Spilled again

Victor was asking me what do I mean when I say I spilled again.

Spilled means literally splashed from the bike to the ground. And that is what I did.

I am giving myself at least 2 weeks break before I will challenge the bike again. I am really not confident of myself and I hate to be holding up the instructor's time.

Like my brother say, I shouldnt have pass 1.01 in the first place when I am that buay zai. I +1 because I know this will happen: if I have to attend 1.02 when I dont have 1.01's standard, I am doomed to fail what.

So today after spilling a few times, with the last time scratching my blister, I took a break and told the instructor to fail me and let me come back another day.

I promise I will learn to ride a bicycle before I come back again. I know what I say before, that so what if I cant ride a bicycle, cos bicycle is controlled by legs and bike is controlled by engine.

And I am also bu shuang that alex tan felt I was lacking in sense of balancing that's why I cannot ride properly.

Ming ming is he never teach properly mah.. Maybe not his fault, he thinks too highly of his students le.

But today the instructors were so much nicer. Thanks Mr Lian, for being so kind with me. He told me that learning how to ride a bike is essential not only because of the skill to balance. It is more importantly because, if I dont have the balancing skill, I will have to juggle between learning how to ride a bike and how to ride a bicycle.

He told me a bicycle is easier to learn compared to a bike because bicycle are lighter, hence there is a less issue about being unable to control the machine when it falls to the side. He explained to me that I can spend lots and lots of money coming to bbdc to learn balancing, because instructors wont care, but it wont do me good.

I told him I will, and I still tried my best to learn the basics so that the next time when I come back for 1.02, I will be able to catch up. I feel I am getting better, because I am not as prone to be looking to the ground. Instead I learnt to look ahead and I can actually turn corners.

The instructors (many other instructors were there and they help me balance my bike when I spilled) were very encouraging and they felt I was getting better. I was getting more familiarised with the clutch and the throttle but I am really frustrated because I am obviously a far gap away from where I should be on the learning chart.

Eventually the instructor came to me again (as though he can read my mind), and repeated his views. He told me the reason why I cant ride is because I am really scared, and that because I cant ride a bicycle, it will be some time before I will dare to pick both legs off the ground and onto the bike.

It was really from there before I start to apprehend. It is really true. I should learn to ride a bicycle first if I want to ride a bike. It is nothing to do with balancing, but the fact that I should learn to fall and learn to be less afraid.

And also that I shouldnt look to run if I havent learn to crawl.