Anyone have job recommendations?

I desperately want to quit my job, but I dunno what I should do after this, hence I cant quit yet.

Sometimes I dunno what's wrong with me, because I dont seem to be able to handle any form of stress.

I dread needing to go to work tomorrow and I dread seeing lw when she gives me a look of despair when I fail to give her a design that she can accept, for the 20th time.

Mashi tells me that I should quit and look for another job since I am so unhappy. But I really do not want to do that. I prefer to quit only after I've found another job, and it must be a good one.

Sis and lao da advise that I bear with the stress and make the best of the job and find another one if I really think I can take it no longer.

Slt has given up hope in me. I think he is going to deny any association of me as his friend. I've started here for not even a month and I am already strongly contemplating to leave.

But what I really want to do now is to ignore everyone's opinion and think for myself.

I really feel like quiting and then slowly find a job that I like, meanwhile resting. But even I myself feel that it is too much a luxury to ask for. How long had I been working only, why am I demanding rest every other month?

I read in a blog recently, on a girl who quitted her job. It was her first job since she graduated from poly and she was there for 3 yrs.

After she quit, she told herself she would rest while looking for another job. Well, she HAD been working for 3 long years. But her insurrance agent reminded her, what is 3 years as compared to the kind of working life our parents went through?

My mother had been working in her current job for at least 20 years. But to most young people like myself, we cant even imagine whether we will be in the same job a year from now.

Probably because loyalty doesnt cost these days. It isnt worth a cent. Companies arent looking for people who can stay forever, but they are looking for people who can contribute.

That is my point too. If I find out that I am no longer contributing to a company, I would contemplate to leave. If I am no longer adding value to a company, nor the company to me, I ought to go.

I have no idea what I really want to do should I leave this job. If there is anything that I know very much that I want, it is to go back to study.

But I dont have that kind of money.

I am aware that life is never a smooth path for anyone, and everyone faces some sort of problems that others cannot comprehend.

I am not saying my problem is the worst of any, and I am fully aware that somewhere, someone might be having it harder than me.

But please, friends, please do not tell me to pull myself together and remind myself that there are worse situations out there, or imply that you are having it bad too but you are holding out.

I dont understand your situation and you dont mine. You can stay by my side and offer me your minimum support, but please dont presume your stress level is higher than mine. Stress level isnt comparable from job to job, nor people to people. It is only comparable from myself to myself.

There isnt another person who can fully understand my pain, no matter how much you want to roll your eyes and tell me to stop faking it. Please try to accept that I am different from you all. I have a weak mind. One that is so weak that it translate any stress to tears.

You tell me that I have to be strong, but are you aware you can only ask someone who is capable of strength to be strong?

I am not the person with strength.

I never was.

My style of dealing with setbacks had all along been escapism. I hate myself for that but that isnt something that I can overcome within weeks or months.

All I want now is to be alone.

People, leave me alone now. Dont try to contact me. Let me sink to the bottom of the sea and hopefully I'll remember the urgent desire for oxygen.

Or anything, for that matter.