I am positively angered

Adl wanted to speak to me since yesterday. She told me she as soon as I finished with ProjFRD (a project that belongs to vnc who passed it to jes who passed it to me) she wants to have a meeting with me.

I dont give a damn, I told her "Sure, as soon as my time is freed up."

Which is one of the lies I have been telling her these days. I am damn fed up with her (as she is with me) and I didnt even want to bother to talk to her nicely.

I continue to stand by my view that to work together, two persons need not necessarily to be on good terms. Vnc used to try to get me to 和睦相处 with adl, but like I already told him, I can work with her professionally, but I do not want to force myself to be on good terms with her.

What is wrong with being "colleague"-ly friendly. I think it is healthy in that way. To me, a job is a job. I dont go to work to find friends. If I did, I am lucky, if I dont, it is just usual.

I dont like to work with friends, I prefer to be working with people that I am not on good terms with so that I can air my thoughts freely. Without the worries that a relationship might be stained, I can communicate frankly and matter-of-factly.

Yesterday, I had to attend a meeting for ProjFRD, I reached back at office only at 1. Adl told me she needs me to draw 2 AutoCAD dwgs and she wants it by 2pm!!!

I asked her "You mean tomorrow's 2pm right?"

I know it is a rhetorical question, but I cant resist taking a jab at her.

She immediately said she is already trying to buy time.

I have no fucking idea how many times I've heard this phrase "buy time" over the past 3 mths. For as far as my memory can stretched, there is not one time when we managed to finish a project on the meeting time first agreed on.

Let's say a meeting with a client is arranged at 12pm. Usually by 11.45pm adl will call the client to request to delay the meeting to 2pm instead.

Excuse me, it is never my fault ok! As far as I understand, given another person, they will take approx 2 hrs or so to draw one AutoCAD drawing, but I am drawing at the speed of 1piece/hr.

Label me arrogant, I dont care, but I am fast in my work and I know it. So does adl. Hence she will give unreasonable deadlines to me, like draw 4 dwgs in 4 hours. Not even a little more time to let me breathe easier. I am ok with such arrangement, for I like to work efficiently anyway.

But recently, her deadlines are getting increasingly impossible to meet. She would give dwgs/quotations, of around 10 hours of work, at fri 5pm, and wants it on monday morning 11am.

That is only 3 working hours, but she doesnt care. She expects work to be still finished, so what can I do? I can only OT!

Back to yesterday, I reached office at 1 and she wanted the 2 dwgs at 2pm. I told her it is not possible to be finished, and she told me to try. And 1pm-2pm is my lunch also, BY THE WAY!

I told her ok then, and I went back to my seat. I eventually gave her the dwgs at around 2.30pm.


Fast forward to today, adl told me she wants us to have the meeting at 3pm. I told her ok.

At the meeting, (much was said but to properly document the whole meeting I need ANOTHER blog entry!) she said she wants to recount my weakness.

Basically she feels I have an attitude problem.

Now. What's new?

She said I should learn to take my emotions in rein and avoid hanging out too much with the 'weeds'. I have no idea who are the 'weeds' she mentioned, but in her world, everyone else are insignificant. There is only she, her and herself in her planet anyway.

So I am vaguely catergorising everyone else as 'weeds'.

She mentioned that I should not be showing her my attitude problem, then proceed to say she is very angry yesterday.

"With?" I nochanantly asked.

"With you!" She have the cheek to make it sounded like she is all correct and I am all wrong.

"Why are you angry with me?" I shrugged and inquired.

And she said she is angry because I knew the dwgs were urgently required yesterday but I had no sense of urgency. She also said that all on top of that, I was still taking time to talk to others while I should be doing the dwgs asap.

I sighed and shook my head disgustedly (with her), and recounted that:

1. If I had no sense of urgency, would I had been able to finish the drawing with 1.5hrs?
2. I wasnt talking to the rest of the people, and they are talking because it was the lunch hour. I had been drawing the whole while at my seat, only that I was also listening to the conversation at the same time.
3. Even when I joined in with the laughter upon one of the jokes, my hand never leave the mouse (nor did my glance leave the monitor).

She is obviously taken aback when I had ready answers for her. Nope, I wasnt loud/rude. I just defended myself with my reasons. I didnt even have to stop to think for a strong reason because I know I wasnt in the wrong AT ALL.

She was the one who mistook that I didnt put in my effort. Mistook is the word. I had been working intensively all along, so there was not even a single chance when she could have gunned me down.

I believed she is shocked to hear me speaking of how I feel the way she worked is unfair. I bet no one even speak to her that way before, but who cares about how others handle her? I just want to make my anger known.

I told her I do not care how others are taking very long to do AutoCAD dwgs, but I am drawing at such a fast speed mainly because I concentrated as much as I can while I am doing my work, and whatever speed that I've been working at is ALREADY my limit.

Hence, to ask me to produce 2 dwgs in 1 hour is simply unfair. And to getting me to do drawings at 6pm (on 15th), for 6 pieces, and wanting them by the next morning 9am (on 16th) is very unfair!

She digressed and said no matter how I felt, I shouldnt have given her attitude problem the next day (on 16th). The way she phase her words irks me to no returns. She was sooooo assuming and self-important, and she is again trying to boss me around.

I asked her whether she had any idea I worked until 12.30am that night, reached home at around 1.00am, bathe and did my necessary chores and went to bed around 2.30. I had to wake up the next morning at 6 am. With 3.5 hours of sleep, how is she expecting me to face the world cheerfully?!!?!?

She immediately turned meek and acted concerned, saying she knows I am very tired, and in future if I am so tired I should tell her and she would give me a couple of hours off to go home to sleep.

She think what? I look stupid to her issit? 笨蛋-look issit? If the big boss happen to ask her where did I go she sure backstab me to death one what. How would I put myself in such a precarious position?

Siao one. She thinks everyone is as brainless as she is?