Lacking in sleep

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\不停哼着/
我才发现我比想象中爱你，只是一时不小心错过了你。
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I am seriously lacking in sleep these days. *Yawn*

I ought to go to sleep, but still, there seems to be blogs to read, interesting websites to surf and games to play. I ot three days in a row and today I told myself I must "OTD", or 'on the dot', courtesy of jordan, who coined this shortform.

But that was the same thing I said for the last three days, but I still end up working till around 8 everyday. I hope it is not just because I am new at this job hence I dont mind doing ot. I remember when I first started at my last job I ot-ed at least 10 working nights (out of 22 working days).

Then 3 months later, I dread ot like mad and refused to do ot unless absolutely necessary.

These few days while I am doing ot I was doing what I would loosely catagorise as sai-gang. Mostly they are drawings that vnc can easily do himself but he is just giving me things to do for the sake of giving.

Vnc is getting too comfortable with my existence in the team already I feel. It may not be a bad thing, it may not be a good thing either.

The mood is cheerful, and jsyn is enjoying her role as an audience while I exchanged sarcasm with vnc. Mchl engross himself in his work, while turning around occassionally to catch the show.

Well, the mood is this happy while I am sitting here. When I have to move over to sit with adl, I think I cant maintain this friendliness anymore. As a matter of fact, I might not even be able to handle staying in the job.

I dowan to be such a whiner. Really no. Even before one of you swing out your hand and want to slap me, I already am thinking of ways to kick myself in the stomach.

Sometimes I cannot understand why am I so easily defeated. People are swimming in stress, not just me, so why issit that I cannot take it?

"No excuses entertained!" I keep telling myself. "拜托, 就不要再任性了可以吗?" I keep reminding myself.

Grow up bah.


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Was saying, vnc is getting too comfortable with my existence already. I dunno, it is definately fun and I dont deny I enjoy the attention from the rest of the people as they watch our swords and daggers flying at each other.

Attention biatch.

I am always watching out for his mood for he can be temperamental. Once I realised he is in a mood for a joke I will sneak in some funny comments and make him laugh.

I am a bitch I know, but sometimes I wonder how his wife stands him? She looks like the serious sort while he is really a child at heart despite his age, he's 32.

And I keep stirring him precisely because I know I can get some reactions. There are some people who wont respond no matter how you larh and larh. Some give you some acknowledgement for the time you wasted trying to larh him into life. Some retort too violently as though as they cant take the smallest joke.

Vnc is a gem in this sense. I can predict his response as I larh-ed and then I can force him to follow my joke. Whahaha. He is so predictable and so easy to lead that sometimes I feel bad about manipulating him purely for my entertainment.

Arrh, I feel a tad bad now, thinking back at the past one mth that I had been at this job. I seemed to be a little overboard when it comes to him. I think the rest of the people are awestruck by our 相处模式. Barely one month in this job and I am beginning to 太岁爷头上动土.

Then again, he should be apologetic to me too. He relentlessly tekan me too. Always ask me to do those sai-gang. I kio sai one meh. Why always tekan me.

Think I should began to adopt jsyn's method. Jsyn would just laugh at us but she dont participate in our verbal fight. In return, vnc is wonderously nice to jsyn. Always so 客气 and 和蔼.

Hmmph.

And... As reference to the topic, I am really sleepy BY NOW. It's 12.30am now, TGIF tmr.