Extensively long tail...

Working in the service line really opens up eyes up to the real world. The ugly world.

I guess it must have been because I'd always been in denial of ugly behaviour, so I seldom understand/allow myself to understand how selfish and ugly mind works.

Day after day, minute after minute, I am facing with spiteful customers on the job whose life-long mission must be to make my life worse than it already is, if tt is possible.


I always prided myself for being nice and accommodating to others, irregardless whether they are friends, colleagues or whichever random person I meet on the streets. But recently, ever since I started on this job, I realised I've become as spiteful. I am less generous when people offend me, and I'm known for having an extra long tail wasting walking space on the floor, and people keep stomping on it.


I'm inept in handling my anger and frustrations and all I want to is to thrash out at the first person who crossed my path.

I'm less chivalrous to people whom I once find indispensable. Once upon a time, there are a few people whom I immediately associate as friends/hao peng you.

I love to be around them, and it seemed, back then, that they must be present to make my life a fulfilling and joyful one. Now I see them without their glow, and am scathing with my words which I am describing them in the deep of my heart.

Sigh. What is becoming of me?