaoke.

But I am not in a good mood. Not at all. I feel so miserable these days that I dont know what to do with myself. I am hardly in the mood to sing, even, and if anything was an indication of my bad mood, not being in the mood to sing is it.


Shoutout to en'en:

I dunno when will I eventually tell you this blog address, and I am not sure if you are even interested to read about my life. But in case you do, I really want to thank you, just for being there.

Sometimes it is hard to admit when I've faulted, and it is even harder to face myself when I know I've faulted but I am refusing to see it.

I hate myself most when I am fully aware of consequences, but I went ahead and do it anyway.

Maybe I am just being wilful, maybe I am just being lost, but there is really no point to make excuses for myself.

I hope I wont depend too much on the sticks from now on. But at the moment, it might be the only thing that can take my mind off uglier thoughts.