Haiz

I'm sad.

1. I cant take another tuition grant for my studies, meaning I have to pay $42,000 to study my diploma.

2. I dont have tt kind of money.

3. I'm going to be out of job soon.

4. I dont know how many more years I need to work until I can embark on my studies again. 28? 35? Let me die la.

5. I've spent a lot of money and I am still happily justifying my buys. I'm a bitch.


As a sidetrack, the only good thing that happen to me is that a supervisor who sits in front of me asked me do I want to go to the customer service hotline department. Seems like he is quite ok with recommending me.

But the fucked part, I dowan to. I may not be able to find a job, but I cannot take a job as a customer service hotline officer. My patience wears thin too quickly and easily, and I dowan to diminish any good impression my colleagues had of me.

I quickly evolved into a demon when I am just slightly mad, and I am the picture defination for the phrase 'hell hath no fury like a woman scorned' in the dictionary.

So your guess is as good as mine, I shouldnt be able to make it as a good customer service hotline officer. But still, I am very touched that kenny asked leh. It is like how lao ban asked me as a quick interview before a more actual interview for this current contract job.

I feel remembered.

God knows why I felt such an extreme lack of that in my life that I want to weep silently to a piece of tissue paper, then use the edges to dab at my eyes while hopping my mascara hasnt run.
Like today, I had to do some stupid test at work. A total of 6 colleagues informed me, lao ban inclusive, and I felt so taken cared of.

I didnt know kenny the supp until I stepped into this office after our branched office moved back. My seat was pre-assigned by god-knows-who and I am sitting smack diagonal to kenny. That time I was feeling quite tensed cos I dont know who this person is and why the fuck do I need to be sitting so near to him leh?

Is it because constant supervision is necessary to ensure I do my work? No what! I do my work properly hor!

Eventually I just let my guard down and enjoy this supp's wit la. His direct subordinates joked around with him and he always have some clever comeback. I always laugh despite myself, while evesdropping on their conversations.

So I am delighted that he actually even considered me as one of his possible candidates. Nevermind am I one of the last he recalled, or that I am not going to take up the offer, I am really appreciative that he remembered.

Thank you, Kenny.