Huh.

Actually I must outline the characters before I start this entry. But I am trying to be ambiguous at the same time. So to you who are reading, if you catch no ball... nevermind, it is not exactly of great importance.

Recently I am hanging out with this whole bunch of ppl. Among them there's this guy, whom I shall randomly name as Mr X, is a friend of one of them.

To cut the long story short, this whole group of ppl are trying to pair him and myself up.

We met thrice in group outings, and ever since after the first outing, they had been beginning to tease me non-stop. I am not sure if they are teasing him, but that is not too much of my concern. I am looking at the issue from my perspective only.

Like yesterday, slt asked me on msn. (Conversation based on my detoriating memory)


slt: so
me: what?
slt: what you think of mr x?
me: ok lor.
slt: he's a nice guy hor?
me: yah he is nice.
slt: and he is single too!
me: slt, you know, you are also single
me: why dont you and him get together then?


It's really... huh?

Mr X is a nice guy. Full stop.

I dont mind admitting if he likes me I am willing to give it a go. I've mentioned previously I believe, I've past the age to still believe in fairytale-like romance, or ouxiangju-like romance, or korean-sappy-love-stories. I dont even want to insist on finding the perfect match. To me, it doesnt really matter anymore.

I dont believe in love at first sight. I dont believe in loving head over heals, and fuck, I dont even believe 2 person can stay married. I am disillusionised. Everything is only good while it lasts, and no one can tell how long it lasts.

Hence, I am open to possibilities. There's more cruel things that I should say, but I shall leave it for mashi's ears.

I wonder they are teasing me because they think I like him? I dont even think I like him, so what is giving them that impression?

Sometimes, on the other hand, I think none of us are really contemplating the possibility of me and him really being together. It honestly feels too much like an instance of "There's no conversation topic in our outing, let's randomly point at two persons and let this 'budding romance' be the conversation topic from now on."

It feels like it. I feel they are just too bored with the lapse of silence.

So I should just do them the honour. Let them tease if they want to. So long as they are having fun. =)



Shoutout to en'en: You cant see this I know, but I hope you are not too bothered about what I am feeling abt jes. Whatever the feelings is, I know better than to splurt it out. I am getting out of her way, ignoring her she say things that are not nice upon my ears. I hope things will turn for a better from now.