I cannot comprehend my emotions

I have no idea why am I so concerned with the fact that vnc treats jes better. Or micheal treats jes better, or whoever whoever whoever treats jes better. I can go on forever in this list.

I like jes a lot, I am not secretly stabbing her effigy in the privacy of my bedroom, I am only sick of why people always like my friends better.

Whatever you say in your defence about you treating both of us equally good will not appease me in the least, dont waste your time.

Of course you will say I think too much, of course you will feel I am silly, but I am guessing no one else understands the frustration of being less-liked.

I am still fortunate in that sense that I am still quite well-recieved by friends, colleagues, whoever, but my grievance here is that why is it that people always like my friends better lah!

My intelligence tells me that it is because of my flawed character brings out the goodness in my friends!

Tamade!

I dowan!!

I dowan to improve others at my expense!

Guess my friends should be feeling really pleased. It isnt everyday that they can find someone who can compliments them in whatever they can do.