The best summary of my problem

Bearly 10 minutes after I spoke to andy, I am happy to inform, I am feeling so much better.

I am angry with myself for being so easily agitated. What is the point, really?

I sms-ed andy and tell him I wish he can give me a call at his convenience anytime over the next few days, because I need sound advice and I know he is the one can point out things to me.

I know for sure he is the one to talk to because he seems to have the power to knock thru the coconut of a head I have.

There was a period of time when I felt I couldnt face the world after my depression period (heck, you can still consider me to be IN the depression period at that time). I dont want to meet up with old friends because I dunno what they will think of me, I dont know how to explain to them how I failed to discipline myself properly.

But after the lenthy conversation with him and lao da, I eventually came to sense.

He came online to talk to me less than 10 mins after I sent that sms. Everyone knows I am constantly online. I didnt have to go into all the details, I just gave him a very rough outline of my problem and he got me to read his blog entry.

"How can a normal human being be so easily affected by others?
What I did..
1. Did nothing
2. Smile

With the action of this 2 simple task, I have the ablity to CONTROL her emotions..
Am I that powerful?
or is she that Weak?
No no ...
I don't allowed that in my life..
I will not let anyone that's irrelevant in my life to affect my emotion so easily.."

It is really true.

But I could only promise him I will try.

k : ok, i will remember..
k : next time when i am angry
k : i will just excuse myself
k : walk away and give myself 5 mins to think whether it is worth to make myself angry
k : who are they to me

a : yah...
a : i can tell u the answer without thinking for 5 mins..
a : Answer: Who are they ? Chey~


That is the best summary to my problem can?

There is no better answer. It is really just a 'chey~'. They are not worth my anger, my braincells, my wrinkles, my vulgarities even. Who are they? Chey~.

I told andy that is the best summary, he was a little surprised. He didnt expect me to catch it that fast.

Hmm, to the people who are reading this, I have no idea whether you understand why that is the summary. There is no insider joke here, it is just a very apt summary.

Ok, as long as I understand can already. =)

It is really the cleverest thing I've done in months, by talking to andy. I can only count on him to give me important directions.

Yet he humbly say "thanks me ??? No .. thanks yourself for seeing the light ok ?"

=)


Like I told him, when I first got to know him, he is "lao da's friend". Since that afternoon at mac, I realised he is more that that to me. He is MY friend.

I told him that, because I believe that when you care for a friend you must let him/her know. He smiled and said thanks.

I am really blessed.
How many people are blessed with good friends like andy?